Lucinet Luna - The Author
Bio
I've written two books; I decided to keep my blog, because healing is like an onion and I want to see the process, I want to be able to come back and read about all these layers and feel as proud as I am right now.
Stories (60/0)
Damn, I got COVID.
After 2 years of playing Mario with COVID-19, January 01,2022 the beast finally squared up to me, now it knocked me out, lights out, I mean worst I’ve ever been BUT it brought out something in me that I haven’t seen in such a long time; it brought out the need of needing someone.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 2 years ago in Motivation
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When I was 5 years old, I begged one of my friend’s mom to allow me to go back to their home to play, my friend’s mom asked if I had asked my mother and with a smile on my face, I said the biggest lie of my 5-year-old life; yes. We walked, my friend and I playing tag the whole way to her house, me, unaware of my surroundings; all my excitement was based on the extension of my time with my friend. We settled and played for what felt like a while, finally my friend’s mother asked if my mother was going to pick me up soon, and yet again, with the biggest smile on my face I said, yes.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Motivation
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When I am focus, I tend to make lists; no more than 3 things at a time, that is how I keep my eyes on the ball, I learned this from a co-worker early on in my adulthood: I call these lists “Working On” and they are usually around my desk, or the calendar on the fridge. This helps me remind myself of the goals in my good days and bad days, it helps me figure out road blockers as I go, because I know where I am going, it gives me a vision. I recently learned that I do the same with my emotions, I take an emotion at a time, wrestle with it until I know where it is coming from and how to fix it; the thing is, I have not learned what to do when I can’t fix it; and so, I get stuck on the feeling of not knowing.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Motivation
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When you are raised alone, you gain this strength to pull back from people so fast after being hurt; boundaries, is what you call it. I have cut people off, without hesitating, and most times it was after getting burn by them, or because some how they came too close to making me lose control. I am going to write this as best as I can, so you can understand, my therapist pointed out many times that I used to not take pride on my achievements, that I used to be careful with how I connected to people, and for me this was a struggle because I am a social butterfly.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Motivation
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I am one of six, the only girl with five brothers; 3 older, 2 younger; the princess you would call me, far from it. Now I do not want my writing to come across as if I am bashing my mother, we have never been in a great stance, but we’ve have come far from where we used to be, and I am grateful; for me to deliver my story, through my own perspective I need to write on my perspective at the time, and at the time I was a child.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Motivation
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Most of the memories with Rafael are of pain, there is not one time when he took me, when it didn't hurt; I think I just learned to block out the pain and let my body shut down, until it was over, the thing is my body never learned to recognize any different when it came to sex. My first orgasm was at 30, my most memorable sexual encounter was at 30 as well, my body learned to recognize different at 30. There is much more detail where those two sentences came from, but for now I'll say that being rape; once or a million times marks not only your brain but your body.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Psyche
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The hardest part of trying to heal is that you constantly get bullied into who you used to be; in my case, I left my first love and mother of my kids, and since then I have become a whole different version of me, three years now, and though everything surrounding me shows my growth, to her, me leaving the marriage will always be who I am and what I do. At first this was incredibly frustrating, but as time went by, I realized that no explanation, no showing, no type of conversation will ever make her perception of me any different, I left for a man, I am now a hoe, I am man-crazy, d6ck hungry, horrible mother, because I chose something unconventional. When you choose to work on yourself, when you focus on healing and becoming a better version of yourself, people get mad, because why are you seeking what they cannot understand?
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Humans
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When I was 10, I broke a light bolt that my dad had asked me to replace in the bedroom; I was on a latter, he was right next to me, I am not sure why I got nervous and let the light bolt drop to his feet; dad was not the type to get mad and yell, he was the kind to carried me down while he looked for another bolt. He asked me if I wanted to try again and I said yes; I did it, I replace the bolt and cleaned the case while I was up there. Some time ago I wrote about Kintsugi, the art of the Japanese, the art of becoming independent, the art of trusting yourself to do all that needs to be done, at times with help and at times alone, but always to be done.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Motivation
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I never asked any questions, and when I did; he always found a way to water my fire, my curiosity. If I am being honest, two plus two was never four, and though at times I caught things that did not make sense, I always trusted that he would never lie, why? Because he did not have a reason to: or so I thought.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 3 years ago in Humans