Nat
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She/her/hers
writing about adoption, mental health, and chronic Illness.
Stories (42/0)
My Year of Grief and Cancelation.
I am standing in this room wondering what comes now. I know I have to help her but I just don’t know how. All the times I’ve been told about the way her illness goes but the truth of it is no one really knows. Every day the act gets more and more absurd. All of the fear that sits inside me screaming to be heard. I know they won’t though not a single word. I was there at her side. When she called When she cried. How could she leave me here alone? Will she stay sober this time, there is no way to be sure but I’m weary to the bone. Whenever she goes “flying” I keep both feet firmly on the ground. Now I need some help and there is no one around. I never had to face life without her at my side. Now I’m walking right beside her as a black hole opens wide. Mine is just a slower death. I’ve been there for every high and every low but it’s the worst it’s ever been. she’s been hurt but I can’t give up now. Cause I have never been alone.
By Nat 10 months ago in Confessions
Six Minutes That ended my 5-year old relationship
He moved out in a flurry of angry words and slammed doors that would reach a crescendo in the six fateful minutes that ended my relationship. We had been together for five years and I'd always thought that we'd be together forever. But, in this moment I knew that we had reached an irreconcilable impasse. He was so angry, but I was the one that felt the grief that weighed heavily on my soul. That moment felt like it could last forever - the silence that hung in the air like a thick fog.
By Nat 11 months ago in Confessions