depression
It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.
Struggling With Depression? Read This Article Now
Depression can intrude on your life without warning. It can demand your total attention and make your life difficult. There are many ways that you can be helped. Doing research and seeking treatments for the kind of depression you have will help you to live a happy life. The tips below can help you with the process of getting better.
Day-Old Donuts
My eyes open, and quickly close again. It’s already light out, and surely there is something that I should be doing, somewhere that I have to be. There isn’t any good reason that the sun is up and I’m still in bed. Whatever it is, there’s a good chance that I’m already running late, already a step behind. Business as usual, I suppose. No, wait. Last night was Friday, which would make today Saturday. I don’t have anywhere to be. At least, I don’t think I do. I suppose I’ll find out soon enough.
ItsactuallywarrenPublished 2 months ago in PsycheDepression Is Not Laziness
When you spend your Saturday in bed not doing anything, even though the chores have piled up, that’s laziness, right? When you neglect your social relationships because you just don’t feel like going out, aren't you just being antisocial?
Matthew ManiaciPublished 2 months ago in Psyche
Under the green light
I lay here under this green light. I ponder all the things that could have been so different from the way that they are now.. Hi I’m Kayli and I got mental health issues. This one’s called anxiety. My breathing is tight my body is tense. And all I can gather from my racing thoughts is that regret seems to be the dominant force living within. Oh now here comes the depression. Crushing and spirit breaking as it is, depression and anxiety have become almost second nature. I’ve lost so fucking much to be honest. I’ve been crushed in too many ways to be “normal" ever again. Did I mention I struggle with addiction. Oh yea I got it all. Diagnosed bipolar type one with psychotic features, PTSD, social anxiety, and a stimulant misuse disorder. Oh but they don’t know I also am cross addicted to opiates now. But for the record what I listed is the official diagnosis of my local Gateway center. So but yea in the soft glow of this green light, I clearly see the mess that is me and my life. I wish I could have been normal once so that I could tell you all about how I just fell into this mess. But it seems there has always been mess. My mom first took me to a psychiatrist when I was 4. What business does a 4 year old have in a psychiatric office you may ask? Well apparently I was beating my head against brick walls almost knocking myself unconscious, biting myself drawing blood, and ripping my own hair out when I’d pitch temper tantrums. My question is how could I have been filled with such rage as a toddler? This same rage has accompanied me my entire life. Now 29 years old , if anything it seems, my rage has only amplified. I currently am out on bond. Well three different bonds. All violent charges pretty much. Stress consumes my waking thoughts. I don’t want to go to prison or county jail again. I’m still shocked by all the happenings myself. I’m not sure what evil has possessed me. But I feel so disassociated from my behaviors. Most times I feel like I’m just watching a horror movie while also staring and directing it at the same time. Crippled by anxiety, social anxiety and depression, I’m mostly alone as my people skills are pretty atrocious. I don’t know how to truly connect anymore. And when I find people I like or love it seems I push them away. Or scare them away. My entire family has withdrawn from me at this point. Anyone from the outside looking in labels me, or at least thus far is my experience. I’ve been labeled a piece of shit junkie. But if I could measure my tears in weight for you maybe hen you’d see or someone would see how much of a human being I am still. It wouldn’t change reality I’m sure but to be understood would be of paramount importance. My soul had been broken and I am a broken thing. The amount of sorrow my soul has swallowed has cost me any positive outlook that I could have ever had in life. Dark humor is a coping mechanism and I use it fairly frequently, although many find it more disturbing than humorous. Coincidentally, I find life more disturbing than humorous. How ironic right? That’s also a reoccurring theme in my life, irony. This green light perfectly illuminates the smoke billowing from my lit cigarette. I reflect on the many wishes I have for me and this life of mine. I hope for a better future. Filled with the sounds of my children’s laughter. I’ve lost both of my children due to my instability and criminal track record. But maybe a future exists where I stabilize and they can be a part of my life and I of theirs. The only real thing keeping me from just killing myself honestly, at this point, is hope and fear. I fear the next life may just be more miserable than this life has been thus far. I fear all the pain and sorrow have been for nothing. What if death just leads to darkness? Id rather stay under this green light with my depression and anxiety than to trust that there will be safety in the next life. Plus too much hope lives within me. I believe somehow someway all that has been lost will be returned. That things won’t always hurt so much. That I could truly be happy and make others as well. So but who knows the outcome? I sure don’t. All I know is I better try to get some sleep. Hope someone out there reads this and feels something. Cause I feel everything under this green light.
Kayli CarterPublished 2 months ago in Psyche
An Uncertain Emerald Nothing
Things have to get worse before they can get better, or so you tell yourself as you ascend the stairs, hoping they’ll save you somehow. As if you’ll drop your problems on one of these steps and they’ll just fall down.
J.C. EmbreePublished 2 months ago in Psyche
What is Major Depressive Disorder?
Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), also referred as depression, is a serious medical illness that disrupts a person’s mood, behavior, thought processes, apart from degrading the physical health. A depressed person may gain or lose weight, eat more or less than usual, have difficulty concentrating, and have trouble sleeping or sleep more than usual.
haven smithPublished 2 months ago in PsycheWhat Depression Feels Like
When it gets bad, all I can do is hold on and trust that it will be over. There’s no “looking on the bright side” or “finding things to be grateful for”. When you’ve been held under water for too long and you’re desperate to take a big gasp of air, it’s not helpful for a scuba diver to swim past with a sign that says “Just imagine how good breathing feels.” It’s past that - it’s pure survival.
Camille WalrathPublished 2 months ago in PsycheAlone
If you have never been in this spot, I pray that you never know this and if you have been in this spot I pray for your spirit. Being cheated on. By your husband. The father of your children. Your best friend. You lose a piece of yourself in that pain. It took me a while to figure out what the pain was, that it was not just a regular broken heart, it wasn’t just ego and humiliation, it wasn’t just my soul being crushed, it was my spirit. He shattered my spirit, my light, my fire. He broke a piece of me that I did not know was breakable.
Suzanne ArdenPublished 2 months ago in Psyche
A List of 10 Things To Do When Your Depression Is Triggered
Once you’re diagnosed with depression, it isn’t something that will be cured and magically go away, ever. It’s something that most of us will struggle with managing for the rest of our lives. Something we’ve been challenged with carrying around even before we were diagnosed. After being diagnosed we were given power though. For some of us, that diagnosis is the freaking miracle we needed. The final answer to why the freak do we feel, act and think the way we do. However, it doesn’t fix it all. Being given a diagnosis doesn’t mean poof depression be gone like some folks think that’s how it works. It’s still there. We just now have an idea of what we’re dealing with and now we have the power to learn how to manage it.
Laura TranPublished 2 months ago in Psyche
5 Steps to Take if Your Teenager is Depressed
Adults are not the only ones who deal with mental health issues. Teenagers can struggle with depression, and there are things you can do to help them get through it. These steps will get you started.
Sheryl WrightPublished 2 months ago in Psyche
Streetlights
Throughout my life, I've seen people use several metaphors for depression. For example, Matthew Johnstone (author of I Had A Black Dog) describes his depression as a black dog that visits without warning or reason. Others have likened it to drowning, and describe how difficult it is to keep yourself afloat. I can relate to both of these descriptions wholly. I've been dealing with depression since my teenage years, and it's fluctuated in intensity over my lifetime. I've come to realise that my experience is not best described as a dog, or me thrashing against waves.
Millie HodgsonPublished 2 months ago in PsycheDepression, Anxiety, and Stranger Things
If you’ve seen the television show Stranger Things, you are likely wondering what it has to do with depression and anxiety. You may be thinking, “Is there mention of these conditions, these mental illnesses, in the show?”
Nate HuyserPublished 2 months ago in Psyche
