I am complicated, confusing and misunderstood but I am real. Life is too short to be anything but happy.
In my lifetime I have known many things. I have known both love and hatred, I have known sadness and sorrow and absolute joy. I discovered what the loss of a loved one can do to those left behind and came to realize the importance of those around me. I have been on the receiving end of anger and abuse. Felt lust and the craving of another's flesh against mine. I have witnessed hunger firsthand yet always kept my children fed. I’ve known jealousy and learned how it can tear you up if you let it. I learned the fine art of lying to hide my true sense of worthlessness. I have been deceived and been the deceiver. I have known the agony of feeling completely alone while in a world full of people. I held hands and walked with death and then was brought back by an angel. I have seen the true miracle of birth and the horrific feelings at the loss of your own child. Yes, I have known and seen and learned a lot in my lifetime but one thing has always eluded me, the one thing everyone searches for, the thing everyone deserves… true happiness.
Being in love
People! Understand this…if you can’t love your partner, I mean really love all of them. Lay them down and make love to every inch that is them. Hold that person in your arms and be grateful that they are in your life, put them on that proverbial pedestal that they so richly belong on, see and feel all the scars and flaws and imperfections they may have and look past them. If you have to ask them what they want or need or if they have to ask you for things you should already know…well maybe you don’t know them like you thought. If you have been together for more than a year, you should already know what they need. You should never have to guess and they should never have to ask. If you can’t look at them naked down to the soul and not think that before you stands the most beautiful creature ever created, you don’t deserve them. If you know their back stories, all the horrors and sadness, the joys and happiness and can’t see them as anything less than amazing, they need to move on. They deserve better. If you can’t handle them at their worst you don’t deserve them at their best. and always remember...if you can’t love them as they are or the way they need to be loved, they will find someone who will.