Have you ever felt like the world was on top of your shoulders? You could be standing up tall, but still have difficulty breathing. No matter how many times someone told you, “it gets better” nothing ever changed. So, what creates change? Is it actions alone, words alone, or actions and words together? Does one person create change? Or do we have to work together?
Throughout the years, rape is a topic which is on headlines, mainly because of the increasing rates of rape. It is quite normal that when society is confronted with a social ill, society will construct mechanisms which help us from being victims of rape. However, we often forget to teach ourselves not to rape.
This is my story on suffering mental abuse in a relationship. I guess I will just start from the beginning. I met a guy in a time of my life where I felt I absolutely needed someone to be happy. I didn’t truly love myself or believe myself to be worthy, and jumped at any guy who came my way. This is when I started dating my first long-term boyfriend.
I’ve been living a filtered life, a life that most of us wish we had from the looks of it. My life is not perfect, but I almost put on an act to make it seem like everything is “okay.” From having the most laid back job, which is has decent pay, to traveling recently for my music. People that don’t really know who I am, but know me on social media keep telling me, “ you must be living the life, you’re traveling all over the place now.” And trust me, I am not trying to make it seem like I am ungrateful for it. I am completely grateful for it, but I have worked my ass bussing tables and taking orders from people who yell in my face, but I still have to put a smile on my face and do what I am told, but i’ve grown such a thick skin for people who treat others below them to not bother me because at the end of the day they are really not happy in their lives themselves.
April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month. And while the #MeToo movement gets a bad reputation for being “too feminist” (“too feminist” is a load of bullshit, if you ask me), I think that this movement has made it easier for individuals to share their stories… myself included. I’ve *briefly* talked about my rape before in another Vocal post titled, “An Open Letter to My Rapist.” It was more of a poetic “fuck you” than anything else, but it was cathartic nonetheless. However, as I’ve pondered and thought and reread, I realized that there was a big part of the story that was missing. And when I look at other people’s stories, I noticed the same thing. We all talk about the rape or assault, but never what happens afterwards. So I wanted to write on this topic again and do it justice. Tell the full story. After-effects and all. No sugar coating… I’ll start at the beginning.
Johnny Depp, it seems, has been vindicated in several areas of the "Court of Public Opinion." His lawsuit against his ex-wife Amber Heard, where he is suing her for no less than fifty million U.S. dollars, has shed new light on that which has plagued the media for nearly three years. Now, after so much rage from MeToo protesters about Johnny Depp's continued employment as an actor and musician, people are stepping back, and realizing that yes, Amber Heard just might have lied after all. Not only that, but new evidence points to Amber, not Johnny, as the abusive partner in that relationship.
Most things happen for a reason, but we don't always see that when the issue negatively affects us. Sometimes it can take a long time to see this. For me, it was four months to see that such a traumatic event opened a lot of doors for me to a beginning of a new life. My new life.
Throughout the history of the United States, government officials have spoken about filthy things forgetting about the idea of political correctness entirely. Current president, Donald Trump, when referring to women has felt entitled to “grab ‘em by the pussy.” Some politicians have been corrected, yet to this day, some still continue to speak openly about their disgusting sexual desires that should clearly be kept to themselves. Women have dealt with suffrage far too long now to be constantly reminded that they aren’t respected for their individualism and viewed simply for their biological structures. Statements underestimating the impact of sexual assault/harassment are tolerated too much in our society and in our government.