Staring down at my shimmering baby blue dress, I look up to see the face of the woman that you will be marrying today. I cannot help but swallow back the lump of bitterness that has formed in my mouth.
Eye don't know if anyone will ever KNOW how hard it has been to be this soft-hearted. But until the end of MY days Eye will do my best to show by example how much WORK Eye have done within these high walls by breaking them down to reveal a golden heART with an infinite source of unconditional love to give myself and everyone else freely, as there IS no limit to how much WE can create, when it IS done purely with the BEST of intentions because you knowingly know, it IS for the greater good, of ALL of existence.
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I said that under one of the three shells on this table
Leo and Scorpio share good vibes as the two signs tend to balance one another. Besides, both are strongly influenced by the Sun and the Moon. Both Scorpio and Leo are fixed signs, and this, too, makes them compatible.
It was a new day at the park today and the sun was hardly peeking out on the horizon. Landon's alarm went off on his phone and he rolled I've to turn it off, only to accidentally knock it off the night stand.
For two years I lived in hell. Why I stayed as long as I did, I still cannot really figure it out. I have reasons and explanations I suppose, but none that are good enough to really explain why I stayed. The biggest one was I just kept hoping and praying that things would get better and things would change that he would change, but he never did. It started out just like so many relationships like these do. He put on an act. He lied and manipulated me into believing he was someone he was not. He said he had a job and a car but did not. He hid the fact that he used meth from me for months and months. He even came over to my mom’s house to help us decorate the house for Christmas. I would get messages that were supposed to be for someone else that were “accidently” sent to me. They were messages to his ex talking about paying for his 2 little boys’ daycare costs which he did not pay for (they did not even go to daycare) or to his friend about picking him up for work, but he did not have a job. He sent me these messages to make me think he did these things to make me think he was someone he was not. One night, I would not do something he wanted me to do so he told me that he had been to the doctor and that he had a blood disease and only had 6 months to live. He was crying and everything when he told me, really making me believe this was real to make me feel sorry for him and manipulate me into doing what he wanted. He did not take care of his boys at all. When they would come over for the weekend, I would take care of them. I would wake up with them in the morning, feed them, play with them, bathe them, and put them to bed, while he slept all day or worried about finding his drugs. As our relationship continued, I began to realize all the lies he told me, but I was too far in. I was in love with him for some reason and I did not want to admit to my family that they were right all along, and I was wrong. So, I just let it go and moved on. It became easy to pretend I did not see and ignore all the bad going on, the drugs and the fact that I was losing so much weight because we never had any money for food. We began fighting a lot and they were bad. He would scream at me and everything was my fault. He would call me fat, ugly, stupid, lazy. Then afterwards he would always come crawling back saying how sorry he was, that it will never happen again, and told me how much he loved me, and I would cave every time. I would forgive him and for a little while things would be good again.
Have you ever wondered what love is? Was there ever a time when someone told you they loved you in one breath and hurt you in the very next? Did you ever say to yourself, “If that is what love is I don’t want it”? Well Beloved, welcome to the club. I think we have all wondered at some time or another if what we felt, saw, and heard was love. How we perceive love has a significant impact on how we see ourselves and each other. Love for many of us has been a phenomenal experience while for others it has been a devastating experience. The question for all of us is, how have our love experiences, shaped who we are?
Have you ever wonder, who is your best suit in a long-lasting relationship?
