A Trans Girl on Fire
Bio
I have been out as trans for 4 years. It has been an amazing journey but also very frustrating at times. These writings will be about my journey and the barriers to myself and my trans brothers and sisters in Canada and around the world.
Stories (11/0)
How my Dom found me. Part 2
When I sat in my car I was shaking. My face was flush and my heart was beating hard. What had just happened? Did I find someone who understood me than I understand myself? I just sat there and breathed deeply. I was so horny now. All that I could I think of was getting home and get my clit between my fingers and having an earth shaking orgasm. I put my seat belt on and plug my phone in when it suddenly signals a test message. “Slut, no touching the cunt until I tell you that you can!”. For fucks sakes. I hate that and yet…I’m soaked. Without thinking I type “yes Sir”. I put the car and drive and head home. I was so dazed and didn’t even remember driving home! I think I was still in subspace.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
How my Dom found me.
It all started innocently. He sent me a quick note saying that he thought I was pretty and loved my confidence. I have never given much thought to messages on FetLife. Most of the time it’s just people that fetishize me. The compliments are nice but nothing really goes anywhere and to be honest they feel a bit weird. I much prefer to contact other people or to meet them myself. So, I asked him what interested him about me. I expected the same standard fetish answers but this time I didn’t get them. He simply said, "I like that you are confident and real.” Really? I had not heard that before and I was intrigued to hear more. I made sure that he understood that I am trans and he said he was very aware of that. So, we began discussions. Whenever I tried to turn the conversation to sex he would stop me. "I don’t want to hear about sex, girl.” I was taken aback. Every Dom that I had talked to went directly to sex. He now has my full attention.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
Suffering for my Mistress
Once you have been around kink for a while you find that there are two kinds of play that can happen in general. The first between a Top and a bottom having a scene. It’s not a relationship but just something fun for them both. No D/s, just an experience. We all do this one for sure. Then you discover play within a D/s or M/s dynamic and things can change for you. My Mistress is a sadist and she also thought of herself as masochist in her past. I am a masochist and these two things go together very well. At some point, you have to ask yourself why you do this? Why do I love to take pain for her? The easy answer is that she is my Mistress and this is what she wants. I don’t necessarily agree with that thinking. I believe that you have to want to take that pain. I also think that it has to be about more than just the pain. It’s the connection and more so for me my desire to suffer for her.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
Kink is not a popularity contest.
This writing was inspired by a photo that I saw on FetLife. A sub showed a picture of a coffee pot and two coffees. The caption started off by saying that “this will be unpopular to the masses”. One of the things that this sub does is serve her partner coffee when requested. When did kink get so silly that we have to label a service that we do as unpopular because you think it’s not what the masses would like? That is so sad to me. My Mistress loves coffee and I serve her coffee from my knees on the regular. I also negotiated that if we ever add another submissive to our dynamic that serving coffee is mine. It’s that important to me and us. I could care less about what other people think of it because it’s very important to us.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
The comfort of a truly connected Mistress/slave relationship
I have had my share of M/s (Mistress/slave) relationships in my life. A few of them were live-in situations that ended after a period of time. I have always wondered what happened in those cases. I know that at that time of my life I hadn’t fully admitted who I was and I think I held some things back. Also, I feel like my Mistress did too. An M/s relationship is multi-layered and not easy. It takes a great deal of communication and a full commitment on both sides. There’s nothing worse than a rule being made and then broken and the Mistress doesn’t follow through to correct it. The same could be said for the slave. It’s my responsibility to follow the rules set out for me that were agreed upon.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
She Controls My Orgasms
I have spent many years exploring my kinks. At first, I didn’t want to include sex in my play but over the years it has become more and more important. Somewhere along the line, I began to love pain as pleasure too. All of this has now become entwined in who I am now. Ultimately I am a submissive slave who loves to serve. Now I serve my Mistress and my place is at her side. I had always thought that once I transitioned that I would end up with a male to serve. Boy was I wrong. I’ve never had a connection that was stronger with anyone in my life. We are as one and I couldn’t be happier. We both love men so we agreed early on to include them in our lives. However, we are committed to each other and have lots of fun without them too.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
My First Sexy Cuckquean Experience!
As a kinky trans woman, I have always had the fantasy of being cucked by a woman. It started when I was in my male body and now as a woman, I have the same fantasy. I have found that over the years that I get great enjoyment from watching others have sex but more importantly I get joy and turned on by watching those that I care for and love having sex. This is the account of my first cuckquean experience.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
The Limitation of Labels
Everything in life is labeled in some way. It starts from the moment of our birth. We are automatically labeled as male or female. We celebrate this with gender reveals and pinks and blues. It’s the way that we were taught and that’s the way most of us think that the world is. It’s true because that’s what the world does. From the second that we are born, we are put into a box and we are expected to stay in that box. But for some of us, we discover that those labels are uncomfortable. We go on with our lives and we continue to function in that box and even confirm that box. But there is more to us. We are scared to scribble outside of the lines. We are taught to care about what other people think so we come to the conclusion that we are stuck in that box.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Motivation
The Pleasure of Pain
Tell someone that is not kinky that you love pain and you will see that little pinched up face that people make when they don’t understand something. Why would you like pain? That makes no sense! To someone who is not kinky, it will never make sense. I am out in this world and I have friends that will say that they are fine with me being kinky but they don’t want to hear about the details. I respect that because they simply can’t understand it. To them when they fall down and get a bruise it’s the body's way of telling them that they are hurt. Kinky people understand this but also stand the pleasure that can come with pain.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
I am a slut. So what!
In my 15 years in kink I have learned many things. I think the most important thing is that I enjoy sex. But really I enjoy sex a lot! I like it hot, dirty and messy. For some people it’s not an easy place to get to. I am not a skinny Barbie type girl. I have curves and that’s just the way that it is. One thing that did help when I entered this lifestyle was to see that there were many different types of bodies and nobody seemed to really care. It didn’t take me long before I was naked at events and I never looked back from there. If you fast forward to the last few years after my transition I had to go through it again. I have scars on both my vagina and breasts. I didn’t want to people to see that at first. It took my Mistress telling me that she liked my body the way that it is. That helped so much. Now I can take my clothes off in front of people and I fully accept who and what I am. I’m a sexy slut.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
The Beauty of a D/s Relationship
Being in a D/s relationship is a beautiful thing to me. The connection that it takes for it to work is extremely high and the work to get there can be a lot. To be that deeply connected to someone is like best drug in the world to me. You begin to really understand each other and what each others needs are and a conversation can happen between you without words being spoken. A look, a touch or a gesture can tell a story in your in mind and you probably don’t even realize it’s happening, you just react. Pure beauty.
By A Trans Girl on Fire4 years ago in Filthy
