Your illness does not define you. It's your resolve to recover that does.
Why I'm Starting this Blog
Principles are how we know that we have not been made by circumstance; that we are who we are by choice. After writing and deleting too many introductions for this article, I’m simply going to be straightforward. I am finally recovering from years of depression. Since depression almost killed me (or rather made me want to kill myself), I decided blog about it; in fact, starting this blog was one of the things I decided, during my depression, to do if I managed to survive it. This article will briefly cover my depression and how my purpose for this blog has evolved over time. So, how did I become depressed?
The Year 2017
It was a calm winter’s night, not a single misfortune in sight. My dad and I were sitting in the living room together, watching TV when suddenly I felt shortness of breath. “Dad, I can’t breathe,” I said. I thought in my head that it may be an asthma attack I was having. My dad knew it could be the same because I grew up with asthma, so he immediately called 911. The room felt smaller all of a sudden, and the darkness took over presence, making light absent. I could hear the wailing as the ambulance arrived and all I remember was sitting in the back of the cold ambulance panicking, hearing the paramedics telling me that this was no asthma attack, but an anxiety attack.
The Demon That Hunts During The Day
Statistics are just numbers right. How about this statistic - suicide is the biggest killer of young Australians, a bigger killer than car accidents (Australian Bureau of Statistics 2014). Statistics are always just a number until that number impacts you and your family. I was lucky not to become just another figure on the page, the sad reality is that there are other women and men out there that will. Some call it the noonday demon, the black dog, the fog, or a hole in the script. I have been hounded by the demon, stalked by the dog, and have fallen into the deepest hole possible in my life. Only now can I see the light, only now I can see that despite being lonely, we are never alone in that battle, we all have our own demons which should be fought arm in arm with our neighbour. This is my story, my battle.
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After many tests, trials, assessments, a conclusion has been drawn. For your lack of self-love you have been deemed a lost cause impossible to love. Whether you were loved or not is of no consequence when what is found at the bottom line is that if you do not love you, how can anyone else? You are the fool. The chagrin of your fellow denizens. How you chose to live your life spoke louder volumes than your tongue ever could. One last ditched effort of embellishment is that you weren’t fully cognizant of your disposition. There it is again. But I digress.
My little crab hand
My mama used to tell me I'm like a pink tree in a green forest. "People will stare because it's different. They will also stare because it's magnificent." As she'd hold me in her arms, I'd try to let her sweet touch and comforting words reassure my aching being. My mama tried very hard to make me understand that there is nothing wrong with me. Even more so, that being different is beautiful. Although I couldn't help but agonize in wondering why. Why? Why me? Flawed, shameful, ugly, faulty... I got the notion inside my head that, somehow, I was defective and needed to hide my hand.
The Decisions We Make
Life is full of moments that change everything. Imagine if you will staring into a mirror, then smashing it with a hammer. You can try to piece it back together, but it's forever altered. Sometimes those moments are massive like a house fire. Other times they are so small and seemingly insignificant you might have missed it. Have you ever taken a moment to look back on your life and thought about the changes and challenges you have overcome? Allow me a bit of your time to tell you a few instances in my life that have shattered proverbial mirrors in my life that have changed everything. However, I feel the need to inform you, the reader, that this does deal with sexual abuse and a suicide attempt.
Death Shaped My Life For The Better
My coming-of-age story was just a prelude to the rest of my life. Painful experiences and what to do with them was the greatest lesson that thrust me into adulthood. It started the summer of my 17th birthday. I was a junior in high school and my cousin ended her own life. It sparked something in me that was fighting to be seen and heard. I too had wanted to kill myself at the age of 16. When I told my mother that she cried, and she couldn’t understand why I wanted to die. Honestly back then neither could I but I didn’t know how to live.
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I'm just looking for the way out.
A week or so ago I was sitting outside in my yard in a quiet meditation. Feeling the cold grass on my thighs and hands, the breeze cutting through the stifling heat is just so nice.. ya'll know it's been hot this summer. I've been meditating on how to grow spiritually for months now. Thinking about how my Atheist upbringing, Christian late teens and 20s, Buddhist research and practice, and all the drugs in between; How none of them filled me. Nothing so far made me feel free, happy, whole. My husband is amazing, my son is just perfect, and our cats are my loves. I thought having my own world put together and functioning after coming out of addiction would free me. I thought being sober would free me. I thought I had a higher power that was freeing me through these painful transformative life events. So why do I feel alone? And the universe answered.
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Getting into a Inpatient Drug Rehab in Babylon New York
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