Struggling with depression and anxiety all my life isn't an easy thing to do. Growing up since early childhood with no therapy and no social support and nobody to talk to about the issues and drama I've been dealing with on my own. It's even harder to do so when I have verbal speech disorder. So, I became a social introvert, just keep to myself and stay away from people who mean spirited, tyrannically, manipulative and critical, even if with some family members, friends, neighbors, teachers and students I grew up with.
We are at our best when nothing bothers us – mentally and emotionally. But try doing something while you have anxiety that seems out of control. Surely, you will under-perform or fall below the quality of your outputs. Isn’t that then a compelling reason why learning how to manage our anxiety and put everything under control especially on times when we really need so is badly important? Bet you agree with that. Do you? So, here’s the good thing: we are capable of handling it under any circumstances. How? Now that’s another question to settle.
When we were young, we always have this dream of what we want to become and what we want to have when we get to a certain age.
Since I was very young, I was diagnosed with pretty bad agoraphobia. It led to a number of things: dermatillomania, hypochondria and various social anxiety problems and panic disorders. During university, I collapsed a number of times in various locations including the library and the lunchroom because of my panic attacks. My agoraphobia no doubt has caused my life to be completely isolated from most every other meaningful human connection. Am I worried about that? No. What am I worried about? I am worried that I one day, it will become impossible for me to shut myself away and so, I require a coping mechanism. Even though it is difficult, I am pretty sure it is not impossible.
Living with an addict is one of the hardest things to do. First, you have people on the outside asking you, “why don’t you just leave” or “why don’t you kick them out?” It might seem that simple - but it’s not. Everyone has their own circumstances and reasoning for why they do the things we do and we can’t always control that.
At the point when you build an addiction for anything in life – be it alcohol, drug or regardless of whether some sort of food addiction – you don't build it in overnight. Consistent consumption of the specific thing drives you to create a dependency for it, and in the long run you end up being addicted.
I have a personal admission. I love to argue on the internet, I love to google, and provide evidence, I kind of want people to prove me wrong. My brain loves puzzles, I make puzzles of things that arent puzzles. I have been known to try to get people to just openly admit what they are alluding to or draw the lines to the meme that was shared, and the implications of that belief system.