Determination and perseverance create an incredible yes

Isn't it scary to think about how you got to where you are now? Or maybe it's scarier to think about where you could have been if you had taken the shots you didn't? That's why self-reflection takes courage. It's scary to ask yourself the tough questions to determine whether you're happy where you are or if you took some wrong turns.

Self love..What a bit of irony it is to preach that daily to my 5 children, yet so much of 47, ok almost 48, years on this spinning rock, I have loathed myself.

I had no idea what I was going to write about today until I opened up my computer and sat there for a minute and just thought about it. I'm tired, I'm stressed, I'm nervous, the list goes on. In reality, some days are great and some days are terrible. Some days I feel like I'm on top of the world and everything is going right and the others I'm borderline depressed. I never talk about anything like that but that's the truth. But you know what? Do you know what keeps me going day after day, failure after failure? My drive to build and my drive to succeed according to my own standards. Not some BS standard established by the society that I surround myself with nor what other people want and expect me to be. This is me. People can take it or leave it but this is it. What you see is what you get and I try and be as genuine as I possibly can all the time.

When people asked me what I wanted to be, for the longest time my answer was happy. For a good portion of my life, I wasn’t sure if that was something that I was capable of. I still admire the people I meet that have naturally bubbly personalities that make everyone want to be around them. I have struggled with depression for so long that a while ago, I did not think there was ever going to be a light at the end of my tunnel. Between an abusive biological father, losing a child, a divorce, and the absence of a sibling all by the age of twenty-two, you could say that the depression I’ve struggled with was warranted. From a young age I began turning to books as an escape and amongst my favorites were all of J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter books. I have read the entire series at least five times, and the last two at least seven. Those books brought me joy, laughter, tears, love, and most importantly… Hope.

Funny how it takes a change of scenery and breaking of routine to find exactly what you're looking for.

My Confidence was Shot

What Exactly is Vocal?

I'm so sick of social media evoking jealousy and self-doubt.

In my sophomore year of high school, my friends and I revelled in the evenings spent gathering around each other's living rooms. A typical evening for us revolved around snacks, Netflix and the latest Youtube videos. Youtube was our source for popular music, gaming and practical jokes. Some of our favourite Youtubers included Jenna Marbles, Markiplier and Roman Atwood. I lived in an idyllic neighbourhood and recall many fond memories of my childhood.

I sat in our new rocking chair we bought in preparation for our baby, angled so my view was directly outside. I was hit with flashbacks to my grandpa's ranch in rural Missouri. The patio faced endless rolling hills as you’d see in a Bob Ross painting; dotted with bison, patches of forest, and ponds splotched in the valleys. Chunks of my childhood summers were spent here, but in my memory I feel as though it was my true home.

Sitting in the tiny bathroom of a coffee shop, I was in shock. I had just read the one word which would change my life forever. I felt numb. I was pregnant. There was a life inside me.

Self love..What a bit of irony it is to preach that daily to my 5 children, yet so much of 47, ok almost 48, years on this spinning rock, I have loathed myself.

Mermaids, sea creatures, Gods of the sea, this is what came from my nerdiness and love for mythology. I have loved mermaids and water since I was a little girl, have always felt comfortable in the water and would spend long periods of time in it. Be it by swimming or just floating there. I always was called the fish out of water because of it. For this tattoo I was looking for something that would represent that in all it's meaning but for some time I couldn't find anything that would call to me. Some time ago I accompanied my friend to a tattoo shop for an appointment and as she was scrolling on her phone to find the design she wanted she stumbled upon this design online and show it to me saying I believe it would look great on you and it captures what you were looking for. I fell in love with it at first sight. Because I would always tell her how I would like to have a mermaid tattoo on me but at the same time It didn't feel correct cause the different ones I saw and belive me I saw quite lot of them that seemed too grotesque,big, flirty, scary,just too cartoony, not for me.Then appeared this merman who took us by surprise ,for me specifically when I get some art done on my body it has to mean something. At first I started to think really deep about what meaning a merman would have for me to get it on my body. It took me a while to get somewhere with him. At the time I had just changed schedules at work it was a good change but it meant less social life than I had at that point it wasn't much. When I talked to the artist about doing him at first all we had was a black and white drawing we took from the internet. From there we talked about sitting him on something so his pose would be explained. It took 7 hours in total that we had to divide in 3 sittings thanks Covid regulations for the shop. So while we were in this session there came the idea of waiting, of things are going to get better if you're patient. So to me this merman is sitting on the rocks waiting for something. Maybe a new start or maybe someone. I happen to like mythology so we can put it as a representation of the sea gods. This could be a young Poseidon before he became ruler of the sea. Or could also be Grannus warming the spring waters, Yocahu watching over the sea,Varuna god of the water and the celestial ocean, Neptune before going to war,Triton thinking of the legacy his father left for him. Maybe he's thinking of his next move, where would he swim to, what would he do, who will he meet, etc… There's a million ways to try and interpret this. The interpretation for me is an imagination of an alternative reality where we are just waiting for what comes next. We take our time to breath and think before we act.Maybe we will take that step and quit our jobs to travel the world. Or we'll get the courage to talk about our problems with someone. Who knows maybe we will get the calm we need to keep doing whatever it is that we do. But for now we are sitting on a rock thinking of what would be our next move in life. Just waiting.

This morning I was taking my morning poop in my bathroom when I witnessed the most peculiar sight. I saw a spider not kill a fly today. I witnessed this extraordinary experience while enjoying my guilty pleasure getting lost in my thoughts and ambitions for the day without my cellular device of mass anxiety.

I recently downloaded the audio book “Don’t Just Sit There” by the beautiful meditation teacher & author Biet Simkin.

The Self Help genre is flourishing at the moment. Anxiety of numerous kinds is prevalent in every corner of society and many are looking for advice on how to cope. Writers and authors who want to capitalise on this trend should be prepared to do a lot of research to ensure that they are giving their readers factual and useful information. But it can also be helpful to know what is popular in the genre and what people are actively looking for. Here are the top three trends in the best selling Self Help books.

When I was six years old, I was just beginning to explore what would eventually become an obsession with literature. As I excitedly described Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone to my Aunt, she told me that one day, I would read a book that would change my life.

I had no idea what I was going to write about today until I opened up my computer and sat there for a minute and just thought about it. I'm tired, I'm stressed, I'm nervous, the list goes on. In reality, some days are great and some days are terrible. Some days I feel like I'm on top of the world and everything is going right and the others I'm borderline depressed. I never talk about anything like that but that's the truth. But you know what? Do you know what keeps me going day after day, failure after failure? My drive to build and my drive to succeed according to my own standards. Not some BS standard established by the society that I surround myself with nor what other people want and expect me to be. This is me. People can take it or leave it but this is it. What you see is what you get and I try and be as genuine as I possibly can all the time.

Interesting enough

Making The Decision

When people asked me what I wanted to be, for the longest time my answer was happy. For a good portion of my life, I wasn’t sure if that was something that I was capable of. I still admire the people I meet that have naturally bubbly personalities that make everyone want to be around them. I have struggled with depression for so long that a while ago, I did not think there was ever going to be a light at the end of my tunnel. Between an abusive biological father, losing a child, a divorce, and the absence of a sibling all by the age of twenty-two, you could say that the depression I’ve struggled with was warranted. From a young age I began turning to books as an escape and amongst my favorites were all of J.K. Rowling’s Harry Potter books. I have read the entire series at least five times, and the last two at least seven. Those books brought me joy, laughter, tears, love, and most importantly… Hope.

Funny how it takes a change of scenery and breaking of routine to find exactly what you're looking for.

Small and Beautiful Helena

One of the things we all wish for is to lead a relatively drama free life.

Life is tough. There are times when you feel like everything is going against you and the world is a cruel place. However, there are ways through which you can turn around your life. Here are 10 simple things that will help you to turn your life around. Let’s get started:

There are ads everywhere telling you that you can make extra cash by staying home and clicking on a few links or playing some app. But how many of them actually payoff in the long run? It’s easy to be skeptical about things like this, mostly because half of them are just spam and the other half are ‘earn a dollar in a month’ types. Work has been glued into our minds to be a nine to five shift at some place serving some people, not stay in your pajamas all day working at your computer or on your phone. For some people, working alone in your own home sounds like a dream come true. But for others not so much, some people need the everyday rhythm of getting up and going to work or the need to socialize. During the beginning of Covid quarantine I was living it up. I got to stay home and do whatever I wanted, stay up however late I wanted, and sleep however late I wanted. But one of my roommates was having a much harder time than I was. He got restless over time and needed to be able to work again to feel like he had a life again. For me and others, a perfectly happy life would be not leaving my house for most days of the week.

It's been 7 months since the pandemic began and everyone is still adjusting to what this new life means to them. While you may be one of the economic casualties of Covid-19, becuase you are unemployed or your hours have been reduced, that doesn't mean that your life needs to be totally runied as a result.

Isn't it scary to think about how you got to where you are now? Or maybe it's scarier to think about where you could have been if you had taken the shots you didn't? That's why self-reflection takes courage. It's scary to ask yourself the tough questions to determine whether you're happy where you are or if you took some wrong turns.

My story begins as a child in the 80’s, we just moved to Florida from Germany. I cannot recall having much motivation at this point other than to do anything to impress my mother. My mother worked several jobs as I grew up and was never home. I think that is why I felt invisible and thus began my motivation for getting her approval. I sought her approval through having good grades and trying to excel in sports and other after-school activities. I admit that I went through phases of good and bad grades. Her initial response to my straight A’s was, “You can do better”. So, at times I would make bad grades in hopes that she would say the same thing and then when I improved, I would get praise. Even though I never received her praises, I still wanted to maintain good grades with the hopes that she would see me.

One of the things we all wish for is to lead a relatively drama free life.

Like many others, especially in my age group, I’m a little bit obsessed with social media. Everyday I hop onto Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter to scroll through my feeds of friends, family, and news to stay up to date and interact with the world around me. It’s perfectly normal for their to be negativity on my feed, which I am sure is the same for most people. Twitter, more so than other social media platforms, has a reputation for being extremely toxic, especially given the current circumstances. All across the app people are venting and arguing about every topic from politics to their personal lives and strangers are able to interact with these outpourings. This is what makes Twitter so toxic. Platforms like Facebook and Instagram curate feeds centred on what the user searches for on their platform and who they follow. Twitter does the same to a certain extent, but there is also a lot more interaction beyond these parameters.

2020: The year of essentials + my story of building trust in something greater than myself

I know you probably first hand looking at the title some of you are thinking "Is she telling us to delete Facebook"? No I am not. I will never do that. Of course if you decide to delete your account I will definitely be in the crowd cheering you on, lol.

Determination and perseverance create an incredible yes

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One of the things we all wish for is to lead a relatively drama free life.