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Sometimes I Imagine my Unlikely Future with You and Watch it Become my History

or 'Jellybeans' a poem

By Teresa RentonPublished 2 months ago Updated 2 months ago 1 min read
Top Story - October 2023
Sometimes I Imagine my Unlikely Future with You and Watch it Become my History
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It happened one September day

I stole a bag of jellybeans

threaded them onto a necklace

sniffed each flavour … just for fun.

My counsellor said if you were a jellybean, what flavour

would you be?

I thought of daisies, buttercups, bluebells, borage—a wildflower garden

in your irises

hues like jellybeans blending bending to your will—

Me! I replied me flavour.

Because it's me you devour when I dream.

I recalled some sorry guy who rambled on about his life of tattered threads

until dawn.

He never called.

They never did.

I recalled how I fidgeted and pulled my too-short skirt to hide

my too-short legs

in that corner spot at every party

in the draughty seat at every bar

where I feigned nonchalance,

minted laughter from biology,

forged goblets from silver candy wrappers,

watched you and others



swap ice-cubes … mouth to mouth

melt into each other, … a body of bodies. Rainbows

formed from my neon sun-head and damned tears.

My future is my history

already lived … when I tasted those jellybeans

lolled them around my tongue

let them tingle

where I wanted you.

What happens now?

When you meddle with time

you mess with memory.

I wanted to remember having you, having us wrapped

in salty blankets,

warbling songs from 80s, 90s,

sharing sticky jellybeans.

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Teresa Renton

Inhaling life, exhaling stories, poetry, prose, flash or fusions. An imperfect perfectionist who writes and recycles words. I write because I love how it feels to make ink patterns & form words, like pictures, on a page.

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  • Zara Blume26 days ago

    I knew just from the title that I’d love this. We really were on the same wavelength when we wrote our poems, but your voice is one of a kind. Jellybeans conjure up innocence and childhood crushes, but this is sensually written from an adult perspective, and that reflects the timelessness of imagination you’re expressing here. The jellybeans are also an apt metaphor for something you want so much you can taste it. ‘What happens now? When you meddle with time you mess with memory’ Those lines alone could be an entire poem. You’ve made every word count here. 🤍

  • Celia in Underland2 months ago

    So intricate and beautifully done 🤍 The complexity of jellybeans in relation to strong emotion is masterfully navigated-Love this so much! And apoligies for not commenting /liking earlier!

  • I really enjoyed this and you do have another heart

  • Patrick Ifesemen2 months ago

    The beginning of the poem captures a sense of whimsy and playfulness. The act of stealing a bag of jellybeans and threading them onto a necklace adds an element of mischief to the narrative. The protagonist's curiosity in sniffing each flavor just for fun reveals a childlike joy in simple pleasures.

  • StoryholicFinds2 months ago

    Congratulations ❤️

  • Tammy Wakeford2 months ago

    Love this.

  • This was so good. Very intelligent prose

  • Michèle Nardelli2 months ago

    This is just wonderful, clever and beautifully written

  • Kavita Royal2 months ago

    nice work !!

  • Caroline Jane2 months ago

    Oh my. This is wonderful. My husband has a jellybean story. He was younger and upset one night and a stranher came up to him and said "don't worry kid, life is a bag of jellybeans. You just got to choose what flavour." He remembers and shares this story to this day. It helped him immeasurably. 🥰

  • Joe Patterson2 months ago

    Beautifully crafted. Congratulations on your top story.

  • Rakshit Shah2 months ago

    Lovely poetry, Your words paint a vivid tapestry of emotions, weaving the innocence of jellybeans with the complexity of human desires... Congrats for the top story!

  • Gerald Holmes2 months ago

    Congrats on a well deserved Top Story

  • Phil Flannery2 months ago

    Sadly wonderful. Congrats on Top Story

  • 🎉This poem gives me Happy feelings♥️😁💋✌️Congratulations on Your Top Story❗

  • Naveed2 months ago

    Congratulations on your Top Story,

  • Sara Frederick2 months ago

    Really lovely.

  • Kendall Defoe 2 months ago


  • Congratulations on your Top Story🎉

  • Cathy holmes2 months ago

    Oh my. This is fabulous. Well done. 👏

  • Paul Stewart2 months ago

    This is incredible...the whole damn thing was an experience...what I especially loved was clever it all was and complex but that the clever complexity didn't ruin the melancholic beauty of it all! Congrats on a thoroughly well deserved and remarkable Top Story!

  • Lamar Wiggins2 months ago

    The subtle playfulness mixed with desirable desires created a wonderful tone to your poem. Excellent work!

  • Donna Renee2 months ago

    🤯❤️😍… processing. Wow, Teresa, this is one of those poems where I know I’m still missing things but the things that I am getting are already melting my brain!! In a good way ❤️😍

  • Biprojit saha2 months ago

    Well done😀❤️💚💚😀💚😀❤️

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