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Nineteen Years

Dark Thoughts while Poking the Berry

By Randy Wayne Jellison-KnockPublished 21 days ago β€’ 1 min read
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Nineteen Years
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Nineteen years,

sleeping alone.

Before that brief repast,

eleven years more.

Ere that,

eight uncertain,

always left to guess.

~~~~~

Then to discover

a friend counts me never,

but a joke well played,

only late,

the butt discovered.

~~~~~

Belladonna waits outside,

volunteer in the garden,

fully ripe.

You want it removed,

disposed.

But not before

those dark sweet berries

are mine

& I rest

at last supine

in every sense.

~~~~~

Alas, the taste of

but blackberry chocolate,

pokeberries,

purple lips,

purple tongue,

upset tummy,

the smooth flow of blood

& creamy brown

all night long.

~~~~~

My just due

for ever thinking

I could leave you.

sad poetryheartbreakCONTENT WARNING
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About the Creator

Randy Wayne Jellison-Knock

Retired Ordained Elder in The United Methodist Church having served for a total of 30 years in Missouri, South Dakota & Kansas.

Born in Watertown, SD on 9/26/1959. Married to Sandra Jellison-Knock on 1/24/1986. One son, Keenan, deceased.

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  • The Invisible Writer3 days ago

    Very dark and bitter sweet

  • Mackenzie Davis17 days ago

    Feels weird to click the heart for this one, but I do really like how you crafted this. It reverberates with a deep melancholy, a depression that has overtaken the mind and is creeping toward the soul. I cannot get the image of dark purple out of my head now. If anyone could keep the speaker from going through with it, it would be "you." Or at least, I hope it's as hopeful as I'm interpreting it. "Then to discover a friend counts me never, but a joke well played, only late, the butt discovered." -- These lines are particularly impactful. True story? (I'm wondering about a few possibilities.) I know you're not alright, not completely, and I see it here in this piece. Seems to be a more resigned feeling than in your grocery list poem, as if it's been in the works for months or years. Please be okay soon. I might have to go shopping for serotonin-rich foods for you. πŸ’œ

  • Kelly Sibley 19 days ago

    Ooooo, so dark! Loved it! As always very well done!

  • Darkly beautiful 🀍

  • Heather Hubler19 days ago

    I have no way to describe this, really. It was such a perfectly twisted blend of sadness, despair and decadence. Superbly written :)

  • Novel Allen20 days ago

    So dark the hearts of men. Belladonna, such a lovely word for an evil thing. Yet no one is worth another's life. Except the bible thing, 'greater love hath no man than this etc'.

  • Then to discover a friend counts me never, but a joke well played, only late, the butt discovered. These lines hit me so hard. They were just wayyyyy too relatable. Your poem was so heartbreaking. I hope you're okay and that you feel better after writing this. Sending you lots of love and hugs! ❀️

  • Manisha Dhalani20 days ago

    Randy, this is something else. Love the second stanza.

  • Naveed21 days ago

    Wow, Randy, The pain of betrayal, the longing for death, and the power of beauty.

  • Kendall Defoe 21 days ago

    A very sensual and deep poem. I like this one a lot.

  • eery and alluring, 'but a joke well played, only late, the butt discovered' - wonderful line

  • Wow Randy, this is dark for you but I love it.

  • Donna Renee21 days ago

    ooh this is really twisty (in a good way), Randy.

  • Mother Combs21 days ago

    Really good. See you worked the belladonna in there.

  • Cathy holmes21 days ago

    This is beautiful, but dark. Well done.

  • Canuck Scriber21 days ago

    Beautiful!

  • So delectably smooth all the way to the very end!!!

  • Babs Iverson21 days ago

    Evocative!!! πŸ’•β€οΈβ€οΈ

  • Tom Baker21 days ago

    Why would this be offensive?

  • This feels like a deep rich broth that has been in the making for years, truly a layered and delicate dish with enough to keep you full, yet wanting more

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