Wannabe linguist. Wannabe novelist. Blogger. Poet. Avid reader. Boy mom. Have bipolar 2. Experience bisexual attraction. Love America. Love China. English language BA from BYU.
It's Hard to Write When It's Hard to Concentrate
My oldest son complains that I don't finish sentences when I am talking, which is sadly true. I get distracted midthought, or my thought isn't complete so I lose what I was saying. My husband and son will wait until I form the words for the thought. Sometimes it never comes. I often ask for "whatchamacallit" and can describe the item, where it is located, and so on. If my husband is on the same wavelength, he will bring me the "whatchamacallit". (I googled a long question which resulted in tip-of-the-tongue, anomia, and aphasia--not "apraxia" which first came to mind.) Sometimes it will take hours, weeks, or months before I remember the word I want to use. Ironically, I have an excellent memory of faces--sometimes their names.
Huangshan Mountains Haiku
Craggy climbs ‘midst clouds Twisted pines cleave between rocks A lone lotus blooms To read more of my poetry or thoughts, subscribe to my Vocal page, Medium page, or personal blog Musings of a Crazy Redhead. You can follow me on Twitter and Facebook. I also appreciate tips or pledges to fund my dream vacation in Huangshan Mountains. Thanks!
How to Gain Weight Quickly
I keep seeing articles about how to lose weight. People, this is not the answer! I tell you, you need a different mindset and solution. Good thing I know how to gain weight quickly--even 130 lbs. I've done it over the last 20 years. It's rather simple really. Let me share my tips with you!
Jesus Healed the Lepers without a Biohazard Suit On
The Historical Jesus First-century Hebrews didn't have personal protective equipment, only a set of health codes, one of which included avoiding lepers. The New Testament tells of Jesus entering leper colonies and healing them despite society believing lepers were unclean. Whether he had the power to heal or not, Jesus risked illness and death entering the leper colonies. He also risked infecting others with leprosy and other illnesses. As a divine figure in Christianity, a rabbi in Judaism, and a prophet in Islam, many believers emulate his example in many areas of life. I wonder how some might view his risks of contracting and spreading disease. What precautions he did take?
Pillows, Comfort Objects, and the Elephant in the Room
At my last counseling session, I asked my counselor for a throw pillow perched on a chair. As she handed it over, she called it her "elephant in the room" pillow, so clients can acknowledge hard issues in their lives. The elephant pillow is one large blob with flappy ears and a stuffed trunk. It has soft fabric that's soothing to rub too.
Fruity Paradise after a Hot Day at the Pool
After swimming for hours at the Blanding City Pool by the South Chapel, the coins pressed in my hand, the parking lot asphalt scorched my feet as I dashed to the yellow Sno Shack across Main Street. I waited behind a friend, my brother, my cousin, or other eager preteens, the goathead thorns digging into the heels and balls of our feet. But the pain was worth the upcoming brain freeze to counteract the dry heat.
The Dragon Pools
“There weren’t always dragons in the Valley. They escaped from lands far away to find refuge among the Emerald Valley pools.” Ranyi injected fake enthusiasm into a tale her tourist groups often enjoyed. A few tourists wanted to believe mythical creatures existed, but magic didn’t exist when her parents and brother needed yuan to feed them. Instead, only hard work and its resultant tan mattered. Thus, she’d call a deer a horse all day long to wealthy visitors.
Why I Quit My Second Job
Many of us operate on the cordiality principle where we want to please others around us. This desire helps bind us as a community, but can also backfire. We can overcommit ourselves when we won't say no to another person. I fell into this trap this spring (as I have many springs when my energy returns).
Calm that Anxiety Playlist
Through the years, I've recognized how powerful music is to calm the soul. As a preteen, I fell asleep to Amy Grant's album Heart in Motion. I waited anxiously on the radio for Gloria Estefan's "I See You Smile". Through the years, I went through phases of what songs calmed my troubled soul--some pop, rock, or gospel music. However it works, music speaks and soothes the spirit.
Coming to Terms with My Bisexuality Within a My Moral Framework
I didn't "come out" as bisexual until Summer 2021 partially because I didn't have a term for my sexuality until a few years ago. Even when I did mention my sexual orientation almost two years ago, I only mentioned it briefly in a blog post. Later, I mentioned it in the context of tribalism on my personal Facebook page. No one said anything about my subtle "coming out". In a way, this comforted me because my friends and family viewed me as the same person.