French enthusiast, non-binary trans person, artist, writer, lover of animals, space, and the right for every living thing to experience their existence authentically.
Pronouns: they/them (English) iel (French)
"I Do" Thrift
As a plus size person, who is very particular in what I wear, trying to find clothing in a thrift store is next to impossible. So much so, that I rarely go in them anymore, and usually only will if I’m looking for furniture or something cheap for my home. Because, like many young Americans, I am not far above the poverty line- if I’m even at it. As such, I don’t really have the money to spend on brand new items, or anything at all really.
The Difference of a Year
*Content Warning: talk of addiction, loss* Today, April 9, 2021, marks one year. One year since my grandmother died. One year since I relapsed. One year clean. One year of changes and progress and celebrations and loss and countless other events. One year of difference.
Whispers of Relapse
* Another night- Another fight- Between Me, Myself, and I. I have the reason; I have the right; I can't escape this Plight.
Mourning the Unknown
We all lose the Could Have, Should Have, Would Have Beens. We all hold onto the What Ifs and the If Onlys. We all have people, places, memories, experiences that were taken from us, before we ever got to know what they would bring to our lives. And, we all grieve these losses.
Visibility- It's Free!
Today, March 31, is International Transgender Day of Visibility. For those who are unaware, someone who is transgender is a person who doesn't identify with the gender that was determined by their genitalia at birth. The term transgender also includes a few different subsections, with various, more specific, identities and labels. For starters, there are those who still consider themselves to be on the gender binary: female to male (FTM), or male to female (MTF) transgender. But, where one can still be on the binary, there are others who don't quite relate. Those who don't fit into this strict rule of binary- male or female- are non-binary. This label is inclusive of every other gender identity, such as genderfluid, genderqueer, bigender, agender/nongender, demiboy/demigirl, etc.
To the Woman
To the woman who Smiles at the man Who makes the snide remark As you walk down past The street that takes you To work which pays your bills
Thank you for Surviving
It wasn't until somewhat recently that I noticed how important a specific person was to me. This person, who certainly presented as a strong woman to most, always seemed pretty weak and useless to me. Looking back on all the years I've known this individual, for the life of me I can't figure out why those thoughts formed, let alone why they stuck so vividly and adamantly in my brain.
Pissing my Way to the Top
I've always been an overly anxious person. So much so that until relatively recently, I haven't been able to ask for any sort of help, or basic needs questions if I felt that I would be a burden in doing so. Or if it were awkward. Or I just... didn't know how to handle the situation.