Being a first-time mom in a working-class

Being a first-time mom in a working-class has its challenges as well as its own ups and downs, one of them as the primary issue is the lack of sleep because I am caring for another being under the age of one. I have a beautiful baby girl who was born premature but is as healthy as a horse. She will be one year old soon. She is my firstborn, and let’s say I don’t have a clue what the hell I am doing, so I am so thankful my mom is helping me when I don’t have a clue what to do.

Other issues about being a first-time mom are:

• Money

- Diapers are essential; yeah, babies pee and crap a lot…damn!

- Food for babies, in the beginning, breast milk is worth making, but if it is difficult for you, thank goodness for formula, it is expensive, so making a budget is a must. But when the baby reaches six months, that’s when you need to start introducing solid food, like fruits and veggies.

- No paid Maternity leave: I was a contract worker and would get very little money.

• Not being able to do the things I used to do.

- Having freedom has its limits as well as its moments. Mostly, I feel like the only time I have some space is when my babies are asleep or when I'm in the bathroom.

- I try to spend as much time as possible alone when I can; I love my daughter with all my heart, but having some me time is quite nice.

- I am a writer, so I write when I get a chance

- I love to play games on my phone

- a side gig I can do quickly or whenever I possibly can.

- I haven't been able to go back to work for two reasons one my baby is too small to be left at a daycare, and they are costly. The other reason for my eyesight thanks to the preeclampsia I had while I was pregnant with my daughter.

• health side effects.

- my vision got so blurry that I suffered from cataracts,s which surprised my doctor because I was told I was much too young to have Cataracs; usually, adults have them at age 50 or 60. I'm only 41 at the moment, but thankfully I was able to get my eyes fixed, and I should be going back to work.

- Lack of exercise, I will not say it is not my fault I gained weight. It was the pregnancy. But, seriously, I am not happy to admit it, but it is 100% my fault; I know I need to make time to lose the unwanted fat.

I am getting back on track with life.

One of the upsides of having a baby is seeing a piece of yourself in that little human being. My daughter has helped me with my anxiety as well as my panic attacks. It's almost like I hug her and right away. She knows what to do. She knows how to calm me down. I remember when I was pregnant with her, and I started having self-doubts, and it was almost like I could hear her voice saying.

“you are wrong. You are not nothing; you are my mom, and you are special. You are light in the darkness. You are a phoenix about to burst into flames and show everyone what my mommy can do.”

My daughter is a blessing, and I couldn't be prouder to say I am her mom. I like to think of my little girl as my muse, my writing has improved, and I get urged to start doing graphic design again.

She has a unique personality, and I look forward to the many years to come while being at her side.