personality disorder

Personality disorders are as complex as they are misunderstood; delve into this diagnosis and learn the typical cognitions, behaviors, and inner experience of those inflicted.

  • Tracy Rose
    Published about 15 hours ago
    My Parents Gave me a Personality Disorder.

    My Parents Gave me a Personality Disorder.

    For those of you who may know me, you know my story. For those of you who don’t, my names Tracy and I am sick. I have two mental illnesses. One that I was born with, Bipolar Disorder. The other is BPD, Border Line Personality Disorder. Mental health professionals have been saying for years they want to change the name of the disorder. Because BPD is not in fact a change in personalities. It’s a disorder of emotions. I feel each and every emotion to an amplified extent. How they say there’s no gray area, it’s all just black and white for us border liners. When we are happy we feel like we are being shot across the sun flying into a parade of fireworks, drifting off into the Red Sea in the Mediterranean. When we are depressed our chest feels hollows, the emptiness physically hurts us (we can feel the pain in our chest) we feel intense suicidal ideation and believe we are a burden to our loved ones and they’d be better off without us. BPD is a back and forth of depressive, angry/irritable and happiness/feelings of euphoria episodes. Its getting stuck in the episodes and knowing you are stuck. Being intelligent but knowing your mind can’t think rationally until the episode ends. It’s mood dysregulation and snapping on the people around you just from the slightest trigger. It’s having a hard time with interpersonal relationships. It’s having a sex addiction, alcohol addiction, suffering from other mental illnesses as well, having symptoms of every mental illness put into one disorder And having eating disorders. It’s having erratic behavior. And unintentionally pushing people away by overreacting. The worst part for me is my fear of abandonment. I’m scared all the people that love me will one day leave me. Incase you were wondering I was not born with BPD. I had the genetic inclination to develop a personality disorder. But my environmental factors brought it out. It’s a learned behavior. It’s a coping mechanism I learned from my trauma. Here’s how my parents gave me BPD.
  • Bree Gwendolyn
    Published about 22 hours ago
    Introducing Me

    Introducing Me

    Alrighty. Where to start? I love writing. Now, I may not be the very best at it, but its still something I love doing. So when I came across vocal and found out I could build myself a place on this platform for my writing I got very excited. Now I have writers block for fiction and I'm honestly a little nervous at the idea of putting my real life stories out there. I've never been that hesitant to share my stories with people, I want to help people get through their own stories by sharing my experiences, but something about being judged by the entire internet, rather than just a few people, is terrifying. In this day and age of the internet one wrong word online can ruin your entire life. It can keep you from attaining your dream career or get you fired from the job you have. To be fair my dream career involves me being in the public eye anyways so I guess I have to put myself out there eventually regardless. I may as well start now.
  • Angela Fosnaugh
    Published 7 days ago
    Illuminating Narcissism

    Illuminating Narcissism

    In this part of the series on the topic of narcissism I want to talk a little or well a lot on what some of the signs are that you are in fact dealing with someone who I believe has lost their way and their soul is without depth.
  • Lydia Wegner
    Published 7 days ago
    Living with D.I.D.

    Living with D.I.D.

    Dissociative Identity Disorder (D.I.D) formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder or MPD is a complex. It starts with early childhood trauma and a need to protect oneself from abuse, trauma, and harm. How does this start you ask? Well it varies from person to person. Mine started with early childhood emotional abuse and neglect, from the least expected person.
  • Angela Fosnaugh
    Published 10 days ago
    Illuminating Narcissism

    Illuminating Narcissism

    Being born a creative person I shared with him some of the things that had brought me to this point in my life.
  • Angela Fosnaugh
    Published 12 days ago
    Illuminating Narcissism

    Illuminating Narcissism

    As I talked about in part one of this ongoing series to illuminate narcissist personality disorder, narcissism wasn’t something I was really even aware of but being an empath I’m extremely observant and I understand human nature quite well so when the love bombing starting to take place I knew that something was off. It was like a script out of a movie, the fairytale love story that only one could hope for but in reality it too was too good to be true.
  • Angela Fosnaugh
    Published 13 days ago
    Illuminating Narcissism

    Illuminating Narcissism

    Until six years ago, the term narcissist wasn’t even in my vocabulary. I had known people who used, who manipulated and showed little remorse for what they did to others but I wasn’t aware that there was an actual diagnosis for what abuse these people caused to others.
  • Redditales Reader
    Published 14 days ago
    Tina has a split personality — and says: “I am healthy.”

    Tina has a split personality — and says: “I am healthy.”

    Tina plans her daily routine meticulously. She tells of a day when her plan was like this: 11:30 cooking, 12:00 eating, later jogging. She cleared all the ingredients, prepared the pot and pan, lit the gas flames on the stove. Tina cut onions, switched to autopilot in her head.
  • Natalie Ortega
    Published 21 days ago
    How people with personality disorders look like

    How people with personality disorders look like

    Have you ever wonder about personality disorder? As a Psychology major in FIU I am learning about them. First, I am just going to talk about cluster A. If you guys like my writing, I will make another article on cluster B and C. So, in cluster A there is Schizoid, Schizotypal, and Paranoid personality disorder. A person who has Schizoid tends to feel like they do not want to form a relationship with other which can sexual, with friends, and being close with family. This client has difficulties with social hints, showing his or her feeling, and finding enjoyment in activities.
  • Stephanie Thibodeau
    Published about a month ago
    Mental Health

    Mental Health

    Hi, I am a thirty year-old woman living with a mental illness. I have been living with a mental illness for eight years. Eight years since I was diagnosed. Eight years since I started cutting and eight years since I wanted to end my life. Yes, you read that right. I wanted to end my life because I thought I was a burden to everyone in my family. It got to the point where I knew that I needed help. The day that I was rushed to the hospital is a day I will never forget. I had just made new cuts that day. I went to the common room of my apartment building to watch some TV since I didn't have cable or satellite in my apartment. I didn't wear a sweater to cover my arms like I usually did. I think I wanted someone to find me. Two people that lived in my apartment building came into the common room when they saw me. They just wanted to talk to me. When they saw my arms, it scared them. They called a support worker who told them to call the paramedics. The paramedics came in a flash--they were down the street waiting for a call. The female paramedic asked me if I wanted to go out on the stretcher. I told her that I could walk out by myself. The paramedics rushed me to the hospital in the city but before we got there, we got stopped by the police. Why? It was a behavioral call. The police let us go and the paramedics took me to the hospital. The doctor put me under a Form One.A form one is a legal document and it means that I had to stay in a pyschiatric hospital for up to 72 hours. An ambulance took me to the psychiatric hospital. My parents made it to the hospital just as I was leaving to go to the psych hospital. It was late when I went to the psych hospital so the doctor had to come from home to see me. Before the 72 hours was up, I was put under a form three, which made me a involuntary patient and I had to stay in the hospital for three more weeks. Before I was put on meds, I couldn't feel the cuts because I felt numb. When I got out of that funk, my arms really hurt.There are many types of mental illnesses. There are anxiety and panic disorders, bipolar disorder, depression, eating disorders, obessive compulsive disorder (OCD), personality disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), schizoaffective disorder, schizophrenia, self-harm, and suicidal feelings, to name a few. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, depression and panic/anxiety. BPD is a personality disorder that always partnered with two or more illnesses.Here are some myths and facts about mental illnesses. Myth 1: Mental health problems are rare. Fact is that 1 in 4 people will experience a mental health problems, which means someone you know may be struggling with mental illness. Myth 2: You can't do anything to support someone with a mental health problem. Actually you can do something to help. You can make a difference in someone's life by checking in with them, listening to them, not judging them, treat them the way you always have and ask them twice if they are okay. Myth 3: People with mental illness can't work. That is so wrong. People with mental illness can hold down a successful job. We all probably work with someone experiencing a mental health problem. Myth 4: You can't recover from mental health problems. Well, they might not go away forever but lots of people with mental health issues still work, have families and lead full lives. Myth 5: People with mental illnesses are usually violent and unpredictable. That is so not true. Most people with mental health problems, even those with severe ones like schizophrenia, are not violent. Someone with a mental illness is more likely to be a victim of violence than to inflict it. Myth 6: young people are just going through ups and downs as part of puberty-it's nothing. No, it is not nothing. In fact, 1 in 8 young people will experience a mental health problem. Don't think your child is just going through puberty. There might be something else going one. Mental illnesses is feared and misunderstood by many people. That is why there is a lot of stigma around it.So how to do you cope with having a mental illness? Well, what helps me is listening to music, writing, reading, colouring and talking to my friends and family. There are lots of other things that you can do to cope with living with a mental illness. It is what helps you and no one else.If you are having suicidal thoughts, call your local crisis hotline or someone you are close with. There are always someone there to help you. You are not alone.
  • Perez U. Hamilton
    Published 2 months ago
    You Again, but Why?

    You Again, but Why?

    I want you no more. In your origin you seemed fruitful, but through the entirety of the process I saw you for what you really were. The salty drops fall on my meadows no longer. The reservoir from which they originate shall be depleted. These thoughts I have when you appear to me are of the nefarious kind. Like a Nosferatu, your thirst is unquenchable. However, this gluttonous greed that you withhold will be apprehended from your heart. Worry not though. These precious sins of yours shall be put back where they belong. The abyss that I was trapped in will be their new resting place. Seek them not, for you will never reach them. For none of us can return to the place that we were born. Once we decide to grab that light, we cannot return to the comfortable darkness. Not even you, darkness itself may return to it. While in nature you are dark, but it entitles you not to the bed of darkness.
  • Madison Mackenzie
    Published 2 months ago
    At Capacity

    At Capacity

    It was one of those dreary days where a grey filter covers the land. I remember it clearly because the old Allen Inn looked incredibly musty when I first saw it peering through the fog on that brisk November afternoon. It was a historical building from the 1800’s made of brick and covered with rich, green verdure like laced stockings crawling up its sides. The Inn was located not far from my childhood home and I can remember riding my bike past it as a child. My pigtails matched the pom-poms that dangled from my handlebars as I glided down Fowler Street. At the time, I didn’t know what the place was, I only ever heard my mom say, “You better settle down or you’re going to the Inn!” I figured she meant she was going to book me a room all by myself so she could have some peace and quiet at home. Peace and quiet, that’s why I had returned to the place, to soothe my mind.