I am a very creative person. I love reading, writing, listening to music, watching movies and shows. Writing has always been a way for me to express my feelings and thoughts. I'm excited to write some of my stories here on Vocal.
Alcohol my Old “Friend"
The first post I ever made on Vocal in April of 2021, documenting my first attempt at getting sober for what felt like the millionth time. It's titled "55 days Sober". I go into depth about my struggle with Anxiety and Depression and how I drank more to combat the symptoms of both conditions. About 5 days after posting I had my first drink after 2 months of being sober. I only drank that one drink, so I thought, "I finally have control over my drinking, I don't have a problem like I thought." That was the biggest lie I ever told myself. This was the beginning of my darkest, but most meaningful setback to date.
I unfollowed over 200 Influencers/Celebrities on Instagram
Before I get started on why I decided to unfollow these celebrities and influencers I wanted to take a moment to link my story What I realized when I deleted Facebook. It was such an eye opening experience for me. Its been over 7 months since I got rid of facebook and I have still not looked back. I don't miss the toxicity of that platform, and anyone that knows me personally I keep in contact with via texts and phone calls. I'm not suggesting this is for everyone, but what I can say is if you're feeling drained or irritable try limiting your use and see what happens.
Revising Ghost of You
**Revison Summary** Scarlett hasn't been lucky in love to say the least, but being single in 2021 was a nightmare. With the rise of dating apps and social media it made finding love was nearly impossible. One night after getting her millionth disgusting message on a dating app she vowed to be single forever. When she fell asleep she had a dream about the last time she saw Trevor Ramirez, the person she believed was the love of her life. It had been 14 years since they last saw each other, things hadn't ended on good terms. After waking up from the dream Scarlett took a trip down memory lane of her and Trevors infamous love story. The question remained, would they ever reunite?
The trip that changed my life.
"Healing doesn't mean the damage never existed, it means damage no longer has control over our lives." A year ago today I flew to Hawaii with two of my best friends, for what I thought was going to be an epic girls trip. What I didn't know was, it would be the trip that launched a healing journey I needed for many years. While at the time I viewed many of the events as hurtful, reflecting on them one year later I realize that it all happened for a reason.
Too Little too Late
"Sadly sometimes it's too late, and thats the thing about time we cannot get it back." Life has ways of teaching us all kinds of lessons, some easier to accept than others. Some you won't learn until long after events have happened. Then once you finally realize, it's too little too late.
Finding the New Me
"I'm a different person compared to the person I was this time last year." I was talking to my best friend the other day and we got on the subject of how this year has changed us. That we are realizing that the version of us that we've always known is changing and evolving. I won't speak for her and her experience as that is her story to tell, but her is mine. I hope whoever reads this can relate in someway, and it reminds you that you're not alone in how you feel.
Listening to the Rain
"The sound of rain needs no translation." I love rainy days, and being from California they are few and far between. I try to take advantage of them when I can, as a way to just unwind. Hearing the rain hit the roof, and water rushing through the gutters reminds me of being a kid. It brings me back to all the times I spent at my grandmas and listening to the rain hit the tin roof of her trailer, and something about that is just so comforting. Her 81st birthday would have been yesterday December 11th, and this year her birthday has been particularly hard on me. So in a way I feel like she is here with me in spirit.
This isn’t going to be easy
"The pain you feel today, will be the strength you feel tomorrow." Day 2-5: December 6th 2021 So if you saw my last post "The Beginning of My New Fitness Journey" than you'll know I've decided to blog my process. I figure it would be something good for me to look back on, and I also hope that it will reach at least on person and help them too. Everyones journey looks different, but I think we all face some of the same struggles no matter what path we are on.
The Beginning of a New Fitness Journey
"You may not be there yet, but you are closer than you were yesterday." Day 1: As I am writing this the day is December 2nd 2021. I know, pretty bad time to start considering its the month of the holidays. Normally I would agree, but now I believe anytime is a good time to start when you truly want to do something. Through this process of figuring out how I am going to get back into working out I have started to realize that this is the start of my new fitness journey. I keep comparing everything to where I was a few years back and every-time I do it discourages me from doing anything at all.