Post Traumatic Stress Disorder; The storm after the storm.
The blame does not lie with the victim
Never blame the victims. It is not their fault that your life is turned upside down. It is not their fault that your children's father is locked up. It is not their fault that you are stuck in a difficult situation. It is the fault of the abuser. Full stop. It is your husband's fault that your children are suffering. It is your husband's fault that he is in jail. It is your husband's fault that you are struggling.
You're Not Alone
Some say that mental health isn't really a problem to be concerned about but, sadly those people are wrong. Everyone deals with mental illnesses in one form or another, such as depression or PTSD. Those who have mental health problem should never be alone and this is my story about someone who have mental health struggles.
An open letter to my friends with CPTSD:
I know having PTSD symptoms daily feels debilitating. Most days you pretend to be normal so you can pass as fine when people ask.
PTSD From Emotionally Abusive Relationship
The feelings of guilt and shame we feel for putting up with them for so long are undoubtedly one of the most tortuous forms of hurt we will feel.
Sleep Paralysis Experience
*Trigger warning* I don't know much about sleep paralysis. I do know that it is the feeling of being conscious but unable to move. You lay in bed, your mind going through the stages of wakefulness and sleep. It takes a few minutes before your fully able to speak or move, only laying there motionless until it ends. The reason do know this, is because it happens to me. It doesn't happen every night. But when it does happen my entire body is filled with terror. One I have never felt before in my life.
Trauma and relationships:
As a survivor of multiple traumas, abuse, and assault, I have a really hard time setting appropriate boundaries, dealing with problems in relationships, or even building up relationships.
Time to get a watch.
Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Louder, I follow the beat one tick at a time with slow breathes to calm my chest.
Death and Coffee
Depression is a friend of mine. I bet a lot of you have this friend too. That annoying and obnoxious friend who loves to drop in,
Some PTSD Sufferers Experience the Anniversary Effect
Several family members and my friends have served during the War on Terror. I've seen them return with severe PTSD to mild PTSD. The severity seemed linked to how much combat they experienced. I never thought of regular citizens having PTSD too until the #metoo movement when sexual assault survivors spoke about their trauma. I didn't think that I had trauma too, but I realized I had adverse childhood experiences (ACEs), which most of us probably have.
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
'Trauma creates change you don’t choose; healing creates change you do choose.' Healthy Place.com And this my friends shows you how you can move yourself to go in the right direction of your life travels.
YOU Triggered my CPTSD
Faced with a boring weekend ahead of me, I started to watch YOU. It was immediately an audience grabber from the get go. I hit pause, pondering … why haven’t I watched this yet? There’s already 3 seasons… I hit play and as the true meaning of the narrator starts to hit, I am reminded, I don’t have to watch YOU. I already lived YOU.
Living with the past, in the present.
I have lived with repressed memories most of my life, and I had no knowledge why. I had an inkling that something bad must have happened early in my life. But I didn’t know what. People kept telling me that if I didn’t remember anything “I must have had an amazing childhood”. I remember wondering “How is that true? How can you assume that? I literally do not remember!”. But it was easier for me to agree with the sentiment than to try and understand why I didn’t remember. It’s only in the last 10 years that I have begun to remember what happened to me when I was 9 years old. But it’s only recently that I have actively begun to try and unravel the events.