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When I first started my journey on here I imagined it would go a lot differently. Entirely different than it has if I am honest. I had set my expectations high for myself when I first started writing on here. My mental health was in a completely different space when I first started! I have struggled this mountain. I've had to take a few stops along the way, detoured courses that haven't been working for me. Ran in a circle in search of support just to be reminded that was never the place I was meant to be in. I wanted this space to be a place I could share my poetry, journey through life, random thoughts!
Times up, what are we waiting for?
I am inhaling a deep breathe of air right now as I self sooth my anxiety. Life is so whirling, does that even make sense? We have all this life in front of us, and yet do we? Time is definitely an illusion if you ask my opinion however something on the surface of my subconscious tells me otherwise. That time is real and in fact it's running out quicker than we could even imagine. How sad is this idea that we have all the time in the world, and yet none at all? What do we do with it all? Create a facade until our show is out? Hmm. I don't like this. I drown myself in the social media world just to find myself empty. Watching the world from my personal perspective I see so many people running around, wandering in between two worlds and no one can even figure out which they want to belong to.
I know, I'm sorry. It's been 3 months since I last submitted anything. Three months since I touched my fingers to this keyboard. This year hasn't been easy you guys. I keep fighting against these waves that crash towards me and I swear these currents will not take me! Life is hard, I know you guys know what I mean. While life can be a whole shit show, this year has been transforming me into a completely different person. I had some fucked up shit happen, faced demons in people, places and myself. I want to tell you about something I started doing months ago, maybe its been years. This year however, this year has changed me. I'm scared still, but that fear is giving me the drive to run the opposite direction of the path I've been taking. A path where I put myself first, where I stop caring or people pleasing. Why do we do this? I can probably tell you a little bit about why, that'll take time though and I can't completely give you the answers. However I can share with you my experience. My experience with something I'd like to share with you all called "shadow work." Before proceeding I want to just take note that somethings in this article, (read.. whatever you want to call this) could be triggering. Please read with caution and practice self care after reading this! It's important to care for our selves in any moments of heavy emotional topics. I will be talking about mental health, childhood traumas and well, we will see where this goes? I am kind of just free flowing my thoughts for now. So grab your coffee, tea, maybe light a joint or take a dab and let's chat?