Lucinet Luna - The Author
Bio
I've written two books; I decided to keep my blog, because healing is like an onion and I want to see the process, I want to be able to come back and read about all these layers and feel as proud as I am right now.
Stories (60/0)
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Ever since I knew what materialistic things were, I also understood that we were poor. One pair of black sneakers for the school year, one uniform, which now as a mother I realized meant that my mother had to work harder at maintaining it, for us to look presentable. I have always been grateful, if you ask anyone who knows me, I can make a whole meal out of 5 bucks, less if I am being honest; I once had a dollar for dinner, I got two coffee cakes and a juice, until 8am the next day when I would be eating a hot breakfast at JobCorps. I am not scared of not having, I fear having and not being grateful for it, people forget that once they have nothing when they get everything. I woke up today, to my 3rd bonus this year, 2020, and the overwhelming feeling of emotional exhaustion hit me, it hit me hard, I cried like a baby, I cried because I feel grateful for all I have, but I also feel the deepest sense of needing to help those who have not been as fortunate as I have.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Motivation
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September 2017 I decided to leave all I've ever known, to chase the unknown; a man, a feeling, an emotion, a dare: I am still figuring that answer out. In destruction mode, I savaged all I touch, I broke all I worked so hard for in a matter of months.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Psyche
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I am on my porch, after a long day at the desk, I needed some fresh air; I went to see my stats and I am deeply confused, this week was all about what is next on my spiritual journey, I met with a wonderful coach and I got some direction, but as my mouse stopped on the views and hearts of 104, the one where I talk about Rafael, I felt confused; I wrote it on an empty wall, a silent street, so I am not sure how come that is the most read, the most reacted to of all the numbers . Then I thought, maybe this is direction; this history book is all about my healing process, but in order to heal I have to write about the experiences that made me hard, that left me speechless, the ones that betrayed my soul.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Motivation
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As I get deeper, in this history book I am writing on a silent wall, I am starting to heal quietly; things are beginning to shift, inside and out of me, strengths and weaknesses are having in- depth conversations, while I sew away at this heart. As I settled on my feelings about this weekend, I found that the issue was not surfaced level, it was yet another deep rooted layer in my healing journey, and I've been in front of this computer trying to translate it into writing all day.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Humans
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I am sitting in a dim lit living room at 6 in the morning, I am supporting my close friend in being the best version of herself, for her. We agreed we would wake up at 5:45 this morning and work on things, for her that is catching a moment of solitude while catching up at work: for me, I needed quietude.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Families
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I’ve always gotten fluster when asked “If you could have dinner with anyone, dead or alive, who would you have dinner with?” I’ve never narrowed it down to one person; I mean you have the greatest, Elizabeth C Stanton, you have the awesome Tupac, my personal favorite my dad and of course the most recent ones, Obama and J Cole.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Feast
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Writing has always been intimate for me, maybe it's the way I write, or the way my stories seem to sound made up; someone asked recently, why am I writing this on plain ol internet when I can write it in a book; they were referring to entry 104. I replied " He is not my story: I am " and all the doubt that had started in the back of my mind, was put to bed. I am a great writer, always been; I've written since I could spell, in both languages; Spanish and English. I wrote stories, related to experiences I had growing up, but I've never had the balls to write MY story and doing so now, is the most amazing feeling I've felt in a thousand years.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Families
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When I was 16, I begged my mother to take me to the GYN because I was having painful menstrual cycles; after a few attempts to take care of them at home she made an appointment for me, she asked me "are you having sex?" flat out while we waited in the waiting area "No" and that was the truth; was someone raping me? yes.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Viva
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Kintsugi changed how I viewed all of my world, it changed how I thought about myself and the process I was currently enduring; it was hard to see outside the box because well, when you are told you are broken a million pieces, how can you possibly sit with patience and begin working at it? how can you take what's left and converted to what is next?
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Motivation
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Entering the ring on the left is Heart, entering the ring on the right is Mind. Mom burned my brother's hand because he stole money out of her wallet, as his hand settled on top of the stove, he was smiling out of ego but a few seconds later he started screaming and mumbling words that my mom needed clarity on, so she didn't let up, until he said those words clearly: "I am sorry mom" she let his hand go, and imminently threw it on a bowl full of milk. At the time, I didn't see the bowl of milk waiting in the sink, it was out of sight, all I saw was anger and disappointment in her eyes, fear in his. He never stole a penny from no one again.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Motivation
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It was horrible, but the sweetest thing ever at the same time, is like having to pee so bad but being far away from home, so you go on your pants, and though you know you will regret it the second it starts to warm your legs, you do it because; you have to pee.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 4 years ago in Humans