One of the things that really helps me cope with the woes of depression is making sure that I can recognize myself in the mirror. It is so easy to go deep into that rabbit hole of weariness where you don't brush your hair, you might skip a shower or two and you haven't washed the three day old makeup off your face. One thing for me is that I would go days without making my bed. I would literally sleep on a bare mattress with my down comforter and felt fine with that. I just didn't have the energy to straighten up my room even if it was to just make my bed. As of Monday, I went almost a month without making my bed. My mom would beg me to stop living like that and I was like "my mattress is clean." Looking back two days later, in my extended moment of melancholy, sleeping on a bare mattress because you can't muster up the energy to carry out day to day activities is not ok and that's why it is so important to remember to embrace SELF-CARE.
For once the reason I stopped writing for a while was a positive one, I’ve been so wrapped up with making changes in my life. I needed one of those spring cleans but for my mind instead, instead of the empty water bottles on the side cabinet it was negative thoughts and doubt lingering in the air. You could say it was just a mess.
Agreeing to things just to keep the peace is a trauma response and so is the need to stay busy all the time. I wish someone would have told me that earlier so I could have begun my healing journey sooner. Children who grow up with broken foundations often do not know that they have deep hidden trauma and feelings of worthlessness in their minds. The whole ‘I am not good enough’ record playing at the back of your mind whenever something good happens to you or is offered to you, holds you back in life on multiple occasions. I don’t think that I ever wanted anyone’s sympathy, I just wanted people to understand. I craved the love I gave, and I expected it from the ones who could not give it to me. Maybe that’s why now I know what love is. Another thing that I did not realize earlier on was that if something is for you, whether it is a relationship, a job, or a friendship you will not have to force it.
“Engaging with the self, starting to treat ourselves as if we were a living, learning surprise, worthy of existence despite our constant fears, enables us to engage in a real way with others, to see others as possible surprises and even gifts.”
The stresses of everyday life are many and can take quite a toll on your mental health and happiness. Devoting time each day to self-care is of utmost importance to keep yourself mentally healthy.
Self-care. Ah, yes. It's been a trend for quite a while. You can see young people all over the internet celebrating positive thinking, healthy meals, journalling and caring more about their hygiene more than ever.
Emotional intelligence refers to a person’s ability to accurately understand and assess his or her feelings. It involves being acutely aware of how one responds to different situations as well as how other responds to one’s actions. It involves the desire/motivation to resist impulsive actions or utterances that may cause relational tensions or conflicts (such as anger-motivated verbal outbursts). Therefore, emotional intelligence constitutes people’s capacity for self-motivation, knowledge, and understanding of personal feelings. In addition, it includes the ability to regulate/manage one’s feelings in various social contexts. It also enables to recognize the emotions of others as well as the ability to handle interpersonal relationships.
Do you ever find yourself aimlessly scrolling through social media to pass the time? Scrolling through countless memes and posts, your eyes glazing over…Does it actually hinder your mental health? We digest countless of messages, posts, videos and opinions every day. We are told we need to care about every single one. Every ‘ping’ of a notification releases a tiny dose of endorphins, which leaves us craving more. But the more we consume, the more it chips away at us. Have you ever completely turned off your phone, or deleted an app and felt a sense of surprising relief? Not because your phone had died – but, because you genuinely wanted to take a break. As a society, we are constantly exposed to everything that is happening around the world, and in our social circles. Social media, such as Facebook, Instagram and Twitter are our common mediums for this. It is important to stay “in the know” – but how much can social media use take a toll on us?
Today I woke up to what I call a 'low energy day'. I decided years ago that I would use this term anytime I am feeling low and I am in fear that my depression is resurfacing. After unnecessary panicking, sometimes it turns out that it is just a day or two of feeling disconnected and unmotivated. Rarely is it the start of a major depressive episode. In cognitive behavioral therapy, we learn that our word choices are critically important and can impact how we feel. A ‘depressed’ day feels hopeless but a ‘low energy’ day is something I feel like I can manage through with the hopes of a brighter tomorrow.
For someone with rapid and constant mood changes like me, going out or doing things outside is a powerful and efficient coping mechanism. Now that we are in lockdown, even if I am 100% aware and understand that this is for our best, it has been so difficult for me.
This virus is teaching us that not even the human race are permanent. That no matter how much destruction we cause on Mother Gia; she will be here flourishing. Giving re-birth to the plants and creatures that habitats this planet, we call home. The human race is Mother Gia shadow aspect. We are her 'Shadow Self'. Every living thing on this planet has a cycle they are following or on the path of. That includes Earth. - There are things we can't comprehend due to our level of understanding of how the universe works. We are in barking towards a completely different change. Not as individuals but as a whole. -