Post Traumatic Stress Disorder; The storm after the storm.
It has a name
I have been MIA. Things have been busy, I have been working which is awesome, dealing with virtual schooling (not so awesome) and of course therapy. I have continued with that and have been making progress. It's weird that every time I share something from my childhood that deals with trauma, my therapist says "you are doing great!" It's weird because never did I think that sharing this kind of stuff would be good.
Stigmatised types of OCD that you should know about
When we talk about OCD, shortened from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, what first comes to your mind? Well, this is all dependant on whether you have experience in dealing with the disorder yourself, or know people that do.
How I Was Taught to Deal with Flashbacks When in the Middle of One PTSD can really knock the wind out of you at times. I was in a year and a half, yes you read that right, of specialized trauma therapy when I lived in Florida. Every Tuesday at 11 am Amy and I would be in her office working on a variety of issues. At one point I began having major flashbacks. Not the fleeting thought kind. The kind that could last for hours. “Thankfully”, they seemed to happen more at night while I was trying to sleep. Being knocked out is usually the best way for your brain to get some much-needed work done while you’re out of your own way. Amy had a tapestry hanging on the way in her office. She had me stand in front of it and describe it in detail. It went something like this.
Living with PTSD
Living with PTSD is hard, but living with it from a childhood filled with trauma, and re-experiencing it in my young adult life is well... complex. It's hard to explain to people the things I have been though without them looking at me in horror after. When I do explain it's in layers. I start off with the least bad memories, and slowly say more and worse things that have happened to me. It sometimes happens like that, and I can't seem to ever control it once it starts.
How an ASD adult with PTSD survives quarantine
Hello, My name is Miranda. I am 28 years old as of 2020. Current events have not been kind to me. Yes, that is true for everyone. However, being a high functioning adult with special needs during a complete lock-down takes its toll. My physical and mental health have suffered due to "social distancing". This may sound strange, as most people assume that Autism is an anti-social disorder. It's not!
Reflection on Skills Developed & Training
Abstract In the following pages, I will describe and reflect on three different developmental online trainings. The first training I will discuss is Cognitive Processing Therapy (CPT) for Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) in Veterans and Military Personnel. The second training I will discuss is Provider Resiliency. And the final training is Epidemiology of PTSD in Military Personnel & Veterans. These trainings were made available by the Center for Deployment Psychology. I found them to be most insightful and resourceful.
How The Birth of My Daughter Rescued Me From My PTSD
(DISCLAIMER: the following post includes details of adult content. It is recommended that readers be at least of high school age. Discretion is advised. Trigger warning for any readers who are victims of abuse.)
Recently, I’ve experienced an intense bout of emotional dissociation. It’s inspired me to write this and provide some insight. When a person is physically tortured they find out that their nervous system can only take so much (or resist) physical pain before it shuts down, causing them to physically pass out/go unconscious. It’s much the same with emotional pain. When this part of ourselves shuts down (due to feeling emotionally tortured) it’s referred to as dissociation. Instead of passing out physically, a person passes out (goes unconscious) emotionally.
When I thought about PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder), I thought to my self do I have it? I ask myself this because of my previous relationship. I mean the way I reacted to my fianće was unbelievable. I just recently had a baby with my fianće and I don't like being without my baby. I think it has so much to do with how my first two kids not being in my life for a year. See I didn't mean to speculate that my fianće made our baby boy cry. It was just something that Transpired. It is all because of my previous relationship. My Ex was always making the kids cry and he enjoyed it for some reason. I also relive the memories of being thrown out in front of my kids. I relive the moment they said,” mommy please take me with you”. My fianće catches me with my anxiety and acknowledges the fact that this PTSD that I have is a challenge for me. The flashbacks that I get has put me into anxiety episodes. I’ve had sleep paralysis 2 times this year and that’s a very scary thing to go through. Where you can’t move and speak, it’s like you feel like your dying.
25 Facts on PTSD
During the first lockdown, there was a 25 push up challenge aimed at raising awareness for post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). A friend from university challenged me on my Instagram @pendulum_fitness I thought I would do something different. I decided every day, along with my 25 push-ups, I would also post a fact I had researched about PTSD to further increase awareness and understanding of the condition. I didn’t realize the frequency of the occurrence of this condition as I had previously associated it mainly with war veterans. From the research I have done I have come to realize that this condition is very prominent in all populations and has the potential to affect everybody. With this list of facts on the condition, I hope to bring some clarity to what PTSD is, how it affects people, and some of the signs and symptoms to look out for, and what can affect it.
Crawled Out of a Trap
Once upon a time, on Valentines Day of all days, 18.5 year-old me decided it'd be a good idea to go to the apartment of a 28 year-old acquaintance right after I broke up with a flaky a**hole. I figured "maybe he will be nice and won't try to f**k me", so why not give it a try and not be alone on V-day? Well, I went there, he didn't try to f**k me, and fast forward 8 years... we have a child together, I suffered depression inflicted by his manipulations and type B narcissistic behaviors such as blowing insignificant situations out of proportion, gaslighting, verbal bullets, name-calling and punching walls in front of our child because I didn't agree with him on something small... you know, that kind of thing.
The Dilemma of Fixing Thy Self
As a mother, I’ve really enjoyed my small victories. This weekend, my son was staying at his grandmother’s. Today, I was a complete badass and had a killer day. Cleaned the pine-needles, sand and stuck on food out the car. I wrapped all the presents, coordinated paper so mom and Santa appeared to be different gift-givers. I even spent 3 hours at the salon this morning to fix my COVID hair.