Dear stranger,

Love is supposed to be easy and care free. Its supposed to make you happy and feel good. It's there to warm your heart and to show you how much you mean to a person. Love is easy to say, it numbs the pain and helps people heal when they've been broken. Anyone can say they love you and majority of the time it makes you feel better. But there are times where people use love as an excuse and then it no longer feels good, then it becomes hurt. Which is why people like me are terrified of love because we associate it with pain.

There's so many cliches in the world about relationships and how they are,how they should be and what to expect,I've heard so many of them that they just go in one ear and out the other,the one that drives me crazy is the ride or die one, and the harlequin and joker concept of a relationship. It's laughable. Everyone expects that their relationship will be this whole piece almost like a fruit,complete,unblemished,well rounded,when in actual fact its more like a kit car.After years and years of neglect and abuse at the age of 25 I figured I was never going to find anyone that would want me for me. I had a lot of emotional and mental baggage and felt completely broken. I didn't want someone that was going to put me back together for me to break when they walked away, I wanted someone that would stand beside me while I built myself back up and felt more like a person again.

"God, he has such a beautiful face,” I thought as I laid there next to him. It’s funny to me how someone so destructive can make me so comfortable. Not funny in a ‘haha’ way but in an ironic way. This boy has all the control in this situation. I know he can hurt me in many ways but I'm so calm when I’m with him and not scared in the slightest. We met a few years ago on Tinder. When I saw his pictures, I was done. I couldn’t believe how perfect he seemed to be (for me) and like most boys I set my sights on, I had to have him. Our communicating was immediate but so was my disappointment. He was cute and funny but also shallow and overly direct. More than I was bargaining for at the time but I knew how to work around that. I probably should’ve stopped talking to him altogether but I never back away from a challenge. He talked to me about how he liked sex, gambling, pizza… and that was about it. We didn't speak much after that night.

It was during a one-week ski trip to the Alps with my class, that a single goodbye with a smile as Dalena walked out of the door, that made my heart drop. Never to remain in the same spot again. We were in the mild winter of 2026 and we all took the high-speed train from Brussels with my senior class, knowing that this is maybe the last time that the whole gang would see each other again. Emotions were high and we loved each moment of it because we all knew where each of us were going, some to University, but Dalena decided to work as a currency expert and freelance writer for a year while she thought about higher education. She was good enough in all of her interests to make a living out any of them. About her, all I could do was ask myself, was it her calm demeanor, her curly hair or the fact that she liked Hi-Riz, my favorite band, but I couldn’t figure out why I was crazy about her. As always, I thought – there was no chance she could like a regular guy like me.

Trust me, I don’t love you. I could but I don’t. I feel things… sometimes… but most of the time, I feel nothing. I’ve been existing in a more causal state of mind and although some may call my actions immature or loose, I call it a defense mechanism and it’s been working for me up to this point.

I know first hand, how hard it is to maintain important relationships while also juggling full time work or schooling. The friends we make as kids that we fall in love with platonic or not; We think they will last forever. But as we grow up we start slowly drifting apart. Then you become a 20 something workaholic who fantasies about fancy trips to Europe, skydiving and all the adventures you can fathom. Only to realize that you have no one to share those experiences with. the girls you would spend countless weeks with during the summer, planning your lives together no longer talk to you. How lonely that feeling can be. Knowing that in this whole world, the three people you loved the most seem to no longer love you. And even now, with social media connecting billions of people around the world instantly, It doesn't fill that void. A Person through a screen doesn't fill that desire to love and be loved. It does not generate, that deep feeling of connection with people that is essential to survive on a regular day. Now throw this crazy Corona virus pandemic into the mix. People are running around like headless chickens. Buying all the toilet paper and hand sanitizer like its going to save them from the heavyhearted feeling of total isolation.

It was a little over a year of being married that Gary and Barbara had a ground shaking conversation. At the center of the matter was something so trivial, as he later looked back on it that it should have made less effect in their lives. There was Gary early morning, after morning getting ready, driving to work, standing all day at that cashier's desk, wondering what his future employment would be. The times were dangerous, and he narrowly escaped being sent out to war.

Once upon a time, there was a girl who was neglected.

If I were to double check sc, I’m pretty sure it would say 31 or 32 weeks since he read the last message I sent him. It’s been over a year since our last conversation. It’s not saved, of course, but I’m sure it would read somewhere along the lines of me telling him that I was thinking of him, that I hoped he was doing well, and that I hoped his new life set his soul on fire. I truly meant it. He had always been so special to me, in a very unique way.

Now a days, its seems that due to some unnecessary things our relationship becomes weaker and we also can do nothing to these kind of problems because to handle someone’s mind is not in our hand so the vedic astrologer generated the vashikaran. But this can be implemented in various ways like pati ka vashikaran or you can also get the vashikaran for your husband by Sindur se apne pati ka vashikaran .

If you had a magic wand would you change your world? Would you heal your eyes to see? Would you heal your ears to hear? What wondrous beauties would lurk behind dark corners? Shadows pulling back further and further to reveal a green and purple feeling landscape that flows through the air to guide you. Would you change them? Would you change the way they make you feel? Seeing happy faces glow and sparkle in the moment of your arrival. Feeling nothing but a tingling warmth every time. What kind of world would it be darling? Skies would display a fractal rainbow that seems to be different in every sense of the word with each glance. Would you make your heart bigger? Eyes fill with sapphire tears at the sight of anything enchanting, which is everything. Dancing on soul shapes and whirling through a romantic song in the night under the moon would be your life. Nothing would hurt, would it? Each pin prick furled and sealed with ecstasy. How would you learn your lessons my dear? How would you know what good is without the torture? Can this be wished upon and manifested in to a true life’s being? Its there beauty in it all? Is there beauty in the easy beauty? Can there be?