Being a writer is never a choice; it is an irresistible compulsion
I write about what I like and how I feel. It’s my outlet to make sure everything’s real.
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2020 has been a rocky road to say the least. I don’t think anyone could of ever imagined a year like this, it was supposed to be an amazing year as holidays seemed to be aligned perfectly with Christmas and New Years both being on a Friday. Instead, we have been surrounded by fear, death and struggle of everyone.
So, I am one of the lucky ones you could say with this. My work has made it so that I am working in self-isolation. Now to be clear, I do not feel sick, I have been tested and am negative for the COVID-19 virus, but I am still isolating myself and it is a choice. I may be one of the 97% who will be fine even in getting this virus as I am young and healthy and have a strong immune system. But I am doing this for the elderly, for people’s grandparents and old family members who may not be so lucky.
I cannot believe that you have left us and moved on. The world feels slightly empty now that you are gone. I am so thankful for the chance to have called you a friend and for you to be such an inspiration in my life. I would not have done half the things I did without you.
I’ve told my story before on my mental health. It has been shaky at best at times and I have been through some dark times. I am not proud of what I did in those dark times now, but I live with those and I live with those feelings on a daily basis. It is not easy to deal with, but music has helped especially certain songs in particular.
Lately it seems that most of the books I’ve been reading or seeing more of are those about people who just get up and leave. Either something major happened in their life, or they just were not happy with how things were going, so they packed up their entire life and left. They either just left where they were from and took a shot in a new city with no real plan on what was next or they decided to take a shot at some crazy adventure, traveling or going on a near impossible hike. And here I am. Haven’t really travelled, working a steady job, paying rent in a big city, trying to make a name for myself. All this going for me and I feel stuck.
As I travel to work on my daily commute, I have my nose in a book. Unlike most people who are on a device, I read a paperback or hard cover book. It is more relaxing than staring at a screen again, which I do at work and then again at home at the end of the day. The 3 hours of commuting I have in the day is my true me time. I had this man ask me why do I read a physical book when I could just have a kindle and read the books then.
In a woman’s life it is often said that there no relationship more important than her relationship with her mother. But that relationship is not always a totally healthy one. Sometimes the relationship is not totally toxic, but it has its moments where there are things that get said that really shouldn’t be said. Little jabs that rip you apart piece by piece and you have no control over it. Now its not all the time, and there are loving moments, so it is not that it’s a toxic relationship, or so you think at the time.
I do not think that there are any words to describe the devastation in the sports world right now. It's been 3 days since we lost one of the most influential players in basketball history, his daughter and 7 other members of the basketball community to a terrible accident.