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Water rushing on all sides. The cooling affects of god and the divine mother running through my soul. Love subsiding hate with realizations . A clear mind a clear conscious and a new beginning . Abundance all around especially when you realize and radiate from inside . Abundance was never searched for it was there waiting . Flowing to the growth from root to tip and tip to flower. The most beautiful things need no words. From sky to core . Unlocking the vast multidimension and cultivating not just of stars and clusters but of you and your being. Unlocking your mind to really see and know and to finally be free. Unlocking the so you can be kind and true.

I looked down as the third time I had pancakes this week every meal in a row . So tired and aching cold from being hungry and weak from needing fruit. A journey isn’t the easiest of things but it gives us what we need to learn . Oddly get back to who I was was the moment I sat down and gently talked about how I was tired of being someone else . Who was I anymore did I enjoy this person. So angry and glooming at the world through dark lenses. Missing the gentle kind heart that loved everyone and cared so much . The person who knew nothing was that big of a deal. I pondered and let go and said I can’t take being who I’m not anymore . I can’t handle being upset anymore and lashing out . Feeling out of control and trying so hard to fight to get it back when all I need was to simply be me . Daoism the art of letting things happen . Letting ideas come to you and letting yourself follow the flow of the universe .

Right at the moment of your unraveling and dismay a blessing occurred . So you walked with your son and finally got something different to eat . I kept thinking can I make it? Can I walk all this way when I’m hungry . I have no energy to walk and worked three days . And god said keep going and keep going so I kept walking . The whole walk was a struggle I wanted to cry . Then I ate for three days in a row that week . All blessings from god . All hope from life all something you could tangibly see . Finally I made it I got it . Finally it happened so you have the strength to crawl out of the hole and be strong to keep going . Daydreaming of vegan baozhi, and vegan dumplings , with a donatsu doughnut . Salivating at my dreams salivating at the life I’m working to create . A delicious vegan Thai tea rich in flavour and the vegan breakfast sandwich I had at Whole Foods before .

My stomach was hungry but my mind knew and my heart knew that it was all here and mine soon. Because I earned and deserved it my hope and my faith did not lead me astray and I made it . The days of universal daily outings and daily Disney going’s and travel and financial freedom are near . And all my heart can do is radiate the gratitude for what’s to come and what’s passed because now I don’t worry anymore . I have no need keep in my mind of dollar tree . Eventhough I really wanted their vegan spring rolls. Thinking of missing my mother in law and all the delicious soups and foods she would make for us daily. I cried I already missed her . But soon Ethan and I would make the creations again but vegan and in our own way. The lions head meatball soup and baos filled with pork cabbage and chive . I dream of the day that my rice cooker is full, a steamer is on my stove, and me and my son keep a part of that life alive. With a full heart and a full bank account , a warm hand to not only be financially free but to give and be kind to others. To create flourish and love and give everyone the same feelings my mother in law and my grandma bev gave to us . From twin flames and delicious warm food and comfy blankets I can’t wait to share more of my as I work to make my dreams come true.