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Gemini Horoscope: A Bright Future After Surviving a Dark Past
Gemini season is here, and things are looking up. After surviving a wicked year that was as intense and transformative as predicted, Gemini, you are ready to give your ability to adapt a much-needed break. This Gemini season will be full of fun, adventure, and opportunity. But you will need to use your energy and wit if you want to take advantage of these opportunities.
Thirty & Thriving: Thirty Things I Learned in the Year That I Turned Thirty
The idea of turning thirty was making me anxious. What if I wasn’t ready to be that old? What if I hadn’t accomplished everything that I wanted to? I decided I would do what I do best: avoid it. I began planning a vacation; hoping, if I went far enough away, I could convince myself that it wasn’t happening. Unfortunately, my thirtieth birthday was slated for May 22, 2020. There would be no jumping on a plane, no vacation—no escape as the world entered a global pandemic.
Brian Solis said, “Memories are the architecture of our identity.” Memories give us the ability to be aware of ourselves and alter our existence. Without memory, how do I even know I exist? I feel as though I am floating in the plasma of time, unable to return to my past, and unable to move forward without it. They say it is my own mind keeping me here. It feels ironic when all I think about is leaving this place.
The End of Bernie Madoff: Money, Mental Health, and Suicide
“Bernie Madoff, infamous Ponzi schemer, has died,” a CNN notification on my phone alerted me, reminding me not of the magnitude of his Ponzi scheme, but of the lives that were lost. I ignored the news for a bit, continuing to write and enjoy my morning coffee, before entering “Bernie Madoff” into Google. A deep dive ensued, and when I finally closed my browser, my feelings remained the same, if not more palpable, apathetic to the financial losses but immensely saddened by the inane loss of life.
Check Me Out @instagram
Despite being a linguistic enthusiast, my favorite social media platform is Instagram, with its cardinal images and bite size captions. So it's no surprise that I have spent enough time on Instagram to be "plagued" or "graced" (I'll let you decide) with many advertisements.
Let the Planners Collect Dust
Spring forward. Productivity. Habits. Long-term success. The words swim through the recesses of my brain. A barely used planner sits in a pile on the floor. Sticky notes with reminders of things "to do" litter my desk. I have avoided my office for three days now. I placed paperwork on my desk, and told myself I can't use it until I finish it. My solution: use every other clean surface, just so I will not have to complete the forms waiting for me.
The Demon and Angel Raging Inside of Me
I have been searching for the key, the one that will fit my psyche, to stop this daydream, no nightmare, even just for a moment. To feel content in one place, to feel human connection, to end the search for the ever out-of-reach truth, to stop restraining the demon and angel that rage inside of me.