self-proclaimed cool girl and writer of stuff
Admit it, you feel like shit sometimes. It's not something you can control, really. However, you can control what you do when you're in a bad mood. I have a hard time with this, distracting myself when things get hard. Here are some things you can do when you're in a bad mood.
When I was growing up, I was told NO. No to drugs, for they are dangerous and can get you into a lot of trouble. Weed was a drug. When I was young, I was at a party where a scary situation happened that involved marijuana. I was sleeping over in a house where someone was caught smoking a joint, and someone else was very much not okay with it, and they freaked out, resulting in lots of yelling. To my young ears, this fight was scary. I just remember yelling and having to leave. That's my first experience with cannabis.
Surprising or not surprising - I didn't spend a lot of time at the beach when I was growing up. Should be surprising, considering I grew up in a town that is known for its beach. Longest freshwater beach or something like that, big open bay to swim in, should be paradise.
I hate money. Mostly, because I hate the fact that I have none. I'm constantly struggling for money, living "paycheck-to-paycheck", and feeling like I'm going nowhere in life. I try to save money, but it just seems so difficult.
One of the moves that children start out with, as soon as they're able to, is holding a crayon. As soon as they can do that, they start to draw. Being creative and making art is a human impulse. Artists are the ones who tell the truth, which is often why in hard times, they can be seen as a threat and are the first to be censored. But creating art heals the mind, spirit, and body.
Why aren't you where you want to be in life? Did you not try hard enough? Did something go wrong? What causes you to feel like you're not moving forward, no matter how hard and fast you push?
It has taken me a long time to find a career that I believe I'll love for the rest of my life. Or at least, I hope that I love for the rest of my life. At the age of 24, I've already enrolled in two different programs in two different schools in two different towns. I didn't finish either degree. Something always happened to prevent me from finishing, and then when it was time for me to go back, I realized that what I was doing was not what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. Maybe it was divine intervention, saving me from being stuck in a career that I didn't love.
If you're anything like me, you've been reflecting a lot lately. You've been thinking about health - how you practice physical and mental health in your home, workplace, and every day life. You've been thinking about race - how your skin colour can contribute to something much bigger than you realize. You've been thinking a lot - how you can make a change as the world seems to go more downhill every day.