April Liao
Bio
Greetings and salutations ,
I am April I’m 31 years old , and I have a wide array of interests .
Stories (30/0)
Hope
Hope a four letter word that brings a symbolism of life . A dream and a life that is subsided , but not forgiven. A quiet walk to the park and seeing a homeless man eating, or like seeing a toddler holding their mom’s hand fervently. Squeezing the palm until no more warmth in the grip . Making that hand the child’s own. A dog hoping for attention from its owner. Whether it’s belly rubs, or a hug slightly consoling it’s heart after a bad dream. That pain covered with a bandaid. That heart covered with numbness only to being a new . Slowly healing slowly feeling the weight of your shoulders lessen . The cold cruel ambience that you once were enveloped in slowly fading . The sun comes out the joy prospers and hope wasn’t lost after all . Happy valentines and beautiful love slowly building a calming kind environment with peace and hope. Flowers cascading down the halls and flowing from the ceiling . A rebirth of you and all that you know. A calling to change the world . A difference in the life you think you will lead. Stepping outside of the box . Thriving and loving to the best of your ability .
By April Liao2 years ago in Motivation
My first love
I was 20 and still in Illinois . Drowning through melancholy days and wanting a deep relationship. Everyday I prayed to have someone who would save me . I pictured a knight on horse, and we would walk through a field of flowers singing once upon a dream. When I was a kid, I always wished I’d be like Harry Potter, and someone would take me to hogwarts. I have always had a hard time fufilled. My more spiritual nature has always made me know there was more to life . I always knew there was something more for me to be doing. And so I would wait . My first crush was actually jet li growing up. So when i went to a Christmas party with my cousin I met my first husband . He looked just like jet li. He was a big shouldered male. And from the moment I saw him he was beautiful. I felt a feeling of calm and that’s what I always wanted . A feeling of calm a emotionally stable household . And after six months of talking we got married and did everything together . It was like they were my best friend . We took pictures , we put on funny masks, and were super happy . I had just went through a breakup before the party so I was still mourning that . But I was excited. We moved to california after a while and went to Disney and he said we could have a kid . It was because I was gazing at some children in front of me . Kids are so precious I really just think they are so sweet . Then after California we went back to Illinois and ended up living closer to Chicago . And after that we went to massage school . My next love is my son and I met him in august of 2021. I was having a csection. So when he came out and was crying I was so excited . I said what does he look like . And the doctor said your husband. That was one of the best moments of my life I love him so much from birth . It was really hard to go through post partum but I learned . I read books on parenting . I knew I wanted to pick the best options for what my parents lacked I wanted to do the opposite . And people say there is no manual for parenting it’s not true . There are so many books and I picked positive parenting . It worked really well . Then our marriage was going awful . It got worse and worse and worse . He always said I’d learn from what I did . That made me wonder why then do you keep getting worse. Why not learn from it . I have more experiences but this is the longest relationship I have . And this is a article based on love which is a commitment . Sure love is a feeling too love feels like a magnet. Love feels like your on the moon floating and orbiting around the stars . I had my best kiss with my ex husband after we were already over and moved on. We were twirling together it reminded me of being in orbit a mixing of blue and green energy. And we were floating . It felt in sync it felt happy and I was perplexed at why I didn’t get that our whole marriage . I really did care and I miss them still today . But openness and letting guards down were huge issues with him. So it always made me feel like I wasn’t for him . Love is so complicated . Love is feeling vibes through the phone . Love is being at a distance and still feeling eachothers heart calling.
By April Liao2 years ago in Marriage
Positive vibes
Moving at a thousand miles . No time to slow down all I want is to rest in my home . Secluded from outside because when I go out Im drained . My energy from full to depleated but a part of my path is human touch. Irony at it’s finest a introvert massaging clients . Feeling more alive when I do I feel my best helping others and I hope you do too. The outside world can be cold if you think it is . It can also be warm if you want it to be our minds create our reality. Brushing elbows with abundance and bringing rainbows into life . I want everyone to believe in unicorns and have a magical life. No rose colored glasses for what you know is real . If you want to connect with mermaids you can . Only the pure of heart can connect to these things . So make sure to do your yoga today . Listening to music to float through life . With my head in the clouds I know my dreams will be alright. I don’t want to make choices I just like living life . Don’t micromanage the things I love or I can’t have fun . People are meant to be free and live in love and peace . People who are mean don’t grow and throw their issues onto you and me. Purposes bringing up old trauma just to make me cry . I miss the person who abused me I hope he is alright . Accountability is important but I hope your safe as well. My heart will never forget you I’m sorry you weren’t well. Writing about the past I’m sure will help me forget . Avoiding emotions only to be facing them all at one time . Remember people do your best to make sure you cry . Don’t let yourself mask your pain , or let people give you a timeline to heal . Your pain is only yours only you know what’s real . Stay true to your heart and don’t let others tell you who you are. I hope he’s getting better and will soon be able to see his son. I miss having a family and all the things we had . I especially miss my cats nano, Quincy Jones, and jimbo. I miss my dogs too but thinking of it makes me cry . All I can think of is the new girl and Harry Potter time. People still don’t realize that I was always great full. I was the one who tried to get him on a spiritual path and trying to get him into a positive mindset . But no one knows that . Time for growth and moving forward I hope someday our paths cross again . But I don’t know if now is it another time and maybe in another life. I hope it’s not that long . But it’s ok me and Ethan are both strong .
By April Liao2 years ago in Poets
Someday
Each day when I think of the past and how I use to stay. When I see old pictures filled with old emotions and glare . I think of the times we shared and how at one time we were happy. Then you became cold and calloused . You continued to suck out my joy with every kiss . You continued to crush my heart with every cold word . My heart became a fortress . Calm in the cycling chaos of your hurricane. Exhausted by the mere thought of getting up . But yet when I see you there’s a smile . When you look at me there is hearts in my eyes . How could you hurt us like you do when we had nothing but love in our hearts for you . With my heart freezing over I lost my life . I Became someone else . Someone I’m not very fond of . I became you and I couldn’t do it anymore . All the yelling the crying and qualms . All the pain regret hard times and malice . All the crooked smirks from you . When you realized I’m your fool . Your puppy your pet with no hope yet. I graciously leave and move . I don’t have time for you . I will no longer be bound by the chains of you . I will only move forward and think of the fond times . If we reconnect or if we don’t . My love is from another star and he always wanted to home . Never realizing the home he has inside my heart, nor the home he had in his sons . Always bitter and wanting a ear . Never realizing his ear was always here . Calm and patience always win I’m sorry my love, someday soon for I know our paths always cross because our stars are close . Like the river and the oceans we flow together . Like fire and air we ignite eachother . No more lies and no more hurt I hope one day you’ll not be free of me . Good luck on your path and good luck in your life . You make my heart smile and I think of you for life . Your my Jurassic park ride and watching et when it’s late. Your my breezy balcony on a warm day . Your the New York to my pizza every possible way . Your the coffee to my cookie and the macaroni to my cheese . I’ll never forget you and I know you won’t forget me . Love and growth and times apart we always end up together . You and I smile so bright under the moonlight together . Love of mine I love you from the Sagittarius to the deepest galaxy. You bring me closer to living. Sharing songs and late night taco parties we will have the best life ever just you Ethan and me . God bless you all your life someday will be the time . And all will be fine . I’m proud of your growth eventhough I get upset . My dear love someday you’ll bring me closer to the clouds . We will sit upon them together listening to our songs . We will be happy and gracious and learn about life . We will love and care for eachother until we only bring life . Peace, happiness , comfort and joy all the best things we bring out to eachother . Warmth sparks and roller coaster rides is how we feel about eachother . Pumpkin lattes in the fall and beautiful leaves you bring all the best things to me . My dearest I’ll always love you . You’ll always have a space in my heart and you will always be my first love. I’ll always remember the journeys we took.
By April Liao2 years ago in Humans
Ase
Water rushing on all sides. The cooling affects of god and the divine mother running through my soul. Love subsiding hate with realizations . A clear mind a clear conscious and a new beginning . Abundance all around especially when you realize and radiate from inside . Abundance was never searched for it was there waiting . Flowing to the growth from root to tip and tip to flower. The most beautiful things need no words. From sky to core . Unlocking the vast multidimension and cultivating not just of stars and clusters but of you and your being. Unlocking your mind to really see and know and to finally be free. Unlocking the so you can be kind and true.
By April Liao2 years ago in Longevity
How I would love to spend my restful time
Everyone’s ideals of resting are different . How to have a rest induced new year is ,depending on your personality , very different among people. My top ways to feel rested are yoga, drinking coffee, chatting with my kind wonderful friends, going places I enjoy , learning new things ; cleaning to keep my peace , and spending time with my son. There are many different kinds of yoga some that give you energy , some that restore your homeostasis, and others that grow you spiritually. My favorite yogas to put my mind and spirit at ease are kundalini, yin , and restorative yogas. There is something about feeling the stretch in your body, the muscles relaxing , and then your spirit soar . Doing yoga, not only relaxes you to help you get a deeper and more profound sleep ,it also helps you to be more rested through the day and a more happy person in your day to day life. Balancing out the different yogas is so important to know as one yoga might make you heal so you can be moody . Balancing out the healing with a more mindful practice can help you see everyday situations differently . My top rested day would maybe be more busy than other peoples because I do like to accomplish things and I do enjoy being out and about exploring. Saying good morning to the people I love is a very reassuring way to feel better in your day , having day to day communications with people you love not only makes the world happier , but also encourages you and makes you feel like you can accomplish anything . Then I would go with Ethan and get a delicious hot coffee for me and a iced peace green tea for him. Smelling all the aromas in the air and the kind barista making your beverage the way enjoy makes for a good start to any restful day because you are doing good things you enjoy . Then we will assume since this is a article I can make my day as big as I’d like . Then we would take a Uber to Universal and stay onsite at the beautiful Lowe’s royal pacific . We’d go to universal have so much fun. We’d be getting vegan doughnuts at voodoo doughnuts one with sprinkles for Ethan and one maple for me. because ky grandma would make them homemade so it creates a deep nostalgia and a comforting memory of her warmth . Just thinking of it today l, I can remember her and her glasses and aprons she’d always wear. Then we would go to islands of adventure first because Ethan and I love dr Seuss and the village of hogsmede. We’d ride all the rides and eat at the leaky cauldron. It would be so fun to recharge, doing the things I love and riding rides. Stepping into the Realm of magic and dinosaurs how could you go wrong. We’d spend a week at universal and a week at Disney . Getting ears for us both and having breakfast with Winnie the Pooh . I can’t wait to see all the vegan options and get to really enjoy everything . After when are done having a restful time cleaning to prepared for the days ahead would bring ease to the mind . And some form of control for my everyday life . I would then like to read something new about the universe or space something of my interests , and then have a long cuddle embracing my son . Smiling thinking of all the memories we just created . I just keep picturing it walking onto city walk season passes for both of us in hand and getting a Starbucks. Putting all out things we don’t want to lose in my Fanny pack or backpack and maybe get to enjoy a rainy day . Another way I love to unwind is to sit outside during the rain there is nothing more calming then a rainy day and a cup of earl gray . Slowly breathing in, the notes of lavender and bermagot . Sipping the hot tea while listening to peaceful music . On days where I’m very much needing space I put on headphones. Then it’s noted that I don’t want talked to that day . I am imagining in my head right now a walk in the park with Barney and the smell in the air the drizzle of the water when you walk in the door . It’s the best experience hearing I love you love me and crying while you hold your child feels very cathartic. And these are some of my top ways of restfully enjoying my day . Maybe wearing slippers with the person I love drinking cocoa and watching movies . There is always beauty in our memories and I’m excited for the new life me and my son will get to experience.
By April Liao2 years ago in Journal