One of my favourite things to do is to run my fingers across the lines of your face.
To memorise exactly where they begin and end,
When a new one appears as a result of the years,
Where your smiles and frowns have left traces;
History.
Truth is, I do this now hoping one day I’ll be able to recall
Exactly where they were so I can trace them on my own,
Recounting stroke and line like rhythms in rhyme.
My brain reminds me every minute:
"It won’t always be this way
Take it in whilst you can;
Savour."
It’s my own fault I made you promise I die first, it’s how it needs to be
If you go first well…
No, I’ll go first.
See this is why it hurts
Loss is inevitable, someone always leaves
There is always another to leave behind, to say goodbye to, to be reminded of;
Mourning.
So I let my hands rest a little longer on your jaw, knowing exactly how I’ll grieve
Truth is, I’ve already started.
Sometimes it grows so much that it aches all over.
As the years increase in number so does the size of the pit in my stomach
So does the hole you’re going to leave behind,
Can’t you see it?
It grows with every laugh and tickle,
Every fight ending in forgiveness
Every touch into ecstasy
Every tear cupped by kisses
Every meal cooked in affection
Every embrace leading to sleep
Every step taken on adventure
Every time you say
You miss me
You want me
You love…
So I’ll continue to trace the lines on your face
To run my fingers up and down the veins on your arms
I’ll keep trying to hold, keep, squeeze;
Remember.
About the Creator
Keshia MF
Indecisive, laughing happens after coffee, finally clawing my way out of writers block enforced by grief.
IG: keshiamf_
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