Here I open people's eyes, hearts, and souls.
Breaking Away from the Pain
I fell in love with my soulmate after feeling safe when hearing the sound of his voice over the phone and feeling his arms holding me. I always felt safe with him and loved by him when his fingers would brush through my hair, the sound of his laughter was like music to my ears, his soft touch, and easily keeping up with being intimate with me. Men usually can’t keep going but my soulmate definitely continues on with the different positions of intimacy. He supported my business by paying someone to design my business logo. He was very positive and verbally helpful toward me with my business. He was messaging me and calling me throughout the day when we were not together unless he was with his ex girlfriend. I always felt weird during those days because he acted weird during those days.
Waking up in my parents living room on their couch every morning, living on their couch every day, and going to sleep on their couch was very unsettling for me. I know that didn’t matter to my parents. My feelings during the process of my trying to finalize my divorce and really needing privacy did not matter to them. All that mattered to my parents was that they got their way. I was in their house, and they got to watch what I was and was not doing as I was living on their living room couch. That’s what they wanted. To watch me and have me be physically there. It did not matter to them that I felt depressed. As long as I was physically in their house that’s all that mattered to them.
Thanksgiving with my friends and Dean was not what I thought it would be like at all. I thought that me and Dean would experience one more event together that sent me off to Texas feeling secure emotionally with him. As though the two of us would have the sense of knowing that he and would make it together from being apart and merging back together. Why? Because in my heart I felt that he was right for me and that it was just bad timing. That’s not what happened though. That scene was just an image I had in my head.
Tools That Help You Grow
Waking Up I have noticed that it's the mornings when I feel like I am not ok with where I am in my life. My ego is the strongest when I wake up in the mornings trying to protect me from what my heart desires. As I wake up, I feel like I am at a standstill, waking up inside my room that's in my parents' home. I am feeling inspired by one of my mentors who never gave up on her manifestation toward her new apartment with her husband and kids. Honestly, watching her live her dream is part of what keeps me going now. She is married to a man who supports who she is as a person. He supports her dreams and the lifestyle she cares to experience.
Karmic, Soulmates, Twin Flames
Karmic Relationships A karmic relationship is there to fill a space inside yourself that you are not filling for yourself. This is when you are looking for a romantic relationship before you are ready for the relationship you desire. There are things an individual needs to do before enjoying what their heart desires.
I enjoyed spending time with Dean. Sitting next to him, walking with him, talking with him, laying with him... I never wanted to leave him. I wanted to just be with him always. I felt safe, at home, filled with laughter and joy. I loved that we both seemed to enjoy thunderstorms.
The Experience of Doing Energy Clearings with Gratitude
I wake up feeling unsettled with my life. I spend quality time with myself writing in my journal about why I am feeling bothered by something or/and someone, going deeper and deeper into this until I feel I am finished with this process.
Energy in Relationships that Served its Purpose
I can tell when someone or something in a relationship has served its purpose in my life. The person in the relationship is so much fun while he or she is there. The energy is an equal exchange between the two of you. But if you're not careful that exchange that seems like an equal amount is sometimes just enough to get you hooked on him or her.