My biggest thoughts as a child were mainly death. I don’t think that I ever talked about it with anyone. The times that I attempted to my mother was the type to say, “don’t speak things like that into existence.” My grandmother was always one to have these discussions with me if allowed but, her advice was always vague due to the disagreement with the conversation taking place against my mother’s wishes.
In the human race we must learn to come together as a total universe and form tribes globally (internationally) with love in our hearts. Our souls are all connected in different sorts of forms energetically in certain vibrations (low, high, higher self, and Source). This allow us to know and understand the soul tribes or friendships we form throughout our lives, even love relationships. Some people and relationships are meant to come say hi and bye, and others are meant to come for short seasons (temporarily) or a lifetime. Just think of the playground kids love, childhood friend love, or as the new times the boy next door crush , kind of love. Our world's or Earth's understanding of love and unconditional love goes deeper than we know, besides understanding that it all comes and start from within. Meaning you get, what you put out in the air (Universe) and the current situation is what you may face then or at any given moment. For instance, someone that did not recover from having hate for a parent who left them as a kid, did not get enough hugs, or affection. Someone who got abuse, taken advantage of at a very young age, or left to fend for themselves. Anyone that faced some type of toxic energy, even having identity crisis counts as to this as well. I am not a doctor yet, however these things lead to toxic relationships of co-dependency, no boundaries, lose of self, low self-esteem, loss of identity, low confidence, poverty mentality, victim, blame, and the list goes on.
The universe consists of the known planets, millions of stars, galaxies and hold the matter of space and time. It also holds another very important aspect: energy. Whilst people believe in God, people believe in coincidences and others unfortunately believe in nothing at all, I believe in the universe. I believe that the universe's energy is the sole planner to our lives. The gut feeling that you have, when you turn around and say "I knew it!" but you just can't prove that you knew it, that's all energy. There is no such thing as coincidences, everything DOES happen for a reason and when we die we turn into spirits. In this article, I will describe numerous factors all relating to the universe, its energy and why it's the path I choose to follow.
I think I am taking this lesson in life in a much more personal way than other lessons have hit me due to my past. In the past I suffered severe trauma that caused a diagnosis of C-PTSD with dissociation. I am currently going through a period where I am having to face the fact that this may not be a full diagnosis. I am being evaluated for DID or OSDD (dissociative identity disorder and otherwise specified dissociative disorder). Both of these are associated with early childhood trauma. As such the "emergence of my soul" is a thing I am going through on a daily basis as I become aware of different "alters" and the fusion or integration of those "alters" as I progress through the healing process.
All three cards this week are from the minor Arcana plus each is from a different suit. What all that tells me is that this will be a week of focusing on the things we have full say in the outcome and control of and that are happening in our immediate sphere. Appropriate since that’s what most of us are dealing with at the moment.
Thought I'll share a little of my philosophy, what has been learnt so far in my journey of life, my passion in learning and staying curious. Hope you don't find it too boring :)
Although contemporary sand mandalas are not created with the same exact ritual practices as the older mandalas, Tibetan sand mandalas are rooted in the same traditions as the mandalas on wall scrolls of previous generations. Both sets of mandalas are rooted in traditional Buddhist practice and have the same intended religious meaning, although the symbolic natures are different. As an example of this, I will be comparing The Kalachakra Mandala: Man and Cosmos scroll (Rubens Museum Exhibition) and The Kalachakra Mandala, otherwise known as The Wheel of Time Sand Mandala.