Bad habits
Anxiety Sucks
Everyday I wake up never knowing what the day is going to look like. Is today going to be a good and productive day, or will today be another day fighting my thoughts and irrational fears? Most days I am okay, as I have been better at managing things. Others are so bad just doing one small thing takes the most out of me. Ever since the pandemic I've gotten really bad agoraphobia and only leave the house when I have to, or feel like I can. The amount of self talk that I have to do sometimes is crazy to me, but I keep trying anyway.
By Kimmiekins43 years ago in Confessions
I Must Be Merry
I’ll be honest, I’ve not been merry or happy during these holidays. I haven’t been happy for a long time. Ever since this past summer. These holidays I really had to push myself to act happy. Anytime I was out and about I smiled and pretended as best as I could. Now, being at home for my holiday break I find myself numb to everything and everyone. It’s such a strange feeling because I feel at peace being numb. Feeling nothing feels good to me. Deep down I know that this isn’t right. I know that I am allowing my depression to take me again, I don’t want that. I know that the reason I want to feel numb is because I’m too afraid of feeling sadness or happiness. This neutral place feels good and safe, but in reality is neither of those things. The New Year is coming up and I’m starting to feel myself drawn to a new year’s resolution. It is only one resolution but one that if I’m able to achieve will affect many aspects of my life. My resolution for this coming year is to be happy, truly happy.
By Lily3 years ago in Confessions
degree on procrastination.
December 21, Thursday. Well, it's actually 22 and I wanted to write about yesterday which I couldn't since I slept. So yesterday what happened was I had this strong urge to write, on my way to college and it was 5 in the morning . yeah, you got the idea how my day started , 5 a.m. and you already want to write. ( P.S. I write when too much going on, of course in my head.) Woke up at 4 with 2 missed calls from my dad and not so warm warnings to recharge my phone.
By Supriya limbu3 years ago in Confessions
Friendship Breakups
Friendship breakups, do you think they are easier or harder to deal with than romantic breakups? I feel like this topic is rarely discussed, and since I just recently went through one of a friend of 25 years I wanted to weigh in on the topic. In our society we put so much emphasis on how hard romantic relationships are to maintain, and how hard they are to get over. In my opinion friendships are just the same if not harder to maintain and get over.
By Kimmiekins43 years ago in Confessions
Besiktas
Beşiktaş is a professional sports club based in Istanbul, Turkey. The full name of the club is Beşiktaş Jimnastik Kulübü. The club was founded in 1903 and is one of the oldest sports clubs in Turkey. Beşiktaş has a rich history and is known for its success in various sports, particularly football.
By Mahrus 3 years ago in Confessions
Long Distance Relationship. Top Story - December 2023.
"I love you." Do you though? Do you really love me? How do I know if your being truthful? How do I know you aren't lying to me? It's not like I can just walk out of my house to come see you. That's the lore of a long distant relationship... you never know if one is being faithful or not.
By Kodah3 years ago in Confessions
Healing F**king Hurts sometimes
As this year comes to a close I am reflecting not only on my year, but also my almost 3 years on Vocal. I reached 1202 reads the other day and I just wanted to thank everyone that has supported me over these last few years. I came to Vocal to journal my life, and things I was going through at the time, and am still going through now. I wish I would have wrote more on here, not just about my life but just about anything and everything. Anyways I just wanted to take time to reflect on a few pieces I've written and make some updates on them. I hope for anyone that might be struggling with any of these topics can find some comfort in not being alone.
By Kimmiekins43 years ago in Confessions
Reflections of Guilt: Seeking Redemption on my Asperger's Path
My aunt once imparted a powerful piece of wisdom that has resonated with me deeply. She shared, "Revenge is the worst wound you can inflict on yourself." Her words lingered in my mind, urging me to explore the complexities behind this notion. Reflecting on her insight, I began to unravel the multifaceted reasons why revenge can be a treacherous path to tread.
By ANTICHRIST SUPERSTAR3 years ago in Confessions
Andre Braugher, Brooklyn Nine entertainer, bites the dust matured 61. Content Warning.
Andre Braugher, who highlighted as Captain Raymond Holt in the hit parody Brooklyn Nine and as Examiner Legit Pembleton in Murder: Life In the city, has passed on developed 61.
By Olajide Akerele3 years ago in Confessions
My family is forcing me to share a room with my horrible sister
Living with my older sister has been an perpetual struggle, to put it mildly. She's not just difficult; she's outright horrible. The depth of my hatred for her became fully apparent when she left for college, providing me with a brief respite from her oppressive presence. Our shared room, a battleground of conflicting preferences, epitomized the challenges of cohabitation.
By Vent-Verse3 years ago in Confessions
