Bipolar disorder; understanding the highs, the lows and the in between.
Farewell to the Houseguest
for Æ...go deo, and for anyone who needs to read it. What a simple wee ruse, just to lay down the tools, I had clutched in my Hands,
The myth of narcissism
In the tapestry of ancient mythology, long preceding the era of ubiquitous selfies, the Greeks and Romans spun a captivating myth about an individual consumed by an excessive fascination with his own image. At the heart of this tale lies Narcissus, a strikingly handsome wanderer traversing the world in quest of love. His narrative takes a dramatic turn when he, after rejecting the advances of a nymph named Echo, chances upon his own reflection in a river. Captivated by the image that met his gaze, Narcissus falls deeply in love with his own reflection. An irresistible allure binds him to this self-admiration, eventually leading to his tragic demise. Legend has it that the spot where Narcissus met his end was marked by the emergence of a flower known as the Narcissus.
In the grand tapestry of human understanding, schizophrenia stands as a cryptic enigma, its origins dating back over a century. Yet, despite the sands of time, the exact causes of this perplexing condition elude our grasp. Schizophrenia persists as one of the most enigmatic and unfairly stigmatized illnesses in the modern age. Let's embark on a riveting journey, navigating the intricate terrain of symptoms, unraveling potential causes, and delving into the ever-evolving realm of treatments.
It was a tiring and rigorous day. I was drained out of my much needed energy, and a bit pissed off. My book bag weighed down on my right shoulder like a carcass of an un-gutted doe. I got an hour until my brothers come home, so that enough time to figure out dinner. Mom was gone, she said work, but I’m pretty sure she was on a bender with her lover Critter. All we had in the fridge was ground meat graying from pre-rot, I hope it was beef, stiffening cheese, and tortillas. Tacos it is.
10 Habits Detrimental to Mental Health and How to Break Free
Introduction: Our mental health, encompassing emotional, psychological, and social well-being, plays a crucial role in our overall well-being. Neglecting mental health can have severe consequences, yet it is often overlooked. This article explores the connection between habits and mental health, shedding light on 10 negative habits that can harm our mental well-being. By understanding and addressing these habits, we can pave the way for a healthier and more positive mental state.
the bipolar person
The bipolar person was lonely most of the time and alone when they weren’t. Lonely was a symptom of mania; alone belonged to depression. The bipolar person had not felt at ease while alone for many years; they needed music, drugs, or the distraction of friends. For years they had not felt the security that comes from having spent a necessary day of engagement with the world and its people, looking them in the eye many times, laughing and reacting, noticing things of light and color and volume, and thoroughly exhausting themself in full health as a social animal then to return home and expand in the silence of their moderately sized one-bedroom apartment to restore. The bipolar person didn’t live alone anymore. And lately, this restoration was so fraught with overthinking and condemnation that they wondered if they could still do it right. The moderately sized one-bedroom apartment had become a small –– bordering on efficiency –– two-bedroom. The bipolar person shared this small –– bordering on efficiency –– two-bedroom, complete with a murphy hammock and washer/dryer in the [flexion of two upright fingers to indicate the presence of scrutiny] kitchen, with their ex’s best friend. This person quickly became the bipolar person’s friend, muddying the situation further, as the breakup between the bipolar person and their ex soured. The [finger flexion] kitchen had been a sacred place for the three of them - the bipolar person, the ex, and the roommate who happened to be the ex’s best friend. They made the most incredible things in that [f.f.] kitchen. The bipolar person agonized over remembering the meals made and eaten together: the curries, the soups, the sweet potatoes, the risotto, the rice and beans, the miso eggs, the pomegranates, the apples and peanut butter, the skillets, the mochi. Love was shared in the [f.f.] kitchen, and the bipolar person now struggled to fry an egg, let alone prepare a complete meal for themself. There was little to be done for the wave of depression settling over the bipolar person except to wait it out. Medications did not seem like an option for treatment due to the adverse effects of selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) on their mood. Without fail, SSRIs sent the bipolar person into fits of mania that usually ended with them balled into the fetal position on the end of their bed, in hysterical fits of laughter and tears, and attempting to open their flesh with a knife or a razor or scissors or a stapler or anything they could get their hands on as if the skin itself were diseased and requiring removal. These breaks would come at the end of an extended episode where the bipolar person felt as though tiny spiders had laid large nests of eggs all over their body, and those eggs were beginning to hatch. At times, the sensation was so intense the bipolar person swore they could see as deep as the dermis move; this movement extended from their flesh into the darkened corners of their room so shadows would climb and dance, taunting an inner child still terrified of the dark. This inner child bared itself to the ex and roommate on more than one occasion, and the bipolar person considered death to end the shame. After being so exposed, they felt there was no way to redeem themself in their own eyes. The bipolar person knew well enough at this point that other people would forgive all sorts of behaviors, and even if they wouldn’t, the only thing that mattered was whether or not the bipolar person could forgive themself. The answer was almost always a resounding no, but ultimately death was not an option. So the small –– bordering on efficiency –– two-bedroom apartment complete with murphy hammock and washer/dryer in the [f.f.] kitchen shrank under the weight of self-hate, blame, and resentment.
I Talk Out the Ass
I don't know how to write this, my feelings are like a dark cloud inside. Shrouded in doubt and pain. My inner demons won't leave me alone. My only way of coping right now is to write this out. I've been told all my life I'm the probably unwanted always the scape goat.
What is bipolar disorder? We've all heard various things about bipolar disorder, some accurate and some stigmatizing and incorrect. Today, I want to delve into the distinctions between bipolar 1 and 2, the experiences of those living with the condition, and the most effective ways to manage its symptoms. Firstly, it's important to recognize that individuals with bipolar disorder can lead fulfilling lives when receiving proper treatment. It's common for public discourse to focus on those who struggle to manage their symptoms, but it's vital to understand that they do not represent everyone with bipolar disorder. Additionally, individuals with mental illness are accountable for their actions and may simply require professional support to make positive choices. Displaying compassion and understanding as they work towards managing their symptoms is incredibly beneficial. It's also helpful to grasp the diagnostic criteria for bipolar 1 and bipolar 2, as outlined in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM). While the DSM is not exhaustive, it provides a framework for identifying symptoms and understanding the diagnostic process.
Your Words Are Your Sword.
People underrate their words so much and too often. When people often get a "You look nice today," they answer like: "What? Me? No, No, I look awful today; this was a rough morning…" and continue in the endless negative downward spiral.
6 Ways to Leverage Your Mental Faculties for Success
Our mental faculties hold the key to unlocking our true potential and achieving a higher level of performance. By understanding and leveraging the powers of reason, imagination, intuition, memory, will, and perception, we can access our inner genius and navigate life's obstacles with confidence, clarity, and creativity.
The Importance of Recognizing and Treating a Psychotic Break
Writers Note: The following story mentions trauma related assaults, childhood trauma and psychotic religious experiences. The stories of the psychiatric unit are meant to reflect lifesaving treatments and not to discourage others from staying out of an acute care inpatient unit.
Panic at the Gas Station
I’m particularly prone to panic attacks as I have bipolar disorder. Panic attacks can happen at any time to those dealing with anxiety, depression, and other mental health concerns. I typically experience a panic attack when I’m coming down from bipolar mania. I’ve experienced them for more than 20 years and wanted to share some tips for managing an attack.