He spills the coffee on the table, towards the women's hands across from him.
He panics. "I'm so, so sorry! The handle is so hot."
"It's fine, its fine."- She quickly wipes her hand feeling annoyed.
~~~
Is it fine though? Is it really?
Mouthing words.
~~~
"What did you say?"- She studies my dry and chapped lips.
"Nothing, I-I"- He stutters.
"Uhhare you okay? I'll get some more napkins, here."
"No please, it's fine." - She bares to look up.
~~~
I'll get some more napkins..... I'll get some more napkins! ...... I'll get some more napkins?
Mouthing words.
~~~
She stops wiping her hand to look up. "You know what. Maybe, I should go. I don't think this will ever work out anymore. I don't know how to put it this way, but there's something wrong with you..." She gets up to leave.
...
"There is something wrong with me?" Is there really?
He sits back down with regret, mouthing the words that growled at him before she stormed off. I guess I was the problem after all.
"There is something wrong with me?" Is there really?
Mouthing words.
~~~
Waking up the next morning he expected to forget the hard truth.
"There is something wrong with me?" Is there really?
Mouthing words.
Those were the first words to come out of his mouth in the morning.....
"There is something wrong with me?" Is there really? -He asks his psychologist.
"In what way?"- She lifts her head up from typing.
"Well, look at me. Hear me. Why do I act like this. Why do I talk like this? Why do I do those mouthing motions after every sentence. Why do I have to be like this? Why did it have to be me out of the 5 billion people in this world. When is it my turn to be happy, to actually feel good about myself."
~~~
As I sit in my room, all I think about is how much I failed the people around me.
I'm living in my regrets, mouthing the regrets to my reflection of isolation.
Why do I have to feel this way? Why did depression have to destroy my happiness like this...
I can't live like this; I won't live like this.
But my grandmother always told me....
God works in mysterious ways.
Maybe,
I should just keep moving forward....
~~~
Keep, moving forward, keep moving forward.
"Keep moving forward!"
He looks around....
"Oh!" - He looks at his hands holding 2 hot cups of coffee.
Don't mess up, Don't mess up.
Mouthing words.
He place the coffee gently. But only by the act of biting his teeth down and mouthing the words silently...
"So, how was your day." - She asks as she sips her coffee.
"Not bad, yours."- He says looking around with the thought of DeJa'Vu.
"Oh god, this coffee is hot!"- She place the cup down, but accidentally spilling it on her fingers. "Ow!"
"Oh, are you okay!"- He questioned Softley.
"It's fine, I'm fine."
He remains silent as he grabs some more napkins. She finishes cleaning her fingers as she engages herself back into the conversation.
"Remember that time, I spilled coffee on you."
"Huh? You have before?"
"Oh, was I not meant to say that."
"oh, was I not-"
No.
I clench my cheeks; I clench my teeth.
My mouth.... My body...
What is happening....
MY MOUTH.
This is me speaking...
No mouthing, no twitching, no regret feeling.
I hear voices now, but not of anxiety, negativity or depression.
But the sounds of my own private wars echoing the battles of men before me and near me.
No wonder I do not make people comfortable.
I am a mirror~
~~~
Authors notes:
"Mouthing words" is a act of silent moving your lips as if you were speaking, but without actually producing any sound. It's connected to many mental problems such as anxiety, depression, schizophrenia and more! I also wanted to define a moral of living through past regrets. The boldness and curviness of the fonts are symbolic to the mind!
About the Creator
Kodah
- Storyteller, Love/Romance, Poetry, Dark, Mental health, Psychological, Surreal, Nature, Mythical
~𝓢𝓽𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝓬𝓪𝓷 𝓫𝓮 𝓪 𝓵𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮 𝓭𝓮𝓮𝓹~
The secret journey to regaining emotional stability
Do you feel that the anxious and avoidant types both seem to be strong and independent, but in fact they are sensitive and fragile. They often fall into emotions because of small things and start to be anxious and avoidant? If anxious and avoidant types want to change these, what they actually need is to compensate for their missing parts and heal their injured parts. In this issue, we will teach the avoidant and anxious types how to cultivate themselves again, making their emotions more stable, more rational in relationships, and at the same time gaining the ability to actively output emotional value. If anxious and avoidant types want to overcome the sensitive and fragile parts of themselves and obtain stable emotions, they need not only cognitive adjustments, but also need to heal the traumatized parts of themselves and compensate for the regretful parts of themselves. For example, the regret of the avoidant type is that they have not been paid serious attention to and have never truly rebelled. Therefore, the avoidant type will not fight for their own needs in many situations, resulting in uncomfortable situations and relationships, and they are always running away and wandering. The trauma of the anxious type is that they are trapped in unstable relationships and have been hurt by the instability in intimate relationships. The slightest fluctuation will make the anxious type feel nervous and anxious. Therefore, anxious and avoidant types are inherently fragile, sensitive, and unstable. In summary, these reasons are that something is missing during the growth stage, or they have suffered some trauma, so if you want to solve these problems, this is the time. Compensate when you need to compensate, heal when you need to heal, exercise when you need to exercise, just treat yourself as a child and raise yourself again. If the avoidant and anxious types re-train themselves, what kind of growth can they gain? First of all, emotions will become more and more stable. For example, you can be aware of your emotions at the first time, avoid emotions from affecting your thoughts and judgments, and learn to regulate your emotions. Secondly, you can truly understand yourself and know your real needs and fears. In the process of re-nurturing yourself, you can clearly understand your needs and fears, that is, you can know why you are attracted to a certain person, why you behave like this, and then you can better understand what you need.
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Comments (8)
This is really clever. The subject is painful but you have written it so well - it's moving and smart and the use of italic and Bold really supports the theme. Awesome job!
Fanrastic!!! Congratulations on the leaderboard win!!!💕❤️❤️
Such an interesting flow of words that perfectly describe visually the goings on in his mind. Congratulations of the recognition today on the Vocal Leaderboard!
Nicely done. I loved it! ❤
This was great!
"No wonder I do not make people comfortable. I am a mirror~". This was great piece! Very complicated, I loved it!
Oh wow. Just wow. This was outstanding.
This is so evocative, nicely done.