I am complicated, confusing and misunderstood but I am real. Life is too short to be anything but happy.
She stood at the window and watched as the rain started coming down softly. They were calling for a big storm tonight and she welcomed it. Wrapped in her comfy, oversized sweater, she put her arms around herself and leaned against the window casing. The night was dark and there was a chill in the air. The sky started it's beautiful light show and she held her breath for a moment. Oh how she did love a good storm. She loved the smell of a summer rain and the feel of it on her skin. She would dance in the rain normally but not tonight. Tonight was not a dancing night, it was a thought provoking night. Time to think, reflect, soul search and enjoy the quiet silence of solitude.
"As you breathe in, cherish yourself. As you breathe out, cherish all Beings." -H.H. The Dalai Lama Breathing, the first thing our body does after we are born and the last thing it does before we die. Something we very rarely think about because it is a natural function, but we should. So come with me now on a journey. One of discovery and exploration. One that will open your mind and hopefully ease the struggles of everyday life. A voyage, if you will, towards the inner core of "You".
Two souls, joined by fate. Linked in such a way that it becomes an unbreakable bond. Both feeling and knowing that one cannot be without the other. Inseparable, undeniable and irreplaceable. Two souls that have traveled for many years, maybe even many lifetimes in search of one another. Two people attached to those souls. Always feeling like something was missing. A feeling of not being complete. Wandering in the dark, alone. Then one day, without notice and by surprise, they find their way to each other. It started with a simple hug. No different than any normal hug. Except this hug was returned by something internal. Something almost unexplainable. Something warm and soft and curious.
Dear Anger, Dude ... you really need to chill. You show up at the most inopportune times. Sometimes out of nowhere. I mean really, there's no need for your behavior. Yeah I get it, you think your actions are justified but are they really? You need to stop behaving so badly. It makes you look like a real shitty emotion. Like you can't control yourself. I know you are better than that. You show up over the littlest of things sometimes and cause me to say things I later regret. That's just not fair to me. Remember when you got me so upset because the laundry wasn't done, that I didn't speak to the boys for 2 days? WOW you are truly selfish. It wouldn't have even gotten that far if you had minded your own business. I think you need to keep yourself in check and the next time you choose to pop up out of nowhere and puff out your chest, you need to channel all that energy into something else. Get a hobby ... go meditate or just chill by yourself. Turn all that negative into a positive. Because honestly, I won't keep looking like an asshole because you don't know how to behave.
Have you ever wondered what it takes to make someone truly happy, to take a bad day and turn it into a great one, to turn tears into a smile, to maybe even save a life? Sometimes, it's the smallest of things that make the biggest impact. You don't need to be rich or famous to make a difference in someone's life. It seems so simple to do yet some complicate it so much. I often wonder when did money and material things become so much more important than feelings and emotions.
Once in a lifetime you meet this one person. Maybe you have known them for a while but am meeting them again for what seems to be the first time, or maybe.... one day they just appear. You can't put a finger on it and you can't name it but there is something about them that just does it for you. A connection is instantly made and you both feel it. An energy flows from each to the other. An undeniable truth that this person needs to be in your life.