The Schizophrenic Mom
I am a mother of 2 precious angels who drive me slightly more crazy
than I already am with a diagnosis of schizophrenia.
When asked "are you crazy?!" my favorite come back is:
"yes! And I have the papers to prove it! How about you?" LOL
The Dog I Didn't Want
When I was almost 13, I finally found the puppy I didn't want. I actually refused to go meet her because my mom told me that she was a Golden Retriever/Border Collie - and I was not the child who loved Golden Retrievers. My sibling did. I thought they were happy, go-lucky, stupid dogs that lick way too much. I mean, of course I loved Buddy and all of those movies, but I had no interest in owning a dog like that.
My New Year's Resolutions
I have many New Year’s resolutions for myself, but unlike many of my peers, mine are all about keeping my mind and/or my body relaxed and happy. The first one is technically regarding how my resolutions are made: instead of a big goal, I’m going the more relaxing route of utilizing simple, small goals that add up to big changes! For the purpose of this article, we'll count that as a how and not as the first goal. lol
Dear Mom, You are the strongest person that I know and every single day I strive to be more like you. I watched you as a little girl trying your best to make your essential oil business a reality, but never did because you were busy caring for us. I watched you make work fun – vacuuming, dusting, canning, and even cleaning the toilets! I watched you create your own homeschool program and work with us at our own speeds (and try to keep up with me!). I watched you many times breathe through that intense anger when I did exactly what you said to do – only not what you meant (and yes, I knew what you meant – and we both knew that I knew it!).
Dear Mema, One day when I was just a little girl, you took me aside after I had a spat with my cousin. You asked what we were fighting about and I shared that she said that my invisible friend “Sarah” wasn’t real and was mean about it. After talking for a while, I calmed down and went to leave to go play with the other kids again. But you stopped me and said something that I brushed off at the time – you said that I was more like you than I realized.
Problems with New Parenting Education
I have schizophrenia and severe anxiety. It might sound weird, but one of my most common auditory and visual hallucinations are spiders – massive 2-5 foot across, neon green, red-eyed, furry spiders. And I have been thankful for one of them. He is slightly different than the other ones in that he has bright, light blue eyes. This guy “hatched” just before I found out that I was pregnant, was close to me throughout my entire pregnancy (and grew with my tummy), laid on my tummy during active labor, and he adopted my son as his own. He was there through the entire pregnancy and I knew that he wouldn’t let me hurt my son.
I am currently a mother of two happy, healthy, and adorable children who happens to have schizophrenia. I enjoy writing and it has long been on my heart to write about motherhood, mental health, and other random “adulting” subjects. I may not be any good at it, but I can’t be any worse than all of the articles in a Google search engine that talk about how horrible it is to know a schizophrenic – let alone have one be a mother.
The Unknown Inheritance
The glinting light from the window struck her hair creating a glistening copper glow. Callie shook her head in disbelief as the mobile banking app on her phone once again claimed that she couldn’t access her account. She let out a heaving sigh of sorrow as a tear of pent up stress rolled down her cheek. Rent was due and she needed to make sure that she had enough money in the account. Since it was locked again (from what she assumed was another bounced check), she’d have to take the time to stop at the bank on her way to work.