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  • Daniel Wittler
    Published about 24 hours ago
    Getting Sober While Grieving My Father's Death

    Getting Sober While Grieving My Father's Death

    I was 21 when I first tried to get help for my drug problem. Only two years prior I had tried my first opiate out of curiosity, I could not fathom where taking that first pill brought me. I had gotten caught stealing from my family, and was told I must go to treatment. Without any other option, that’s what I did. I surely did not want to hurt my family anymore but I also did not think I had a big problem and treated those couple years as a bad phase. I did what I have seen a lot of people do, I went to treatment because I was in trouble, not because I was ready to change my life forever.
  • Joseph Willson
    Published a day ago
    Hell on Earth

    Hell on Earth

    The truth of the matter is this is a place where; if you have ever lived here, you could very easily understand where it is I get my self-diagnosis from. Sure, I may have only lived in the area for two years at the time of writing this, and no I have not by any degree seen the very worst of what the Downtown Eastside has to offer. I do thank my lucky stars every day for that little gift. I have seen some extremely disturbing things within those two years mind you; drug use, of course, because it is rampant- overdoses, yes because they are very common, death, another thing that until I came to the downtown Eastside I had a small experience with and absolutely never, this kind of death. This is a form of death that is slow, very slow for the majority. This comes from killing oneself from within. Sure, there is always the drug overdoses that the paramedics (God bless them for the things they do down here) cannot reverse. Sometimes they just cannot get there quick enough or the drug itself was just too damn lethal in the first place. People get shot and stabbed, and they have the living hell beat out of them. There are rapes and murders and the entire gamut of the things you would see in the likes of places such as New York city or South Central Los Angeles. I know this is Vancouver, supposedly a safe and beautiful city where this kind of thing does not occur—wrong, wrong on so many levels.
  • andrea wainer
    Published a day ago
    Narcissists and Psychopaths Cause and Create Chaos

    Narcissists and Psychopaths Cause and Create Chaos

    Narcissists and psychopaths manufacture chaos. In part, this is because they are not integrated and chaotic. They also most often were raised in chaotic environments that lacked structure and consistency. They have learned that by creating chaos and confusion, they are best able to portray their victims as "unstable." Normal people do not function well in chaos. Children thrive and crave structure. These folks intentionally create chaos in the lives of children, which lead to the children reacting in understandably negative ways.
  • Jasmine Morris
    Published a day ago
    Top 5 Most Common Phobias

    Top 5 Most Common Phobias

    When we are born, we're born with the fear of three things; the dark, loud noises, and falling down.
  • Catherine Agati
    Published 2 days ago
    The Favored Scapegoat

    The Favored Scapegoat

    "The media (and politicians) is/are so quick to pick up the mental illness scapegoat because it/they know(s) that people need to blame the tragedy on something" - Mike Hedrick
  • R C
    Published 2 days ago
    My Story of PTSD

    My Story of PTSD

    A little over a month ago I lost someone very close to me. He had his own demons, and leading up to what would be a difficult day for myself and him, I received a couple of messages on different days asking for help. I went, without question, in the middle of the night to see him; we talked and reminisced and he seemed fine after I left. Then I got a call one day at work to say I needed to get to the hospital, my friend was in there and had tried to kill himself. I was listed as his next of kin and I didn't know. Unfortunately, he didn't make it; his wounds, both mental and physical, were too much, and he didn't want to fight anymore.
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  • Peter Ellis
    Published 6 days ago
    How Anxiety Impacts Me in Different Situations

    How Anxiety Impacts Me in Different Situations

    I was fairly late to the anxiety party, I can't say it was one I particularly wanted to be invited to after hanging around the depression get-togethers for too long.
  • Angela Purbaugh
    Published 11 days ago
    Dyslexia + Me = An Awkward Situation

    Dyslexia + Me = An Awkward Situation

    There was something wrong with me.
  • Kelly Brealey
    Published about a month ago
    I Own Bipolar and cPTSD

    I Own Bipolar and cPTSD

    A lot of times, you hear people with medical or mental health conditions "disown" their diagnoses. They refrain from saying "my cancer", or, "my anxiety"—and for good reason. It has been shown that by separating yourself from your illness, you don't take on the negative attributes; you are not your illness.
  • Harley Super
    Published 2 months ago
    Honest About Mental Illness

    Honest About Mental Illness

    There's a certain strength that comes along with being honest about where you need to be met.
  • Richard L
    Published 2 months ago
    10 Super Secret Facts About Being Addicted

    10 Super Secret Facts About Being Addicted

    My name is Richard Jones and this is my story!
  • Paige Graffunder
    Published 2 months ago
    Finding Light in Darkness

    Finding Light in Darkness

    I am an atheist. I hold to no gods, no faith, no religion. I don’t have a problem with people finding faith comforting, but I don’t believe in proselytizing and I think that “mission trips” are just a fancy way to say “colonialism.” However, a couple of years ago, I had a friend join The Satanic Temple, and because I try to take an active interest in the lives of my friends, I looked it up. And what I found there, was the Seven Tenets, that are the fundamental base to The Satanic Temple. They resonated with me, and I read more and wrote them out; and over the last two years, have applied them to my life, and my therapist and I agree for once that they have helped me. So without pretense or expectation, I present to you the Seven Tenets, and how I have applied them to my life to aid in my constant process of tweaking my outlook to improve my mental health.
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Addiction
  • Daniel Wittler
    Published about 24 hours ago
    Getting Sober While Grieving My Father's Death

    Getting Sober While Grieving My Father's Death

    I was 21 when I first tried to get help for my drug problem. Only two years prior I had tried my first opiate out of curiosity, I could not fathom where taking that first pill brought me. I had gotten caught stealing from my family, and was told I must go to treatment. Without any other option, that’s what I did. I surely did not want to hurt my family anymore but I also did not think I had a big problem and treated those couple years as a bad phase. I did what I have seen a lot of people do, I went to treatment because I was in trouble, not because I was ready to change my life forever.
  • Joseph Willson
    Published a day ago
    Hell on Earth

    Hell on Earth

    The truth of the matter is this is a place where; if you have ever lived here, you could very easily understand where it is I get my self-diagnosis from. Sure, I may have only lived in the area for two years at the time of writing this, and no I have not by any degree seen the very worst of what the Downtown Eastside has to offer. I do thank my lucky stars every day for that little gift. I have seen some extremely disturbing things within those two years mind you; drug use, of course, because it is rampant- overdoses, yes because they are very common, death, another thing that until I came to the downtown Eastside I had a small experience with and absolutely never, this kind of death. This is a form of death that is slow, very slow for the majority. This comes from killing oneself from within. Sure, there is always the drug overdoses that the paramedics (God bless them for the things they do down here) cannot reverse. Sometimes they just cannot get there quick enough or the drug itself was just too damn lethal in the first place. People get shot and stabbed, and they have the living hell beat out of them. There are rapes and murders and the entire gamut of the things you would see in the likes of places such as New York city or South Central Los Angeles. I know this is Vancouver, supposedly a safe and beautiful city where this kind of thing does not occur—wrong, wrong on so many levels.
  • Lee Taylor
    Published 6 days ago
    Gambling + Me = Bad Combination

    Gambling + Me = Bad Combination

    So a little about me..
Advice
  • andrea wainer
    Published 22 days ago
    Divorcing a Narcissist

    Divorcing a Narcissist

    Divorce is never pleasant. Divorcing a narcissist is traumatic and causes Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and Complex PTSD. While every person who enters into a relationship with a narcissist is a victim of abuse, I will use the word, "target."
  • Ayanda Mandlazi
    Published about a month ago
    Are You Sick of Shame?

    Are You Sick of Shame?

    The feeling of shame is one of the most overpowering feelings you can ever experience. The definition of the emotion implies that you had to have done something, therefore, you feel humiliated or embarrassed. I'm sure we've all been there after doing something out of character, and you end up feeling shameful.
  • Authentically Me
    Published 2 months ago
    Meeting Your Emotional Needs

    Meeting Your Emotional Needs

    I am not exactly sure how to start this article, but I think that it is important to discuss the importance of meeting one's emotional needs. In fact, for everyday life, it is vital, because if your own personal needs are not met, you start to withdraw from your interpersonal relationships, and become what some call a hermit. While every once and a while it is okay to hide in your shell, you need to make sure that this does not take over your entire life, because it is unhealthy to stay away from people for too long.
Anxiety
  • Peter Ellis
    Published 6 days ago
    How Anxiety Impacts Me in Different Situations

    How Anxiety Impacts Me in Different Situations

    I was fairly late to the anxiety party, I can't say it was one I particularly wanted to be invited to after hanging around the depression get-togethers for too long.
  • H. Jacob Sandigo
    Published 18 days ago
    How Philosophy Helped My Anxiety

    How Philosophy Helped My Anxiety

    Philosopher as an artist—In this article, I will be expanding upon the essay Instinct, Intelligence, and Anxiety by Alan Watts. This essay came into my life when I was having an internal debate of impulse vs. rational thought. How much of our experience is due to an excess of one or the other? Can we ever fully master our desires, or will they possess us and make free will obsolete?
  • C.A. Santiago
    Published 21 days ago
    Little Steps to Face Your Fears

    Little Steps to Face Your Fears

    We all feel anxious about something, or certain situations; an exam, going on a trip somewhere on your own for the first time, asking someone to go on a date with you. It's all different for everyone. Things that I might find easy, you may find difficult, and vice versa. But for some people, like me, almost everything makes me anxious, even things that I have done a million times before. But I'm fighting it, and if you're like me, hopefully you're fighting it too. It’s hard to be living everyday afraid and/or worried about a lot of things! We’re literally living in fear!
Bipolar
  • Jay Williams
    Published 28 days ago
    Post-Party Crash

    Post-Party Crash

    This past Wednesday, I had what would be considered a mental crack. Not a complete breakdown, but I had broken down throughout the day. Waking up on my day off, I had experienced a series of fluxes in my emotions that all lead up to me feeling empty and overflowing with tears. You may be wondering why or even when did I figure out that I was mentally cracking. Through the tears and anguish, I had begun to search out, to figuring out the reasons why. Why was I so damn sad when everything around me has been going well? Why was I feeling so empty that mustering the feeling of being "full" was a difficult task, especially in the things that had been going very well for me?
  • Shannon Clarke
    Published 2 months ago
    I Have Bipolar Disorder and I Will Not Be Shamed

    I Have Bipolar Disorder and I Will Not Be Shamed

    When I was eight, I felt true sadness for the first time; real, deep sadness. The kind of sadness that can’t be cured with a hug from your mum.
  • Ryan Ziemba
    Published 2 months ago
    Bipolar Penpals

    Bipolar Penpals

    My aunt, who, like me, struggles with mental illness (me, bipolar disorder, her chronic depression). We've begun to exchange letters to track our comings and goings in hopes of at least to keep a steady diary charting our moods, at most to offer one another consolation and guidance to live fuller, more stable lives.
Coping
  • Cassandra Carter
    Published 6 days ago
    Time to Spill the Tea

    Time to Spill the Tea

    Today was the first day in over a week I got up and actually got stuck in on some housework. I'd overslept. Again. Not so much tired, as unwilling to face the world just yet. A feeling compounded by my little pickle having snuck in during night, her tiny arms wrapped around my neck and tiny face muzzled in my chest made the prospect of getting up that much less appealing. Add to that fact, I knew exactly what was waiting for me when I threw off that duvet. Pots and pans left to "soak" for a week, laundry piles so high it was questionable if I even have clean pants in the drawer, and a general swirl of clutter, both as a result of, and a reminder that I have been feeling less than great lately. I haven't been feeling on top of the world for a few months in fact, but this last week or so has seen a clear and undeniable decline in my wellness. It always starts the same; a general feeling of tiredness or fatigue. That in itself leads to a development in procrastination. As the to do list grows, so does my sense of avoidance. The avoidance allows the piles of washing up and laundry to grow, only driving my feelings of failure and hopelessness to a more resolute position in my mind. The feeling of hopelessness whirling around in my head, draining me of my energy, creates more of the same fatigue that brought me here.
  • Aelicia Thomas
    Published 10 days ago
    Brain on Fire: Battle Within

    Brain on Fire: Battle Within

    Having anxiety or depression is hard, but living with both represents a constant battle. It is as if you are in a constant battle with yourself; your brain is trying to process so many things you feel it is on fire and is about to explode due to this increase of messages, memories, thoughts, etc. That's ok because there is hope in tomorrow. If no one has advised you before, then I will; you can live an enjoyable life with depression and anxiety. You can wake up with unspeakable comfort, sincerely appreciating that from this precise moment forth I have control.
  • Jeremy K.
    Published 11 days ago
    Coping

    Coping

    Coping skills are, in my opinion, the key to beating mental illness. The best way to learn coping skills is by talking to a qualified therapist who knows your condition. I have not always been an advocate for therapy, but after spending time with a few good ones, I now realize their importance in recovery and maybe, a significant reduction of your symptoms.
Depression
  • Teresa Landreth
    Published 2 days ago
    Surviving Suicide
  • Rebeca M
    Published 2 days ago
    Depression and Anxiety

    Depression and Anxiety

    Depression and anxiety are mental illnesses that I wish upon no one. They both ruin your life. They both make you believe you're not worth it. You want to do something with your life but something is holding you back. All you ever want to do is lay in bed and sleep. You can feel sad and lonely even if you have people around. You don't like to rely on people because you think you're bothering them. You can walk out of your house and your heart begins to beat uncontrollably. Anything you do makes you overthink. You keep everything inside and that's slowly killing you.
  • Ainsley Peace
    Published 8 days ago
    Anchor

    Anchor

    I put on twenty layers of mascara and red lipstick before I walk out the door. You can't cry in red lipstick, and who wants layers of thick black tears running down their faces? I cry when I'm angry, I cry when I'm sad, and I cry when I'm happy. If I experience an intense emotion, it usually ends in tears. I drown in my feelings. I don't swim in them. Today I woke up gasping for air. I hope I don't go under again.
Disorder
  • Jasmine Morris
    Published a day ago
    Top 5 Most Common Phobias

    Top 5 Most Common Phobias

    When we are born, we're born with the fear of three things; the dark, loud noises, and falling down.
  • Angela Purbaugh
    Published 11 days ago
    Dyslexia + Me = An Awkward Situation

    Dyslexia + Me = An Awkward Situation

    There was something wrong with me.
  • Kayla Barker
    Published 24 days ago
    Postpartum Depression

    Postpartum Depression

    Mothers, the strongest creature in our world. They are able to do the job of six people in one day, for multiple children. They are able to go almost all day without drinking water or eating well, or even taking time for themselves! We see this strength almost right after a mother finds out she is pregnant. She puts her child before everything. She goes back to school, not because she wants to, but because she sees the future she could provide for her children. We don’t, however, see her inner struggle. We don’t see the mom with a week old newborn struggling to stay afloat mentally. We don’t see the battle—no, the war—that is going on inside of her mind that she is fighting everyday. She is strong, but she can’t do it on her own.
Eating
  • Sandy Lo
    Published about a month ago
    Eating Disorders: Living in Secret Shame

    Eating Disorders: Living in Secret Shame

    There are two people inside of me.
  • T. Turner
    Published 2 months ago
    Losing Weight

    Losing Weight

    This isn’t as easy as people make it out to be. People tell me to just be more active. To change my diet. Go to the gym. Work out. It isn’t that simple. It is never that simple.
  • Kate Chessy
    Published 2 months ago
    New Weight Watchers Program Encourages Eating Disorders in Kids Ages 8-17

    New Weight Watchers Program Encourages Eating Disorders in Kids Ages 8-17

    I was 8 years old when I started my first ever diet, Weight Watchers. Before I had finished growing or hit puberty, I was already trying to make myself smaller. This sparked a long journey of crash dieting, disordered eating, starvation, and body dysmorphia. My parents were only doing what they thought was best, guided by the poor advice of a medical professional. If you are familiar with my story, then you know that they had already lost one daughter at this point. I think my changing body was a reminder of my mortality to them. I think we were all existing in a system that preyed upon this fear. I already had so much of my childhood taken away from me through the trauma of losing my little sister. Diet culture was right there to swoop in and take what little childhood I had left.
Personality Disorder
  • andrea wainer
    Published a day ago
    Narcissists and Psychopaths Cause and Create Chaos

    Narcissists and Psychopaths Cause and Create Chaos

    Narcissists and psychopaths manufacture chaos. In part, this is because they are not integrated and chaotic. They also most often were raised in chaotic environments that lacked structure and consistency. They have learned that by creating chaos and confusion, they are best able to portray their victims as "unstable." Normal people do not function well in chaos. Children thrive and crave structure. These folks intentionally create chaos in the lives of children, which lead to the children reacting in understandably negative ways.
  • andrea wainer
    Published 5 days ago
    Narcissists and Society

    Narcissists and Society

    In this tragic state of school shootings, women being killed by their partners frequently, constant news of corruption in our family courts and movies and music industries, Child Protective Services, Police, Social Workers, the foster-care system, political offices (all of which serve as processors and purveyors of pedophilia and child sex trafficking), we are desperate for the "reasons."
  • Keisha Wilson
    Published 12 days ago
    Don't Wait

    Don't Wait

    I sit here today feeling accomplished and generally happy. I feel ambitious, positive, healthy and capable. Tomorrow may shine a different light on my life, so I close my eyes and tell myself to live in the moment. The impending doom that I try so hard to avoid every day will eventually make an appearance. It might not be today, tomorrow, or even a few weeks from now, but the feeling of being swallowed up by the whole world and sucked into a deep pit of despair will rear its evil head. I believe that acceptance and being aware of what that looks like before it consumes you is key to surviving this whirlwind of a disorder: BPD. Borderline Personality Disorder.
Stigma
  • Catherine Agati
    Published 2 days ago
    The Favored Scapegoat

    The Favored Scapegoat

    "The media (and politicians) is/are so quick to pick up the mental illness scapegoat because it/they know(s) that people need to blame the tragedy on something" - Mike Hedrick
  • The One True Geekology
    Published 3 days ago
    World Mental Health Day

    World Mental Health Day

    Note: Anything stated below is purely from my own opinions and experience, and is not the voice of the Collective, although this will be checked by other admins before posting! This post is about my experiences with my mental health, so if this is a trigger for you, please stop reading.
  • Nic Castle
    Published 22 days ago
    Disability, Learning the Truth

    Disability, Learning the Truth

    It was around 1987, and I was working in my first job since leaving school. I was a trainee Pharmacy Technician in a small town called Padiham. A change in health policy meant that many people who had been in-patients were discharged from a hospital called Calderstones and placed into something being called care in the community. Calderstones was one of several hospitals classed at the time as being for the mentally ill. It was home to people who society over the years classed as outcasts. Some of the patients, a term I use loosely, were deaf people who struggled to speak; placing young women in an institution after giving birth and some people who had a variety of mental illnesses. I remember the re-homing of a couple of people in communal accommodation not far from the chemist where I worked.
Trauma
  • Xris Madness
    Published 11 days ago
    I'm in the E.R.

    I'm in the E.R.

    10/1/19 3:48 pm (pst)
  • Debbie Parker
    Published 20 days ago
    What Exactly Is Trauma

    What Exactly Is Trauma

    The effects of abuse and neglect: With the trauma-informed care movement, we have all heard that early childhood abuse and neglect impact brain development. Even exclusively psychological abuse has enduring negative effects on brain development. Physical, sexual, and psychological trauma in childhood may lead to psychiatric difficulties that show up in childhood, adolescence, or adulthood. The victim’s anger, shame, and despair can be directed inward to spawn symptoms such as depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, and post-traumatic stress, or directed outward as aggression, impulsiveness, delinquency, hyperactivity, and substance abuse.
  • Tyger Jackson
    Published 24 days ago
    Damaged but Not Broken: The Relationship

    Damaged but Not Broken: The Relationship

    For every tragic story there is a beginning. The roadmap that got you to that point. For me, it was a wonderful fairytale turned nightmare.
Treatments
  • Lunetta
    Published 2 months ago
    Art Therapy and PTSD

    Art Therapy and PTSD

    Healing Through Art Therapy
  • Marissa Hall
    Published 2 months ago
    Narcan Saves Lives

    Narcan Saves Lives

    There a lot of issues that are stigmatized in society, whether it be mental illness, drugs, or other various health issues. That is just to name a few and I am sure there are tons more. So, why did society become that way? Was society always so intolerant or naive to these issues?
  • Frank Dillon
    Published 3 months ago
    Afloat

    Afloat

    I wrote this script after reading the screenplay for one of my favorite movies, Forest Gump.