Beyond the Blues
Understanding depression is difficult; hear from Psyche's community of peers on their experiences with this mood disorder.
Depression In The Pandemic.
Depression is something that I have felt countless times. I have struggled with depression since childhood. It is not a new feeling to me. The Manic Bipolar Depression are the worse bouts of depression, and feel like they are never-ending. I thought I had experienced most every way depression could attack me until my normal depressive states combined my frustration and anxiety in the current COVID-19 pandemic.
I'm Intelligent AND Mentally Ill. And That's Okay
I am a relatively intelligent person. I am university-educated, and have worked as a college lecturer. My primary field is the theater, but I am well-read, and - although my preference would be to bore you for hours talking about Shakespeare and Beckett - I would also be happy to have a conversation about F. Scott Fitzgerald, Maya Angelou, Friedrich Nietzsche, Carl Jung, Frida Kahlo. or the French Revolution.
Hi.. Started a new job few days ago... that got me really depressed now. It is just really sad. Yesterday, I was so depressed that I couldn't even talk and I couldn't stand it myself and had to call a friend up to talk a bit. Then I guess after I talked to her a bit, I think I was able to let it go a bit and not feel so bad now. I asked her if she can tell the severity of my depression and she said she could and can even give it a range from 1 to 10. I am quite surprised that she can tell that. It's the first time I've asked her that, so I am surprised of her answers.
The Worst Wish
I wish my daughter had cancer. That sounds just awful, I know. And as awful as it sounds, it’s ten times worse to have that thought bouncing around your head. Then multiply that awfulness by 100, once you put it out in to the world. But I promise, I’m not the worst father in the world. I’m also not suffering from Munchausen syndrome by proxy.
This calls for a celebration. Definitely not your typical hullabaloo as you would for a graduation, promotion, wedding or any other milestone most would typically proudly proclaim amongst trusted loved ones. But something most would reconsider sharing with anyone else.
Depression is a Ten Letter Word
New year’s resolutions can be a tricky thing to stick with, especially since good habits...and bad ones, I suppose, can take about thirty days to develop. With perseverance and grit, continuing that resolution of hitting the gym, eating healthier, or even just spending less time on social medias can become second nature. And each year our society has us conditioned to set up some overarching goal to challenge the best within ourselves. Last year, quarantine left my friends on their own with workout challenges, binge-watching The Outer Banks (no, I haven't seen it yet, John B.), and learning how to fail at becoming Tiktok famous. I watched strangers across the internet pick up new hobbies and recreate themselves in truly unique ways.
This past summer I went through a challenging time. I have been dealing with mental health issues for years and thought it might be a good idea to go off all my meds at once.
What Is Winter Depression and How to Deal With It in 7 Items?
Usually, the gloom of the winter months makes us dark. Being overcast can cause mental depression, so there are days when we don't want to leave the house. Some days you may even be spending most of the day sleeping. This mildly depressed mood is called winter depression.
Happiness after Depression?
Is it even possible to be happy in the same way you once were after battling depression? I'm still trying to find the answer after dealing with it myself. I have had depression since I was a child due to my life circumstances. I have been in therapy for years, and have gone through trial and error with medication until I found the one that seems to help. Occasionally, I laugh, I smile, and I seem happy. What I actually feel though is not much different from when I was going through a depressive phase. I do not get a spark of joy or a sense of satisfaction out of anything. That could be my perfectionistic standards, but I believe that since I have been clinically depressed for such a long time, my brain is in a permanent state of neutral. I know I should be happy and excited, but it's as if I can't feel pleasure unless it is physical. Which begs the question, can you even BE happy in the same way after dealing with depression? Science says yes, but how long afterwards is inconclusive and depends on the person.
How Much Self-Help do We Really Need?
The world is full of self-help. From books, websites, articles, and everything in between, there is no shortage of information on how to help yourself do everything from being better organized to living a better life.
Self-Love not Harm
I think the first time I self-harmed was in fifth grade. I told my parents it was because I wanted to be blood sisters with the other girl who had raked both her wrists against the school building with me during recess one day. We had of course performed the whole “blood sisters” ritual, but it was about more than that. She was in deep pain, having recently lost her mother to suicide and I was dealing with things that were way above my age level to process. We were both crying out for help without even realizing it. When it became clear that I was in trouble for my actions, I lied instead of telling the truth, because that’s what I did back then. Rather than admit that I needed help, I told a partial truth in order to escape the real trouble of dealing with the real problem.
Changing the Narrative: Mental Health Awareness in Film & Fiction | Statistics & Solutions
TRIGGER WARNING: In-depth talk of suicide, depression, eating disorders and other mental health conditions. 1 in 4 people experience a diagnosable mental health issue every year in the U.S. and U.K. Around eight hundred thousand people die by suicide every year - it is estimated that for each person who dies from suicide, another 20 attempts to do the same. Suicide is also the leading cause of death for men between 18-50: