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She Is No Longer Herself
She sits in the chair in the dining room, so small and frail. I can't help but wonder what she is thinking about. Her eyes are red and swollen as she stares at the floor transfixed to one particular spot. She makes no movements for what seems to be hours. Almost as if she is hypnotized in a trance, I snap my fingers to see if she will come back to reality. Is she being haunted by the trauma of her past, or has she always been this way? I ask her what she is thinking so hard about and she replies with the same answer she always does, "NOTHING". I don't want to anger her by asking any further questions so I walk away and let her be.
Joyel Joyel KowalskiPublished 3 years ago in PsycheLiving With Bipolar
Living with Bipolar Disorder is never an easy thing. About 2.3 million people struggle with this disorder, and about 4% of the world don't even recognize they have it. If you think about it, that's a lot of people!
Dalene HultinePublished 3 years ago in PsycheGrowing Pains
I, like many, struggle with the aspects of day-to-day life. From the second I wake up to the moment I lay my head on my pillow at night, I feel a weight form in my chest. Though it has always been there to varying degrees of noticeability, it has recently been more prominent, leaving me wondering why.
Alice FarmerPublished 3 years ago in PsycheSelf-Analysis
I was dreaming, and sadly as with many dreams the beginnings may be lost on me. I was however expecting a package containing information. The fantasy that makes such an anticipation palpable however, the origin of the dream, is difficult to recollect. Yet, even with this fantasy broken, we glean signs as to what it may have been by the forms the dream work manifests our wish content in.
Suicide Survival
I sat there for a few minutes. I felt fine. What I’m about to express, might be difficult to imagine but; this was my reality. So try. Now remember, I lived in a one bedroom apartment, the bathroom was two or three steps away from the bedroom. I had to pee, so I got up from the couch, used the restroom, cleaned myself; I picked up my underwear, flushed the toilet & stared into the mirror as I washed my hands. My eyes didn’t look the same. I smirked at myself in the mirror in a way I never have before. I walked into the bedroom, and there I was… Sitting on the toilet again. Cleaning myself. Picking up my underwear again, flushing, staring into the mirror, I washed my hands; and walking into the bedroom.
Solibeth NunezPublished 3 years ago in PsycheA House, Not a Home
Silence is deafening. I listened to the quiet, snuggled under my covers, ignoring the sweat dripping down my body. The soft breaths of my little sister above me came out of her like a wisp of air in her sleep as she slept deeply although not peacefully. I reached up to the base boards of her bed, lightly running my fingers along the wood so as not to get a splinter. The hum of the fridge in the kitchen was deafening, it hurt my ears in the silence of the house.
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King StoughPublished 3 years ago in PsycheSuicide Prevention Resources
Suicide is a serious issue in America today, and while suicides may have declined overall during 2020, the rate of suicidal thoughts has increased. Having helpful, actionable resources available for when someone is struggling with thoughts of suicide is a crucial step toward them getting the help they need. Be it stress, substance abuse, trauma, or any other issue that can cause thoughts of suicide, getting the proper care and treatment is often necessary to avoid tragedy.
Mike SmethPublished 3 years ago in PsycheThe Wonderful World of Me
Hey, y'all, it seems this part of my mental health journey is over and while it was a crazy ride with ups and downs I know the journey is just getting started and I have many more facets to explore when it comes to me and my mental state. Summing everything up, we learned that my childhood has a lot to do with how I behave like an adult and that I have not only ADHD but also anxiety which lead me to want to learn more about mental health and get my degree. For this last part, I want to talk about where I am with all of this and where I want to go from here because I have a lot more to learn about myself and I know that I can’t stop now that I have started. My exploration into a world that I knew nothing about was one of my greatest decisions, and I can honestly say that I am glad that made that decision although sometimes I feel like it made the choice for me. As for now, I just want to sit with what I have learned about myself and use that as a way to make me a better person and really dive deep and work on what I need to, to feel half like a normal person.
Brittney MckinneyPublished 3 years ago in PsycheBroken Hearted
Hello world of Vocal Media. I'm not sure how this story will fit in, but here it goes. I should start off by saying that love is worth the pain or something positive. Something like love is worth it. I have believed that. I wanted to believe that. For me, it seems like love has been a sacrifice and distraction, to say the least. I'm 27 years old and for the longest time, I have actively sought love. A love that wouldn't falter. I'm still young, so of course, I have time to fall in love with someone who loves me back. I've been told that love is an action and not a feeling. I'm sure that is just coming from someone who doesn't recognize love staring him in the face.
Riana LovePublished 3 years ago in PsycheChild Abuse- There is a Solution
“According to the World Health Organization, as of June 2019, an estimated billion children in all areas of the world between the ages of two and seventeen experience physical, sexual, or emotional violence or neglect each year.” Child abuse comes in a broad range of actions or behavior in which an adult brings harm to a child or children. It can also be neglect in which the needs of a child, such as nutrition, hygiene, health, and education are not met by the parents or other caregivers. Child abuse has no place in a kid’s life. With clear eyes and straightforward actions, we can and must give children a brighter and more peaceful future.
THIS is for Me, Not You
I've tried to avoid doing this so many times. I try to stay busy doing something, Anything to not let my thoughts drift to you. Really I can't believe I’m writing this. I thought I was over it, over you. I have so many other things going on in my life that I push this issue on the back burner, but not anymore. I've never hurt like this before and can't ignore it anymore. I still love and miss you, the person that hurt me more than I've ever been hurt..Ever. I can't make sense of it..sounds absurd. I know I can't go back, but I also can't move completely forward..but maybe these suppressed feelings are keeping me from doing just that. You can't help who you love. People ask me all the time..Really..him? Yea..him..because once upon a time you were my best friend, my everything. I quickly found out you had a very evil side. I've been. through, seen, and heard things that will haunt my memories forever. I honestly Never knew that kind of evil existed. But for some reason..i would force myself to remember the good, because as Crazy as it sounds...how do I even put this..it was the best and worst relationship I've ever been in. I remember we were inseparable..the whole relationship..in the beginning because we couldnt get enough of each other, and than it was because of your possessive ways. I felt so loved at first and feelings id never had before. I opened up to you about traumatic experiences from my past and you told me horrible stories of your childhood that made me angry at a person that's no longer living..i never even knew. I just don't understand..you went from brushing my hair and painting my nails and pampering me to hurting me..in every way. I lost so much of myself making sure you were satisfied to just being physically, verbally, and emotionally abused. The first time you ever hit me was Valentines day..our first one together..what a nice way to remember. Afterwards you cried. Here I am with the beginnings of a black eye but I'm consoling you because..its not your fault..thats all you knew growing up. And..that became the pattern. You'd even give me pointers on how to cover my many many black eyes and told me once.." my mom could cover hers where you couldnt tell at all" How sad I thought, how that was just a normal thing for you..and there again..i told myself.."Ill fix him and show him how to love. I tried so hard and at times I felt you did too, but unfortunately there was no uprooting that seed you had planted at an early age. And of course it just got worse. I gave up once. You were hitting me in the temple repeatedly and as I was going in and out of consciousness i just accepted my fate, but you always seemed to know just how far to take it and stop right before there was no turning back. I remember that day I just laid there and wanted you to succeed. I wanted my life to end. I mean what was my purpose..i lost everything..my family, my boys, myself because I always chose you. In some sick way i felt like I needed you, but after all that was the plan huh..isolate me from everyone and everything so id always need you and never leave. I'm ashamed of myself..how could I be so blind and naive? I used to get compliments from everyone on my spark and personality and how I could make anyone laugh and than just like that diminished to a shell of myself. Well, I'm slowly getting that girl back..but it's a process. People that knew me before sometimes ask.."why are you so quiet?..or loosen up..im trying and Will overcome this. I still have to remind myself..its ok to relax..hes not here analyzing your every move anymore. The real kicker here is we both had an abusive childhood. Your the way you are, because you watched your father and I'm how I am, because I also watched my (step)father. All about perspective. There comes a point in life where we can’t blame our past and misfortunes on our present. Its Always been about You, but not this time! I’m forgiving you, but it’s for me..not you! I finally realized if I keep letting this define me, that your still controlling me and it’s time I heal and embrace life again. Why should I keep punishing myself? Even after all the hell you've put me through..i will still always love you, but Finally realized I love myself more.
Rachel ErinPublished 3 years ago in Psyche