I write about my life experiences. I write about complex ptsd, the agonies, the angst and my post traumatic growth. About Beauty, Truth and Honour and little vignettes of comfort from the spirits that love me: living and dead. I also Dance!
Memories: 28 May 2023
28 May 2020 2:44 am. I have been lying in bed since 11ish, dozing and belching with reflux. Overheated with my extra blankets and wrestling them like a prize fighter on acid to kick them off then instead I feel cold. I was not sleeping but in some sort of insomniac daze when some weird sounds emanating from outside, upset the dog.
Memories: 29 May 2023
29 May 2021 11:11 am on the spiralling cosmic wheel as we turn and re-turn to ever greater epiphanies and aspirations and sometimes perspiring whimsical bedevilments of perceived accomplishment...knowing that our time on earth is a fleeting yet somehow eternal co-creation and an evolution in consciousness.
Memories: 25 May 2023
25 May 2022 Today I made my first metal stamp, inspired by a video by Rio Grande with a tutorial by Matthieu Cheminée. I had thought it was beyond my skill set but I found it quite easy and enjoyable. Tomorrow I will attempt to temper the steel.
Memories: 19 May 2023
19 May 2022 Watching “Love on the Spectrum” on Netflix. I am feeling slightly awkward that I too have never had a proper relationship or dated successfully in decades. I don’t even have autism. So I can attribute my lack of socialisation in neurotypical ways to my complex ptsd and the murderous cunts I attracted to myself for years. Psy sighs.
Memories: 24 May 2023
24 May 2022 24 May 2020 5:34 am rough night. Little sleep. I had to put two blankets on top of my doona to weight it down so I could finally pass out. Bones in my feet ache from all the frenetic house sorting. House looks same...only I know what has been changed. Feeling slightly berserk from exhaustion with the attendant insomnia.
Memories: 22 May 2023
22 May 2020 Busy but happy day! I have been Tetrising my clutter of collections for three days! In the afternoon I had a lovely visit from Margot, Evie (who is four, not six as I had thought) and little Suzy who is three. We had a wonderful time!