I Am An Old Woman

Yes, lots of hair! Then I remember that the worst thing in my life when I was younger was my new perm! I hated how it took days and sometimes weeks to be able to work with it. Today, my hair is thinning, and the worst thing in my life is the predicted 30 mph wind for today. I cover the thinning parts the best way I can, and then the wind totally messes with it.

When that is the worst thing in my life, I am doing pretty well, I've been told. I have thought that ever since. Just writing this sounds so self-centered! I think I have big brown eyes and nice brown skin. I don't. My eyes are not as big as they used to be. As I've aged, I've noticed the changes.

These changes, I don't allow myself to think about. The boots in the picture above, I have. I just don't wear anything with much of a heel anymore. It could throw me off balance.

I'm old! Then I think, well, what's the alternative? I prefer to stay alive for some time yet. So, I then I can leave the above thoughts alone. It is tough when you feel like and perhaps act like you are 20 years younger than you are.

This week I trained with a co-trainer who is 10 years older than me. I asked the audience to be patient with us, the oldest in the room. Being the oldest in the room is happening more and more for me. Or maybe I am just more aware of that fact.

The hotel we stayed at was noisy, and I didn't sleep well. I came home and slept for over eight hours. One morning there was a fire drill at the hotel, early one morning. I was already awake, but thought I might get back to sleep.

People pounding on someone's door and being loud in the hallway at two in the morning, another night. I then couldn't get back to sleep for two hours. That really does affect my mood. I told my co-trainer I really get those elderly curmudgeons.

We went to pick out some blankets for a blanket ceremony together and complained and laughed all the way there and back. I said, I can't mess with my sleep, or this is what happens. I get and stay negative. Good thing we recognize it she said.

We loved laughing together about the whole subject! I'm so glad we know how to have fun. We had a couple of conflicts during the presentation. No one knew but us, however. It happened on break. They passed quickly. We have been training together for many years. It happens.

We have two more trainings coming up. We will fix our conflicts before the next training. It wasn't with the material, it was with who is covering what. We have done training together for long enough to know we need to review our presentation before doing it. But we chose not to, and we did need to.

Aging isn't for the weak

I will work as long as I can

It is something I do seek

I will do whatever, man

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I will keep my attitude

I have so much good in life

And remember gratitude

In life, stay away from strife

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Do the very best with me

To take care of my health

It is always so easy to see

Working is not about wealth

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I am aging, accept it

I don't have to like the shit!

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Authors note: Okay, my ending probably isn't the right ending, but it rhymes! And maybe it is the right ending! See how you feel in your seventies!

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