Peace... I just want peace!
But where and what is peace? Is it in the chaos of my house filled with my children's laughter? Is it in the quiet moments where I sit with my cat while daydreaming of another time and place?
I lay down every night
hoping beyond hope
that the night spirits
have somehow lessened
That they have somehow
Why do people hurt the people they claim to care about? Why is it so easy to throw someone they claim to care about to the side when things get hard? How is it so easy to walk away, and act like they never knew this person they said they cared about? How is it so easy to make up lies about someone they used to care about so others look at this person differently? Why in the process of growing tired of someone is it the goal to destroy the person before they say they are officially done with them? The answers to these I do not know. I wish there was a way for all of us to know the answers we seek after this happens. But then again do we really want to know why that person was that cruel, that evil to us? Do we really want to know how they found it that easy to hurt another person? How we missed this about them? How we never saw it in this person? I only know the aftermath of what these actions can do to someone. These actions and so many more like them destroy a person. These actions rip a person apart on the inside like a pack of wild dogs in a feeding frenzy.
I sit in my lonely room wanting to be numb from the pain.
I want to be able to not look for him on every platform we shared.