I Smelt It On Him

I smelt it on him.

I smelt her on him.

I saw her messages.

I saw her lip-print on his clothes.

I heard him mumble her name in the half-light

I felt the disconnect

I saw it in his eyes

I felt it in the cooling spot next to me in the small hours

I felt it in tingle of distance left on my fingertips

When he pulled away from me

I felt it in the kisses he didn't give

That were going to someone else

I felt the distance growing

I felt it in the pricking of my tears

I felt the gut punch

I felt the disorientation

The bottom dropping from my stomach

From my world

I felt guilty

If I was better

If I was kinder

If I was prettier

If I was

If I was

If I was

If I

If

I tasted the betrayal with my whole body

I smelted it

Into raw red fury

Felt the heat from his blackening clothes

Burning the salt tracks from my face

Fire cleanses

Until there's nothing left of what my love was

Curling away into nothing

Keep your phone close

You never left it unlocked

Or

Unattended

Taking it to the bathroom with you

Run to her

And may you be as happy together as you deserve

I know she'll never

Trust you like I did

Or maybe she is stupid, like you

Run fast and far until I can't smell the stink of your failure any longer

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Minor edit to correct the echo