Life presents variables; learning how to cope in order to master, minimize, or tolerate what has come to pass.
On the night of April 5th, 2012, I almost died. I should have died. Had anything gone differently, even by a hair, I would have died. It was the single most traumatic experience in my life and shaped who I am today. Here, let’s take a trip down memory lane. Don’t worry, it’s safe, but you might want to buckle your seat belt.
Bad Dreams and Our Power to Flip the Switch
I was driving my Tahoe, a vehicle I hadn’t owned for at least 10 years, to a yacht club for a reason not revealed during this short dream. My grandson was in his car seat, the radio played, and the day was warm and bright. The navigation brought us to the back of the building. Surveying the area, I made a decision to drive around the building to see the entrance. Maybe there was better parking available in the front.
The Perfect Song Led Me to Happiness
Music touches the core of my being. The tones, the bass, the rhythm, and the lyrics can alter my emotional state in mere minutes.
Snow In April
Snow on my birthday was the best possible gift Denver could have given me after the past five birthdays here. That is not to say that the others haven’t been beautiful in their own way, but instead to say that now, finally at 32, an age that I never thought I would reach, a blanket of soft, fresh, silent snow, is exactly what I wanted from Mother Nature.
It's a Blessing to Be a Burden
At some point, most of us feel like we are a burden to others. When we struggle mentally, emotionally, or physically, we may feel like a burden because we require additional care. We cannot fulfill all of our physical and emotional needs without assistance. It’s oh-so frustrating to rely on others for our basic needs. This summer I struggled with additional anxiety and feeling like a burden too.
C'est La Vie
C'est La Vie. Stuff happens. What happened to setting SMART goals? Nothing wrong with goal setting, yet when your world gets ripped apart by a mystery illness (for example) that has made us self-isolate and quarantine since the new decade (2020) has beckoned on our domain...then what can we do? Go with the flow. That is all we can do. The key is to control what we can control, knowing that we can never control everything. For starters, this is just humanly impossible. We are not here to change the world, but rather to live in it, enjoy it, and to achieve as much as we can. Life sucks sometimes. Life is disappointing sometimes too. Life can also be absolutely awesome.
Why Am I This Way?
"You're such a Diva." "You're so OVERDRAMATIC." If I could remember all the things I have been called for my overreactions this would be a 50-page blog post. Am I a diva? Probably. Am I overdramatic? Definitely. But not for the reasons you're thinking. I love shoes, makeup, and knockoff sunglasses with bling. I do love attention when I am in a good mood, which is often. I get really into fictional characters. It doesn't matter if it's books, movies, or tv shows and I will tell people everything that happened in a very overdramatic fashion so they completely understand all the important parts.
My life is a soap opera
OK so you all know pretty much how my mind works...kinda. Now try navigating things in this world that get thrown at you with a mind like that. Some of it is my fault, some of it isn't. When I was little, things seemed so easy...PSYCH things have never been easy for me. when I was 12 years old possibly 13, 14 maybe. well I was young and in middle school. I had this friend I met in 6th grade. She was so nice to me. I felt like she understood me for the most part except for the part of me being a total dork and completely uncool. yeah, I wore corduroy Winnie the pooh overalls and had absolutely NO style whatsoever back then. Anyways, this girl became my best friend. we were together all the time. Then our circle grew a bit. we were all the misfits of the school that had banded together.
What are the activities for Sober Living
What are the main activities for Sober Living? It's a challenging decision because there is no set curriculum for Sober Living. A person may choose to stay sober for a certain period of time or for the rest of their life and at the end of that time decide to go back into the world. Sober Living is something that someone decides to do for themselves.
Today is intensely challenging; I’m not sure how I’ll endure. There’s a vibration under my skin that’s twisting and burrowing down to my gut. My family is gathered downstairs for the funeral. I can hear them saying my name, mentioning that I’m still upstairs in my childhood bedroom. I’m frozen solid in the middle of the room. I just can’t bring myself to move a muscle. Many years ago, Dad taught me, “When you notice yourself in a panic, stop, and slowly take two deep breaths. This will ground you to the world – to reality.” So I take a deep breath in; then I let my breath leave my body, slowly…
On the path (8/23/21)
Sometimes you get caught up in life. The weight of the world tends to hit hard. You start to worry. Can't think. It's these moments that you will seek balance consciously, unconsciously, or both. You'll seek balance physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It's easy to get lost if you're not careful.
The Pandemic May Not Be Over For You
A few weeks ago I saw the images and videos from the Lollapalooza in Chicago and for the first time I thought: "Yup, the pandemic is gone." I went to a bar for the first time in months. I'm vaccinated, bands are playing stadiums. You can't help but feel that the Coronavirus is a thing of the past. Although the statistics suggest otherwise.