“Hands are meant to be held” Carina T., Nevada.
Do you love the feeling of someone rubbing your body all over slowly?
I highly enjoy it when my partner uses his hands all over me. He is always careful when he caresses my most intimate parts, and he is never greedy when it comes to sex. Just feeling him move his hands over my body takes me to a different world, and I look forward to the next time when we connect. He is so patient with me, and he never tries to rush me at all. I am so comfortable with him touching me that I know for a fact I don’t need anyone else to take care of me sexually because he took the time to master how my body moves. I know when I first met him that he was the one that could and did change my ways of thinking about men. I have built up in my head that all men were dogs because of my abusive past. He has shown me that this is not the case, and all men are not my abuser. It took me some time to understand what he was talking about, and even though I did not understand a word of what he was saying to me at the time, I am glad that he was still patient with me and took the time to show instead of telling me.
Who are you paying attention to?
Often, we pay attention to the wrong things in life. This can and will be a problem if you are not careful. Knowing the difference when you allow yourself to pay attention to little things going on around, you can save you a lot of hurt and pain in the long run. Often, it can even save your life. Who we pay attention to is important because we tend to entertain the wrong people, places, and things then wonder why we can’t get our lives back on track. Now I do understand that the world is a big place to live in. Simultaneously, as humans, we have to be mindful of things that could pull us in the wrong direction if we succeed in life.
There should never be any competition between us, so why is there this loss of loyalty and love for one another?
I must have been crazy to think that you loved me. I saw all of the signs, but I didn’t say anything. I can think of all the times I crossed the line for you because I couldn’t see myself with anybody else but you. Please tell me what you have thought because this is what you wanted. You should have been the one to hold me when I got lonely. See, every time I think of all the lies you told to me, you made it easier for me to leave. Should I have spoken up sooner, of course, but because the love I had for you was all that I knew. No one told me that loving you would be this hard. In fact, no one told me that you were a dog from the beginning. My family sure didn’t tell me and they are the ones that I would have expected to let me know about bad men in this world, but they didn’t. They just let me walk around with you, knowing that you were not a loyal and committed man. Sure, you wanted the lifestyle of a king, but you never acted like a king. Then you have the nerve to get mad at me for not giving you the things a king should have. First of all, you didn’t deserve it then, and you don’t deserve it now. Truly, it is all my fault for allowing you to carry me the way that you did. All of the verbal abuse and the sleeping around with other women did you really think that I would stay with you. I mean, come on, you had to know that this day would come. I see you for who you truly are now, and leaving you was the best thing I have ever done for me. So, if you are pissed well, this means that you can find some other female to play your dummy because I am not that little girl that was mentally and physically broken back in the days for you.
What sexual curiosities do you have?
Hello again, my name is Phoenix, and I must admit that I didn’t know what satisfied me in the past because I was a victim of sexual assault. Now that I am no longer a victim of my past, I can openly speak on sexual curiosities with no trouble. To get things started, let me first thank the love of my life M. P. for rebuilding and restoring me the person and the women.
So back to the original question, who is this woman really?
I believe that many women myself included having some time in our lives, did not know who this woman was. I know I didn’t know who I was because it takes years to develop the real you as a person. As women, we have to endure so much of what daily life dishes out at us that we tend to overlook and not focus on who we are. As children, we are taught different things like how we are supposed to conduct ourselves to get a man. How we are supposed to dress, and please don’t let me get started on how we are supposed to communicate with one another. With all of these things going on around us daily, it is easy to fall into the box of just following the crowd. This is why the first part of this piece is important because the woman who follows the crowd usually goes no further than the crowd.
“Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience, worst days give you lessons, and the best days give you memories.” (Instagram)