I Feel Powerless

Rough morning, already wake up to my husband calling me I was happy about that. I know it has nothing to do with me per say. I wish there were laws with countries that protected others. Unfortunately, that's not how the world works. My toxic mother-in-law has crossed the line many times. Involving me and my husband, I never had a choice the way she fights is like a cobra with psychological warfare. I never know when she will strike, I wish I had a cigarette this morning. She has stolen my husband's money, she has stole what little found he has to find my nephew instead of walking her fucking lazy ass to the story because taking my husband's food is more I don't know demented. I don't have a choice it's not like my mother no Petra Aurelien is relentless. There are rats in the house, garbage around the outside and food set in the open. I wish my husband would just report her to the cops and she would be sent to Jail and my father in law walks around the house in front of my husband traumatizing him further he is naked. When I was there thankfully, he never did that, but there attitudes have changed to show there true colours. What's worse is I've not seen my husband in a year and I get to witness all this shit and not have a say on my husband's safety. Do you know how it feels I can't do anything about this. I'm tired of seeing him suffer no one deserves this. With each passing day, my husband sinks deeper into depression and the only thing protecting him is God. My worst fear is what if these people take things to far and he can't take it no more and tries to take his own life. I want justice for everything they did to him thus far I want justice so bad I crave it. I will not lose my husband anymore; I wish there was a way to report these crimes even though I'm all the way here.

My husband and I we always used to have romantic showers together. Giggling and splashing each other, because our marriage is polar opposite to everyone in that house. My mother-in-law was creepy watching us shower, and once my father-in-law done the same thing to us. I screamed go away, I wanted to throw a rock at her head, but I paled instead feeling powerless. I put on many facades with Petra and Terry but in truth I hate them. I hate my Toxic Narcissistic mother-in-law for what she has put my husband through. What do I do ? There has to be something I can do to put an end to this abuse my husband has gone through all his life. To save my husband from all this before things to go far even though he is in Saint Lucia, and I'm in Cleveland waiting for this fucking green card there has to be something I can do about this. I feel defeated right now, and lost he is my husband and best friend, and I can't protect him. Can you help tell me what I can do?

It hurts so much when I have no power to help my husband, he said he had no power to help me. For the loss of words I feel right now I feel like why does fucking society have to tell us men need to be strong, independent, and be providers. Whoever made these people made up these rules of society is very demented, and need to get a reality check.

I have put up with a lot from Petra my only regret is not recording shit and having her sent to jail for emotionally abusing my husband, and me taking her shit instead of him.

What makes things even more difficult I walked away from my abusive family, and I have to deal with a new more toxic family. Apart from my husband who is nothing like them.

Because of my husband's stress level and hurt feelings he takes out his hurt and pain on me. I know he was stressing and anxious so I tried sending him something that helps me.

I told him it helps with my anxiety and stress maybe it would help you.

He bluntly said and it was like knifes being stabbed into my heart, that does nothing for me.

It's not my fault I try and try, and just because Petra is a fucking toxic narcissistic bitch with no life but to hurt my husband and myself I have to pay for it.

I have been through what would break most people, and my husband has been through worse.

What's even worse this toxic woman if it was me alone I would have had her arrested mercilessly. But unfortunately I have no power to do this.

I've been trying to help my husband all day with no luck. I've come to the conclusion he doesn't want my help. To only worry about myself control what I can do. I think for me that's the hardest thing to do.

When I heard him say this to me, I wanted to gasp,

We were texting:

S: last thing I wanna do is argue with u

E: say what you want

E: I got nothing to say and I don't appreciate being misunderstood

S: Ugh

S: I never misunderstood u

S: What a great freaking day

I love my husband but when he gets like this I just don't know what to do. He is a typical man when he gets this. When I have really good intentions when he angry with the world he wants to be left alone. When he hurts my feelings I become withdrawn from life, I write or clean, I try to control what I can do. I never thought I would ever know another person who is worse then the Old Man or my mother but Petra has indeed surpassed my grandfather, and my mother. I think I might right the ultimate toxic narcissistic sociopathic profile on my mother in-law as a way of coping through all this.