Melissa Steussy
Bio
Author of Let Your Privates Breathe-Breaking the Cycle of Addiction and Family Dysfunction. Available at The Black Hat Press:
https://www.theblackhatpress.com/bookshop/p/let-your-privates-breathe
Stories (81/0)
I'm Powerless Over Black Friday and My Life is Unmanagable.
The relief of making the purchase and the comedown. Ahhh. The thrill wears off and I must do it over and over again. I’m having another trauma response to the holidays. Going to the mall for me is like going to a bar when you’re sober (which I am.) I see so many things that I think I need. I want them all and all of a sudden everything that I have is not good enough. I look around at all the people in the shops and I see all the money being spent and I feel less than and not enough.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Psyche
Why Are Boys Forced to Toughen Up?
What is this? Why do boys need to man up and be tough? Nobody likes a sensitive male? Not manly enough? This is what’s wrong with much of our society; man after man has been told that boys don’t cry and to man up. We have angry men. We have testosterone-filled men that are scared and sad and they aren’t given permission to feel either of those things.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Confessions
Loneliness Permeates My Being
I grasp everywhere for some type of balance. I look this way and that. Will I find solace in my phone scrolling for hours? On the next swipe will I finally find the relief I seek or will I keep going until I can finally justify shutting my eyes in bed.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Poets
Today Is the Day We Begin To Love Ourselves.
When I look back at photos of myself I always see my flaws. I remember how I felt that day and pick apart my awkward smile and chubby arms. I remember thinking what an ugly picture. My eyes are so squinty. I wish I was taller. She looks so skinny and pretty next to me.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Motivation
I Am Not From Minnesota
I moved to the Midwest from Seattle a few years ago and learned about Minnesota nice. It’s a term people use here for being passive-aggressive. Where people are super nice to your face and then as soon as you leave the room they are talking about you.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Humans
It's Been a Few Months Since I've Given it Up.
Am I horny for it? I am getting there. Sometimes as a woman, it feels like we are just there to please our partners. I had been feeling overwhelmed and overburdened by responsibilities and needed to tap out (no pun intended)of the physical aspects of my relationship. I felt like I had nothing left to give and asked for space.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Filthy
What Brings Me Anxiety
I have an anxiety disorder. It comes to me with a tight chest and I feel like I lose the ability to take a deep breath. This used to happen to me all the time as a child, but I didn’t know what to call it. I would get scared that I couldn’t breathe properly and it would make me more anxious. As a kid, I had no one to go to with my anxious feelings, but thankfully as an adult, I have learned some tools to help guide me to calm.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Psyche
24 Years Ago Today
I was 21 and after work, I had gone out with some friends. A girlfriend of mine was turning 21 and we wanted to celebrate with drinks. I remember what I was wearing and the bars we stopped at. This night wasn’t much different than any other besides the fact that on my way home I got pulled over and was made to do a field sobriety test.
By Melissa Steussy2 years ago in Psyche