I am a woman on fire for the love of life and being able to reach one life at a time through my words. If I can reach one then I can teach one the art of healing one's self from the inside out all mentaly
Dreaming of living.
What is the dream of living? What is the dream of living? It is the right question for me in my life because I have been struggling with some personal issues for years, and they have been haunting me since I was a child. The life that I thought I was living is still valid within itself, but some of the past are lies, making it challenging to understand. When you are a positive person like I am, there will be days that you don’t feel like being in the company of others, let alone yourself. There have been days that I just thought I should give up, and my inner self has always been in the background saying, don’t you dear, give up. There have been moments where I have been overlooked, passed up, and just ignored by others. Going through these things hurt me because, in my mind, I thought that others loved me, and it was this type of thinking that made me relook at myself. I learned along the way that I had to be hidden for a lot of reasons. My light is too big for others to see right now, and there are still some lessons that I need to master before I can go to the next level. I know now that I was hiding because if I let myself out too soon, I would mess things up even more for myself. After everything that I had been through, I needed to be hidden because I was still broken. Now I am not saying that I am not still broken in some places, but I know for a fact that I am not as broken as I used to be.
Being outside of me doesn't matter what you think or say because you are on the outside. You wouldn't know all the notebooks that I have notes in to make this book dream come true from the outside. If you choose to tell others outside of your inner circle that you are doing a book or making music or whatever your dream is, those outsiders are quick to try and kill your plan. Over the years, I have found that the real reason they do this is that they are not the ones who are doing the dream that you are doing. They can easily say things like, don't quit your day job or you shouldn't do the plan because others don't care about what you have to say. These types of people are just jealous because, for some odd reason, the very thing that you are working towards is happening for you and not for them. They begin to look at you sideways because you are the one that is making all the necessary changes to make it happen for yourself. No one knows how many pieces of paper you have thrown away because you feel into the thought pattern of negative self-talk, saying things like, maybe the person is right. No one is truly going to want to hear or even read what I have to say.
A Love Letter toSelf
Please untie the knots that are in my mind, my heart, and my life. I am continuously working on myself because I have loads of internal issues that I know I need to fix. I am not perfect, but I still wake up every morning with a smile on my face and a song in my heart. I will turn on my music playlist and get jamming for those days that I don’t hear or feel a peace in my heart. In my life, I have had to deal with not only my knots but the knots of others trying to push their will on me, and this is not good.
I Don’t Care
This is a great question because for me, I can sit down and think about what I truly care about right now. First of all it is not worrying about things, situations, and people trying to force themselves on me with their dumb-ass mindsets. I mean don’t get me wrong if you have something worthy of me listening to I do not have a problem in pausing what I am doing to listen. However, if all you can say and do is complain about what is wrong with others instead of taking the time to look and see what you can fix for yourself, then don’t expect me to care.
The Big Five
If you hang around five confident people, you will be the sixth. Knowing who to hang around is important because we all need each other to face life. It doesn’t matter what stage of life you are currently in right now. You have to understand that you are the one that is in control of you. When you hang around confident people, their energy will rub off on you and make you want to be more confident within yourself. If you know that you can do the job better than someone else, then make sure you are representing the best version of yourself to others so they can see the good in you and not the bad. I am not throwing shade at anyone here; I am only making a point. The more confident you are over yourself, others will soon notice and say things like, hey, I noticed that you had changed a bit.
“I love my age. Old enough to know better. Young enough to care. Experienced enough to do it right.” (Angela Bassett) (Black Women Empowered NJ/NY)
You all might not understand, but I lost myself a while back. So when you see me poppin’ my shit and living my best life, it’s not a stunt on anybody. It’s me apologizing to myself.
You don't know
We don't know what tomorrow will bring. So don't stay mad for too long. Learn to forgive and love with all your heart. Don't worry about the people who don't like you. Enjoy the ones who love you.