Am I In A Different Universe Right Now?

I feel like I'm in a different universe as soon as my Mother in-law asks, "Emily when was the last time your family checked on you?" Later that day, my aunt called me and I got back into contact with my mother. I'm not sure of how I feel.

They knew what I was doing pretty much cyber stalking me. It feel weirded out by this. I spoke two Lynn and my mother all day and I never once had a chance to keep to work schedule. Everything was thrown off for me the last two days. Productivity has been thrown off right now and my mind is just feeling weird right now.

My sister followed my YouTube Channel and it's so fucking weird for me. What blows my mind even more is my mother asked me if I would move back in with her but in the basement apartment. I was completely weirded out like how can this be sort of thing.

I accepted it only as a last resort for my medicine nothing more. I still am very independent, I will give a lot of boundaries so much so that I will make sure I will save up money file for my husband save the hell up for money so I can move out.

I'm afraid by saying yes I'm made a deal with the devil. I don't like how she is persistent how she is given teary emojis. Feeling this weirded emotional and just the sense of praying staying in the basement is just temporary until I save a car and leave all over again.

I have a bad feeling just weird. Being called a liar all of my life and blamed all of my life I feel like I need a deadbolt lock on my door from the outside so no one can get inside. I feel like I still have resentment, I don't want to be treated like a woman with incompetent when in fact I am to smart for my own good. I still don't like a lot of this, but I know I have to a roof over my head. I still would prefer a car. I need a miracle, I need our own apartment, I just would prefer living in Saint Lucia.

Why can't the Lucia have my medicine? Why do I feel like I opened a huge can of worms?

I hope I'm wrong right now, because if I am that would be great. I am just having a lot of triggers, so tomorrow on Wednesday will be promoting a lot of my stuff and Thursday prerecording Talk it Out Friday.

Where I will probably be talking about the bizzarro stuff that has been going on for the last few days. It's so weird right now for me, because I have my own set of goals I am going to be taking care of my husband and worrying about myself and my family.

I will focus on my husband and myself doing get lost with others. I will do my own thing, saving up, and working again.

I don't know what to think.

I am stressing out so much right now and having a psoriasis outbreak.

"Everyone deserves a second chance."

I didn't do anything wrong though, I just wanted to make my own path like I always had. I've been married for a year to my husband and discovering my own path as a business owner and worker.

I just don't know what to do, I'm just to weirded out right now.

I'm just not sure of what to believe. I'm not sure of things being sincere. And the fact that everyone is cyber stalking me it's just strange and slightly scary.

You tell me your thoughts everyone? Are my thoughts and feelings just a huge questions mark?

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