"LOST IN UNDERSTANDING IN TIME"

I created this video song story to talk a little about mental health and what happens when one divorces a narcissist. I thought I would create this out of memory of a friend I knew who was hurt deeply by her ex-husband. This situation occurs in many relationships. The older lady friend of mine reflects about her over 30 years ago. She is sad, but therapy and time she begins to heal from her pain that she hid from people for many years.

Standing here outside these walls

Keys won't work anymore

Tried to make it back in time

But everything's changed

And I know what they all say

That I walked away

They drew their lines in black and white

Made me the villain of their night

But baby please try to see

They painted me as something I'm not

Made me out to be what I'm not

I was just lost and afraid (Lost and afraid)

Never meant to slip away

Court rooms filled with twisted words

Accusations flying wild and free

Too young to know how to fight

Too scared to stand

When they pushed me to the ground

I couldn't understand

The truth got buried in the storm

Of voices tearing me apart

But darling, can't you see

They painted me as something I'm not

Made me out to be what I'm not

I was just lost and afraid (Lost and afraid)

Never meant to slip away

Yes, I was naïve

Should have been stronger

Should have fought harder

But I'm not the monster they claimed

I'm just a mother who lost her way

Now I'm trying to explain

Through all these years of pain

How circumstances pulled us apart

But my love stayed true

Even when I couldn't reach you

My heart never left

They painted me as something I'm not

Made me out to be what I'm not

I was just lost and afraid (Lost and afraid)

Never meant to slip away Never meant to slip away

I saw the signs

But I was blind

They pushed me down

Right to the ground

All these lies they told about me

Made me seem so cold and mean

But baby please just let me say

It wasn't what it seemed

Did they tell you I left you?

Did they tell you I ran?

Did they tell you I left you?

Let me help you understand (Oh, understand)

Locked from home

Left all alone

No place to stay

Just run away

All these words they said about me

Turned me to someone I'm not

But baby please just hear me now

I gave all that I got

Did they tell you I left you?

Did they tell you I ran?

Did they tell you I left you?

Let me help you understand (Oh, understand)

They made me out to be a monster

But I was just too weak to fight

I never meant to leave you lonely

I tried with all my might

Did they tell you I left you?

Did they tell you I ran?

Did they tell you I left you?

Let me help you understand

(Oh, understand) (Let me help you understand

Written & Produced

by

Vicki Lawana Trusselli

copyright 2025

TRUSSELLI ART

CALIFORNIA