I am a stay at home mom and love being home with her. At 29, I am a little bit broken and trying to find my way. Writing has been therapeutic for me. I hope you enjoy:)
Why Didn't You Love Me More?
Why didn't you love me more? It is a question that rattles in my brain daily. It wasn't that you were bad parents. I never felt like I was lacking, financially at least. There was something off, however. I don't think I realized it fully until I was a mother myself. Being a mother has given me such intense joy. It has also made me sad knowing I never felt that intensity from my own mother. It has taken until now, at 29, to realize how royally fucked parts of my family are.
My Alcoholic Husband
Here I am again. Sitting up and unable to fully relax. To sleep, that would be peace. I don't think I have slept fully in months. My husband is in the thick of his addiction. It feels worse than ever. Every day is the same. He works, drinks, then passes out. (Vomit optional) He must get his fix on the way home. I am pretty sure he drinks in his car before coming in.
I Can't Fix You
Relinquishing all hope that I can change you: that is difficult for me. I hope so much that one day you wake up and are you again. I love you, but the addict in you makes it so hard. Should love be this much work? Should a marriage be filled with this much resentment? The truth is, I don't know. The obvious answer would appear to be no, but is it different with an addict? It takes every bit of yourself not to leave, even when you feel you should. The question I can't get the answer to is, when should I give up?
When I Said #Me Too
It was two days ago that I scrolled through my Facebook feed. I spotted a few sporadic posts with the simple phrase, "me too." Thinking it was just another weird social media game, I ignored it. It wasn't until I saw a few more that I decided to research it further. The first thing that popped up was a tweet by Alyssa Milano.
10 Places to Advertise Your Avon
First, I want to say this list is great for any MLM. Currently, I am an Avon rep. When I received my starter kit, I was a little lost. Where am I going to take these? I thought to myself. Then the next wave of worries set in. How am I suppose to talk to strangers? I didn't want to ask family and friends, for the fear of alienating them. Being a shy person, these ideas really helped me. No awkward sales pitch required.
Vegan Baking Guide
After years of cooking vegetarian and vegan food, I found some creative substitutions. Many recipes can be altered without sacrificing taste. That is the most important part, right? What if you could make your favorite dessert, but with a healthy twist? These are the cooking substitutions I believe everyone should know.